BEREAVEMENTS

Episode 18; What Do You Think is the Answer of the Right Time?

Lena finally decides to stay at Renov's house for two months until the class up. He will stay at his brother's house in Yogya afterwards. Lena actually likes to live with the Renov family, but she does not want to be a burden on the family who is willing to accommodate her.

“What's wrong?” renov asked suddenly, startling Lena who was sitting next to the pool.

“Mas makes a surprise. Not afraid if Renatta to smash?” Lena shifted her seat so that Renov could sit next to her.

“Stranquil, Mas can swim in you kok..” Renov sat next to Lena and put his foot in the pool, “tomorrow to go to school?”

“Iya..” Lena looked down at the reflection of moonlight on the pool water.

“Mama who will bring you tomorrow, Mama will be your guardian in the meantime, your family lawyer has agreed with this, you already know right?” ask Renov to make sure. In recent weeks, the Renov family has been busy taking care of various matters regarding the guardianship and assets of the Lena family.

“Still yes Mas..” says Lena sincerely.

“Although I am happy to be able to help, but I prefer you do not experience this all Re..” sigh Renov slowly.

“Man can not choose Mas, can only make up the way. His decision was God's..” Lena has decided not to regret everything, she is already quite grateful for what she has at the moment.

“Besok want Mas temenin to home?” Renov recalls that Lena's house was also seized by the bank. Some company assets have also entered the auction to cover losses. Lena just assented and left everything to her family lawyer because she really did not understand. Renov's older brother Rehan helped Lena explain everything.

“Iya Mas, said Mas Rehan Renatta books, clothes and some personal items can be taken..” said Lena relieved.

“Book?” Renov was confused, of all the items why he asked Rehan to take care of his books. He then realized something and patted his forehead slowly.

“Iya, Renatta book, Renatta will send him to Yogyakarta, Renatta has also contacted the post.”.

“Mas until you forget that you are a writer, are you going to keep writing?” again Renov realized that the question was very stupid.

“Of course, Renatta's current income is only limited to royalties from publishing, if Rena stops, then what will Rena eat?” Lena laughed at Renov's question. Being a writer is one of his dreams, and when he became a writer then that dream is his current residence, he will not just let go.

“Mas khilaf aja nanyanya”, Renov smiled shyly.

“Mas when is the announcement? Where do you want to go to college?” Lena has not had time to ask about the continuation of Renov's study. He saw the change in the look of Renov's face, “what's the matter?”

“The announcement is soon, Mas is studying in Bandung.”.

“Why sad so?” ask Lena astonished.

“We will part ways long Renatta, are you not sad? Why should you move to Jogja anyway?” Renov finally asked what was troubling his mind these few days.

“No reason for sure, just want a new atmosphere maybe?” Rena smiled and then she ventured to hold Renov's hand, “Mas.

“What?” Renov was still looking at his hand, he had not expected Lena to hold his hand like that. This is the first time Lena has done it. It was Renov who kept approaching him.

“Iya, I promised to take care of you but instead we will part, I'm afraid if you will forget me..” Renov is honest, though a little selfish, but he admits it.

“No way, right?” Lena thinks Renov's statement is ridiculous. How could he forget the man who saved his life and stole his heart?

“Nothing is impossible Re, let alone you far away.”.

“Indeed if in Jakarta not far? Mas ya ya stay in Bandung.” Lena denied.

“At least there is Mama with Papa who take care of you..” Renov and Lena both sighed. They realized this debate changed nothing. Whether in Jakarta or Jogja, they will remain separated.

“Mas, I had thought like this, do I deserve to fall in love at a time like this?” Lena's question made Renov stunned. This was the first time Lena had said it. All this time he only interpreted Lena's feelings from her gestures.

“I'm really crazy huh?” Lena smiled embarrassedly as Renov did not respond to her statement.

“Re? Now I'm back. Can humans only fall in love when they feel happy?” Renov looked at Lena solemnly. Makes Lena shake her head because of it.

“Man also has the right to love and be loved at any time, especially at a time like this. Do you have to wait for the right time to fall in love? Then when is the right time you think?” Renov again asked the question that Renov had asked before, making Lena unable to answer it.

“That exact time is a selfishness of Renatta, the right time for you is not necessarily right for me and for us. You just need to know that all the time is right because God has arranged it so, only we can accept it or not.” Renov gripped Lena's hand tighter, “you are not crazy Re..”

“Lega I heard it..” Lena smiled hearing that.

“Actually I have also asked him, when is the right time? But there was no Re. Nothing as long as we measure it. We also can not guess and arrange it, it's all the decisions we have to accept, and how we understand what is important.”.

“True, so maybe our separation later is also part of the right time it is not Mas?” lena's question sounds like it's trapping Renov. He realized that Lena was reading his heart. Renov shuffled Lena's hair slowly, her smart girl was back.

“Do not worry about anything. Renatta understood it, but for Renatta just knowing that Mas will always keep Rena is enough. I'll be fine, we'll be fine..” Lena looked back into the night sky, “Mas appeared when everyone left Renatta, Mas promised to always be by Renatta's side when everyone stayed away from Renatta. So what do you have to fear again?”

“Fear Renatta forgot Mas? No way! It is precisely me who is afraid that Mas forgets me..” said Lena honestly, “Renatta think that even the difficult thing can unite us, let alone the happy thing? We pursue our dreams for our own good, and what should we fear when we are happy?” Lena ate Renov, this time her eyes glazed, “we will be happy right Mas?”

“Iya, we will be happy..” replied Renov reassured Lena and himself. He could also clearly see a hint of doubt in Lena's eyes. Renov knows their meeting is not beautiful and happy to remember but it is the memory that gives them the strength to stay together.

“Ukh Mama's children are adults.” Mama Renov's words make both of them surprised and hurriedly let go of his hands.

“MAMA!” they shouted at the same time and were greeted by Mama's crisp laughter.

“Evening is ready, come in.” invite Mama while smiling proudly.

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