CAMELLIAS

episode 18's

Confused eps 18

Kara Kaisara's

"Why take me to your house?" I asked After Faro drove me home.

"Why? Don't like it?"

"It's not. I like it, even I'm happy, you're really good. Sampain bawain cookies all." I pointed at the plastic containing one jar containing chocolate cookies.

"You love making cakes and cookies happen to be Alma's favorite."

I nodded, it was true that Alma really liked cookies made by Aunt Salma, Mother Faro. Because during the process of making the cake, Alma occasionally took cookies that had just come out of the oven, even though it was still hot.

Today after the tutelage was over, Faro suddenly asked me to go somewhere. At first I refused because my legs still hurt, although not as painful as yesterday. I thought he would take me to the lake like that, but Faro took me to his house.

His house is not as big as mine. The house is simple with a spacious yard overgrown with various fruit trees and ornamental plants, very comfortable and also cool. I want to linger in that place.

Faro has a beautiful sister, and Mother is no less beautiful as well. They welcomed me well, even Aunt Salma invited me to make cookies Alma's favorite. I really like the Faro family's interactions, although they live in simplicity but they complement each other. Aunt Salma did not consider me as a guest, she was immediately familiar once I came even though this was the first meeting.

Aunty Salma deftly made cookies, aided by me and Alma, while Faro bought some materials that had been lacking, in the minimarket not far from their home.

I've never seen a motherly figure like Aunt Salma in Mom. Even though I just make cakes or make other dishes, I never do anything like that. Unlike Aunt Salma who was very considerate and made food that her children liked, made me envious.

Faro's phone ringing made me aware of the daydream. Faro got off his bike, stepped a little away from where I was standing. I waited for him for a few minutes, not knowing what he was talking about, but his face looked irritated.

"Is there a problem?" I asked, as soon as Faro finished his call and returned to where I was.

"Little bit. I forgot that today there's an appointment with Dea." I forgot one thing, if Faro was still Kak Dea's girlfriend. Sometimes I forget that, like today.

"I want to go home, right?"

"Yes." Yeah." A little hasty, Faro drove his motor, so do not look anymore.

"Where are you from?" I turned my head as soon as I reached the front of the room and found Mom standing by the door of her room, not far from my room.

"From a friend's house."

"When did the teacher become your friend?"

I didn't answer, I bent down tightly clutching the plastic jar of cookies given by Aunt Salma. I heard Mom's steps getting closer, my heart getting less and less.

"Mom told you to learn, is that hard? Your job is to learn, not to wander out with a guy like that!"

"I'm sorry, I was just playing for a while."

"Your germs say? Go without your permission to say just? Since when did you start to think of things like this, just. Is it because that guy taught you?!" Mother's voice grew higher, making me shiver with fear. Mother was often angry, but every time she was angry like this still scared me.

"It's not, Bu. Just this time Kara came out, and went to her house. Not anywhere else."

"Now not anywhere. But later? You can go out when Mom's not home. Listen carefully, I don't want to hear or see you go with anyone, including him without permission first. Or I'll replace your tutor. Understand?!"

Mom went back to her room, while I was still standing, my body was shaking withstanding the cries from earlier.

After locking the bedroom door, I immediately threw myself on the bed, immersed myself in the blanket, muffling the slow sobs that I could no longer stand.

I curled up like a fetus, one hand still holding a plastic jar of cookies that I had not had time to save, one hand clutching the front of the shirt, holding my heart tightness that was increasingly throbbing pain.

I've never done anything else that I've liked like most kids my age. I always obeyed all of Mom's will, including studying and continuing to learn until my head seemed to break. But in the slightest Mother never praised or appreciated all my efforts and hard work to look good in Mom's eyes.

Mom was always angry if I made the slightest mistake, and never praised even though all my grades were above average, it was unfair. I cried not because of her ban, but I cried because of all her demands, but at least Mother never paid attention to me.

BTS DNA song chants slowly from my phone, a sign of an incoming call. I still ignored him several times, but my phone kept ringing repeatedly. I fumbled around the bed, looking for a cell phone somewhere. As soon as I found the phone near the pillow and saw the screen, it turned out that there were many incoming calls and messages from the same person.

Not long after, the phone screen went back on. This time a video call. Once the call was still ignored, I thought he would stop because of my abandonment, but it was getting more and more even without pause. I got up, sat on the bed and shifted the green button, just a black picture and then someone's face appeared.

"Why?" I asked once the face of Jupiter was seen on the screen of the phone. But instead of answering, he still silently looked at me. For a while I was silent too.

"If you don't want to talk about me!" I raised my hand about to press the red button on the screen.

"It's really hard to connect Lo,"

I poked the red button, as soon as Jupiter made a sound.

"If I don't pick up, it's busy."

"So busy being a person."

"Have been busy!" My elak.

Jupiter just clucked, still staring straight at me. His gaze was strange, a little make me misbehave, occasionally I cleared my throat because Jupiter was just silent like never before.

"You video call what the hell is it? If no one wants to talk about it, I'm going to sleep."

"Sleep, stay here."

"But I can't sleep, and my phone is still gini-rich."

