Bride Choice

The Beginning of a Catastrophe

After two days of Juna accompanying me in the hospital, today I can go home. Go home somewhere. The place I always called home is now the place I want to avoid.

There's no choice. I gave it all to Juna. I don't know where he's taking me. Her house? it's impossible and I don't want to even if Juna offers. The woman that Raka called Grandma, somehow I have a bad feeling towards her.

"For a while, you lived in an apartment only. I'll rent it for you."

"Lease? don't you have your own apartment?"

"No interest. Wh-wh-what for? I have one more house, but it doesn't feel as private as an apartment."

"Do you want to keep me from people?"

"It's no use. After all, some colleagues already know who you are in my life. You yourself are refusing to stay in the main house."

"Yes. Alright. It's up to you. What matters is not to go home."

"Learn to forgive. That way your life will be full of happiness."

"Focus just drive. I don't want to have another accident."

Nothing Juna said anymore. He only tightened his grip that he had never let go from the start. Our trip was long enough to get to our destination. We were almost sixty minutes away.

The apartment we rented was on the fifteenth floor. The apartment was quite large and spacious. There are two rooms that have their own bathroom inside. One living room, family room and kitchen.

"Hows it? do you like it?"

"Hem. Appreciable. It's just ...."

"What's wrong? if you don't like it, we can find another."

"Whatever place I'll go, I won't be able to sleep alone."

"That can be discussed later. What matters is that we get somewhere first. O, yes. Do you want to be clear first?"

"What shopping?"

"Food and clothing."

"really. I don't have a change of clothes. Let's go shopping, but after a short break. I'm feeling a little tired."

"of course. Rest in the room. I'll just wait here."

"Yes, I'll rest first."

My body feels tired and weak. I always wanted to lie down and close my eyes.

Inside this room, my eyes could not be closed at all. My mind drifted somewhere. All persolan began to interfere with the desire to rest.

"Abang .. I miss."

I'm not really mad at him. It's just that I was disappointed in his words. No matter how disappointed it is, it cannot cover the other taste. The affection and also the longing that rains the heart.

"Maybe I was selfish for not being able to understand that he needed another life. I need a wife who can give me what I can't love. Having a child that can make him smile and let go of fatigue."

"Hey .. he said he wanted to rest. What's up?"

Juna walked into the room after hearing me as he pleased. Might as well. He was sitting on the bed right behind me.

"Don't cry on. Later you will get even more tired" he whispered in my ear. He kissed the temple and hugged me.

"Sleep. I'll accompany you here."

I turned around and returned his embrace. Shedding tears until fatigue put me into a deep sleep.

When I opened my eyes, I was shocked to see someone's face right in front of me. I who have not gotten used to sleeping with anyone other than Aban or Big Brother felt a little strange.

Junas. He looked so peaceful and innocent while asleep. There was no ferocious impression of what else cruel from his face.

My face is getting closer to his. I looked at every corner of that handsome face. Look at her thick eyelashes. His nose is sharp. Her lentic eyelashes and her cheeks are overgrown with feathers. Her lips are thin and reddish. The lips that made me feel like I was electrocuted. Suddenly my face warmed when I remembered the incident.

"You look better when you're sleeping. It is impossible if you are a cruel person. Am I really the initials woman for getting a place in your heart?"

It feels really good to see him from this close distance. Without her intimidating look.

"Yes aampuun .. These lips make me think a no-no. Aware Naya!"

"Do you want to feel it again?" said Juna who suddenly opened his eyes. The conscious me immediately pulled the body away from her, but she did not let it go so easily. We were facing each other even closer than before.

Nothing was said of him. He just stared intensely at me. The hand that pulled my body slowly rose and stopped right at the nape. Now our faces are so close that we can feel each other's breath.

"Stop." I pulled my face away. The kiss she gave me was not what I felt in the hospital. This time my body not only felt an electric sting but this whole body was like burning fire.

"Have just got here. We better go shopping." I got out of bed, walked to the mirror to tidy up. There is a slight pain in the inner lips.

Juna came over and hugged me from behind. "What hurts?" tanyanya while kissing my head. "I'm sorry for the pain, but not for anything else. Come on, it's getting dark."

