Bride Choice

Hearts yearning

"Daddy, baby, wake up."

Someone whispered when for the first time I could sleep without anyone's company. Oh, naw. That's not the truth.

"Daddy, get up for a second."

With a heavy heart I opened my eyes slowly.

"Rigger ... What was? I'm still sleepy." I whine spoiled.

"Sister is leaving. Brother is with you."

Listening to that, I woke up and sat directly opposite him.

"Where are you going? Sister ... Plisss don't go."

"Just a minute, Deck. I'm going to honeymoon in Europe for two weeks. Big brother, yes. What do you want?"

Clearly visible in his eyes, there was sadness that he was trying to hide. I don't know because of what. Is he sad that he's leaving me?

"Infant. I want my brother to give me a funny nephew."

He looked astonished at my request. Obviously he is. Brother will feel weird with me after what happened last night at his wedding reception.

"Dec, Brother hasn't come home yet. Who are you sleeping with?"

"Juna."

"What?" Brother shouts.

"Eh, no. That's not to say with his body."

"Sir. Dengerin brother! You should never let any man sleep with you before you are officially married. Remember that. Including the Juna. Do not let your body be demeaned by men. You're precious, Deck. Don't get–"

"Sister, last night we did a video call until I fell asleep. He knows you're not here and ... Juna knew it was impossible for Brother to accompany me to sleep."

Big Brother's face was sad again. He stroked my face. "So, I'm not sorry, yeah."

"It's not wrong, brother. So don't feel guilty and anxious. Huh, gih. Lidya must have been waiting. Don't miss your flight."

"It's okay. If it's too late, there's Juna offering her private jet to take us."

"really? Then why are you leaving so early in the morning?"

"Sister doesn't want to trouble him. So sister-in-law hasn't, has she? Haha."

"IIihhh Brother!"

"Yes already. My brother left first, yes. Don't be naughty."

"Yes." Yeah."

Although sad, I began to be a little able to accept the fact that he has now a family.

Human phytah is that, right? One must marry and then have children. No matter how much we feel for our sodara, the provisions of the Creator will not be able to change it. That's certain. Maybe, whether it's time, sooner or later, I'll be like Big Brother too. Married and have a family of their own.

Suddenly I remembered Juna. Immediately I looked up the phone and saw if he was texting or whatever it was this morning.

Niente.

No messages or phone calls from him. Disillusioned. That's how I feel right now.

He said that tomorrow morning will not be able to see me. In fact, tomorrow and tomorrow, and then tomorrow until the seventh morning, he gave no news at all.

I chose to keep myself in the store. My life has been quiet since my sister got married. The brother who happened to be busy behind this, and also Juna who left without giving any news. Complete already.

"Non, looks like we're gonna have to make a new breakthrough, huh."

"Why, Nit?" I asked Nita–kasir as well as a confidant in this store.

"Yesterday there is a traditional cake as well. Some people even. Why don't we get a traditional cake, too, Non. So, one can get a wide variety of cakes from one place. In our shop."

"Your idea is good too, Nit. Let's talk later tomorrow at the meeting, yeah."

"Yes, No."

Nita's back at work, and I'm back with the Maccarone that's just ripe.

My mind goes back to that time, a time when I was so curious about her figure. Eyes that can't get away from him and a body that seems to be attracted by magnets and can never be turned away from it.

There was a taste inside the chest that was so intense. My chest tightness is not because of a disease that has often recurred if I feel anxious. This time it was different. It felt like a chest squeezed by thousands of tons of weight. I don't even know how to get this burden out. I wanted to scream and cry, but I couldn't.

I sat on the floor hugging my knees. Seeking comfort in yourself. There's no one here, the one I can make a place to lean on. I'm really alone now.

"Miss, why?" Ask Nita.

"What should I do now, Nita? My chest is tight."

"Miss, did your shortness of breath recur. Let's go to the doctor. I call first–"

"No, Nita. I almost died of longing." I turned my head to look at Nita's face. "I miss them ... Those who are always there whenever I need them, are now gone at the same time. What am I supposed to do now? Nothing can be a place for me to shed tears."