"You just put the phone near the pillow, and you sleep. It's done, right?"

"Eh wait. Since when do you talk to me, you. I'm also used to it,elu." I just realized Jupiter is calmer even he no longer uses the word Lo, but instead you.

"I shiver with her." I rubbed my arms in turn.

"Don't bring it if you want to sleep yes rejuvenate. But not at matiin."

"I'm really sleepy, Jupiter. I'm going to sleep!"

"I didn't say you were lying. Staying asleep is hard."

Although quieter and calmer than usual, Jupiter is still difficult to argue. I put my body back on the bed, put my phone on the pillow right across the pillow I was wearing and started to close my eyes. I purposely pretended to be asleep, so that Jupiter would turn off the call.

For a long time without me knowing, I was really asleep, even I was still wearing clothes earlier, had not had time to change clothes or clean myself though. I don't know how long I slept, maybe about an hour because I started to feel cold as soon as I realized the blanket was still lying next door, I didn't have time to wear it.

I was surprised to see the phone screen still on and Jupiter was still there looking at me exactly like before. Only now did he lie down, no longer sitting as I had last seen. Scroll a glance at the clock above the nightstand, I was surprised to see the clock hand showing twelve o'clock at night.

Oh, my God, that means I've been asleep for three hours, 'cause I remember the last time before I went to bed it was still nine.

"You haven't slept? Why don't I just die," I still rub my eyes alternately. No Answer, Jupiter was still staring at me.

"Jupiter! What exactly are you? Asked by diem, not allowed." I'm getting confused about it.

"I just want your mastiin not to cry anymore."

"Huh? I don't cry. When do I cry?"

"You can't lie."

I just remembered, before raising the call from Jupiter I did cry and maybe my eyes still looked red.

"It wasn't crying, but I cleaned the room. A lot of dust so my eyes hurt."

"Maybe it's not the dust of the streets."

"You mean?"

"Nothing," he answered indifferently. But I saw something he was hiding. There was actually something I wanted to ask Jupiter about, because this afternoon as soon as I arrived at Faro's house, I saw someone watching from afar using a red ducati motor,just like Jupiter, I'm not too sure, because it's impossible for Jupiter to follow me that far.

"Where were you this afternoon? Are you going somewhere." Though hesitant, but I need to make sure.

"I've been home since school." Answer

"Really?"

"I've never lied, or maybe you're lying." Jupiter turned her question on me.

"What do you mean by lying?"

"I said maybe, Kara! Doesn't mean yes. Unless you're lying."

The conversation that makes me more confused, only revolves around lying and not.

"I'm gonna take a shower." I got up, still holding the phone while walking towards the bathroom.

"There's no way you're going to the bathroom, so you'd better be dead. It's too lazy." I put the phone near the bathroom sink, turned on the hot water before taking a shower.

"Can I ask for help?"

"When do you need permission? Maksa too."

"I'm serious, Kara!"

"Yes,,,yes. What do you want to ask for help?"

"Find me if you need help, don't find anyone else."  I was stunned to hear his words.

"Today you're weird, did something happen or maybe you stumbled and your brain just fell a little bit?" My god. Usually Jupiter reacted immediately as soon as I said it, but this time she was silent, even though a faint smile appeared on her lips.

"That's right, I'm still on them, too. You're weird you know."

"You can say as much as I can, if you want."

I looked back into his eyes. The first time I looked at Jupiter without having to fight each other first, even this time staring at each other in a state of calm, not arguing as usual. I just realized that Jupiter has a very beautiful brown eyeball, her lips thin, her nose pointed and her eyebrows thick. I unconsciously smiled, watching his face.

As soon as Jupiter returned my smile, my cheeks suddenly felt hot, and the temperature of the bathroom that was supposed to be cold actually felt hot. I immediately disconnected my eyes, pretending to take a toothbrush, only that thing was immediately visible, because it was the closest distance to where I was standing.

"I'm gonna take a shower." I brandished my toothbrush to shake left and right.

"Wake with warm water, do not let in the wind for long." I just nodded in response.

"Oh yeah, I have a birthday today. You don't want to say anything?"

"Really?"

"Yet last year, because now it's changing days again."

"I don't know. Even though it's late, happy birthday Jupiter. Pray that what you want will be accomplished soon."

"Corno?" Jupiter turned her hand towards me.

"You want a gift? You must have everything."

"Who said I had everything."

"No, that was a prayer."

"I just want to collect a gift, which is your prayer."

"The prayer can't be instant."

"Who said."

"Whatever!"

Jupiter laughed at me clucking in annoyance, because she kept interrupting me.

"You prayed that what I wanted would be done quickly. And, what I want is you. So I can charge the card? Because I want to get to my card immediately." There is not the slightest doubt when saying it. I could only go silent, open my eyes, disbelieve and be shocked to hear Jupiter's confession.

"Good night, Cara. I'll see you tomorrow. I'm still waiting for a gift from you." Jupiter turned off the call, I smiled after Jupiter disappeared from the phone screen.

The phone screen turned dark, but not with my heart. Like there is a bright light in my heart, slowly the light is able to warm the niche of my heart that has been cold and empty.