All the way up to when we were shopping, my mind was not focused. I need to neutralize a body that still feels hot. It's really uncomfortable. Repeatedly trying to let go of the hand, many times he tried to hold back.

"What kind of bedding do you want to buy?"

Many times I turned around looking for a comfortable nightgown. The clothes I always wear at home. I don't know what Juna thinks. He took me to a place like this.

After a long search, I finally found the clothes that I like. stelan shirt with a large size with pants. Juna bought some stels, and some dresses for me to wear during the day.

"Don't come in!"

"Why? let me know what your taste is?"

"For what? would you like if I asked to buy this someday? not ashamed of it?"

"No. Why should I be ashamed? I just bought my wife an underwear. So?"

"Not now. I'll be a husband later."

"Exercise is just that." Juna started teasing. He was only able to shut up after I rounded my eyes.

After spending a few hours in this mall, we decided to go home before the night got late.

"It's already night. We should have eaten first."

"We've been shopping for vegetables and other food. Cook it yourself. It just takes a minute, okay."

"You're healed, Nay. Should've just rested."

"I'm tired from yesterday lying on my back."

"alright. I'm also curious about the taste of the cuisine you're making."

Arriving at the apartment. I'm going to take care of all the groceries tonight. Storing food according to the needs of the place. Take care of the clothes you just bought. Forced these clothes I do not wash before wearing them because I have to change clothes right now.

Juna hasn't been out of the bathroom yet. I don't know what he's doing. Even I feel like a woman from birth, not all this time when I'm in the shower.

Dinner without carbo. That was my habit for a long time. Just making a vegetable salad and chicken steak. Guava juice and also Juna's favorite orange juice. Don't forget the egg that I kept on top of the vegetable salad.

"For so long a bath, girl," I stuck to Juna as he finished his bath and got dressed. He just smiled knotily and I still arranged the food on the table.

"Is this delicious?"

"Try it before commenting. Just be careful if you ask for more."

"Don't let my stomach hurt, okay!"

We sat next to each other during meals because of the position of the chair and also the condition of the room that was not supportive.

"Where? your stomach hurts?"

"It's delicious." she went back to eating voraciously. "I can't believe you can cook. Given how potent this smart girl is."

"Abang and Brother never ate the food that the maid made. I always prepare everything in the morning. In fact, I always feed my brother when he's not tasteful."

"Did you miss them?"

I'm turning. For a moment we looked at each other.

"Take the food. We should go to bed soon. It's late at night." I switched the subject.

Tonight, Juna just accompanied via video call. We slept separately. Until I really fell asleep.

I don't know what time it is. My thirst made me wake up again. Even with ogah-ogahan, I went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. I saw Juna still sitting on the sofa with the television on.

Recollecting back to Raka's words about Juna who always had trouble sleeping because of the burden of his mind.

"Why not sleep?"

"Hi."

"Don't get used to it like this. You could get sick. Your body needs enough rest after a long day's work."

"I want it to be like that too." Juna was still focusing on the television layer in front of us.

The longer these eyes stared at him, the more I found. The sadness, the fatigue and the heavy burden he bore were so obvious. I don't know where my body's leaning towards him. Intended to kiss her cheek. What was the force at the same time, he looked at me. And our lips meet.

This eye blinked several times with a very fast rhythm.

'that's humiliating.'

Me and Juna were both shocked. Even with different taste and guess. I don't know what he's thinking now.

"I'll go to the room first."

The nervousness made me completely unfocused. Stumbling feet. Juna, who was shocked, pulled my hand because he thought I was going to fall. Yes, I did fall but was embraced by him.

"Are you okay?" tanyakanya. I just shook my head slowly. Although actually the big toe feels hot and sore.

As soon as I got to the room, I immediately took a breath and exhaled it strongly. Squeezing fingers on a hot face. Stupid because the room is lit.

Still in an unstable condition, the door of the room sounded knocked. When I opened it, Juna stood there. Without excuse and speaking a word he just walked in.

My mind says that this is all wrong. The biggest mistake I ever made. However, the body and heart do not run parallel to the intellect. I accepted what Juna did to me. Spending the night that I don't know when it's gonna end.