"Nl ...."

"It's not so, Non. It's okay like this, someone sometimes does have to feel what it's like to lose so they know what it means to have."

"Samma ...."

"Non. There was someone waiting upstairs. He came here but chose to be quiet when he saw Miss like this. I am also forbidden to go to Miss."

"Who is Nita? Does Brother? Ah, it's impossible. A brother? Or Juna?"

"Good up and see for yourself. Come on, don't be like this. What do customers say if they see Miss like this?"

There was a man who might be the same age as Papi. He was sitting while enjoying a cup of tea that the employees provided. Every guest, they are obliged to serve him well.

"Excuse me."

The man looked. As soon as he saw who had come, he immediately stood up, smiled and slightly bowed in salute. I feel like he's a lot older than me, very bad. And bow to him.

"I'm sorry for coming here."

"It's okay. Please sit down."

We sat facing. Obstructed rectangular table.

"Sorry before, but I don't know you."

"Oh, yes. I'm Rudi. Private secretary to Mr. Juna."

"Juna?" I was so excited. "Where is he now? Is she okay? How's things going? Why didn't he call me this week? Is that person suing through the law?"

"Ha ha ha. Relax Miss. One asked him first. I'm old, so I can't catch all the questions. Ask me one thing first."

"sorry. I was too excited because I missed so much ..." I kept quiet because I felt I was speaking wrong. While Mr. Rudi gave an expression like he wanted to hear further from my words.

"Forget it, sir. I just want to know how he is. Wanted to make sure she was okay."

Dao smiled with his head nodding slowly and repeatedly.

"Enough. I'm just wondering that's all from you."

"What does that mean?"

"aaah. It'sit's nothing. Then, excuse me for a moment for not wanting to bother you two. Excuse me, Miss."

"you guys? Both? What's that supposed?"

Without waiting for an answer from Mr. Rudi, now I know what he means after seeing me Juna standing behind the door. He and Rudi laughed. And me? I'm like a bego who's being laughed at. Out of annoyance, I stomped my feet hard and walked out following Mr. Rudi. Arriving at the door. Juna pulled my hand back in. He closed the door and locked it.

"Why angry?"

"Are you happy that it made me look like a fool? It sucks! If this is a joke, you know it!"

He approached with very quick footsteps. Pulling my waist so close to your body, even without a bulkhead. I was still upset trying to push his body. However, it was all just a complete silliness. The power I cannot match. The uninterrupted look in his eyes made me even more unable to move.

"Did you miss me?"

"Who said?"

"You."

"No. I never even thought of you."

"really? Then why sit like a desperate man down below."

"That's ... It's because I'm tired."

"Because what? Because I didn't call you this week? Is that so?"

"Don't be too big-headed. Why should I think of you? Who am I and what is our relationship? Just wasting time."

"We? You are the future mother of my children."

"It's very self-confidence." I started the face. Not out of annoyance but out of wanting to hide a face that might already be flushed.

"But I miss you. So missed." He brought his face closer and filled my ears. My body responded and subconsciously our faces faced each other. Real close.

Her hand was no longer on my waist, she held both of my cheeks tenderly. For the first time he smiled at me. A beauty that feels like a poison to the liver and heart that barely works.

"Sorry." Now, he held my hand with his left hand, asking me to wrap it around his body. His right hand shakes my head.

"It sucks!" I hit him on the back with both hands. "Is it so hard to reply to a message I don't know how many times I've sent it?"

"Sorry, sorry."

"Do you know how I feel? I was really desperate to think about your situation. And what are you doing? Even for just say hi just don't have time. Huuuwaa." I cried after hitting him. Of course with less energy.

"Don't do this again" I said in between sobs. For the first time too, I hugged her tightly. Real tight. I don't want him to leave anymore. "Don't ever leave again. I beg you."

"will not. I promise I won't leave you alone. Sorry, I'm really sorry for making you sad."

I really don't want to get away from him. My hands are getting stronger hugging her body. The body that made me feel wrong.