BEREAVEMENTS

Episode 16: Please, Love Yourself

“GUE SAY JUMP NOW!”

“Mas Renov..”

“Stop calling me that! Do I still mean anything to lo?” Renov looked at Lena with a wound making Lena freeze in place.

“Wait for what else Renatta? I want to see you jump from here! I'll see how you do it, how you leave those memories, even one second I won't close my eyes!” Lena speechless in the face of Renov's anger, he walked away from the fence, grabbed Renov's arm.

“Mas... sorryin Renatta..sorry...” Lena lowered her head regretfully. He felt that he had disappointed the trust Renov had placed in him.

“Gue will never forgive elo, so quickly jump Renatta... I want to see elo betray me for the sake of useless people like them.”.

“Mas..” Lena walked over to Renov, grabbing the man's hand.

Suddenly Renov flicked his hand violently and made Lena thrown to the floor, “if you can not, let me jump!”

“MAS!” Lena grabs Renov's leg with great difficulty.

“Mas I beg you..” Lena cried while hugging Renov's leg. Tears that he has been holding back have spilled, “I beg you..don't..”.

“Mas..maafin Renatta..” the girl's body vibrates. The feeling that he had been holding up all this time was blowing from his chest.

“Mas, please.. give Lena one chance... I beg you..” Lena continued to plead because Renov did not answer her apology. He was stunned, all that he had been guarding all this time he just let go in front of this man.

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“MAS!”

Renov looked at Lena who was trying to hold him back while hugging his legs tightly. Seeing the girl desperately makes Renov get hurt. How could Lena also choose to end her life like that.

Renov slowly heard Lena's crying voice for the first time. He wanted to immediately pull the girl into his arms but he himself needed time to heal his wounded heart.

Renov stared at the blue sky of Jakarta. He tried to hold back the sound of his own sobs when he heard Lena's cry break. Several times Renov erased the tears that quietly flowed down his cheeks. This was the first time she cried after so long. A Lena made him cry.

“Renatta..” Renov's voice stopped in his hoarse throat, he gave up and chose to forgive Lena. He grabbed the girl who felt so fragile in his arms. Lena's sobs were filled with the pain she had been feeling all along.

Renov patted Lena on the back, “I'm sorry I did too.” whispered Renov in his ear. Makes the girl cry like a child who has lost a toy.

“You will be easier to flap your wings if you remove all the burden you carry alone. Sometimes you cry like this is also okay, it does not mean you are weak and must be pitied, dear.”.

“Remember, Renatta is also human, you don't need to be strong for others, you just need to be strong for yourself.”.

“... if your father leaves you like that and you feel hurt by it, then never do the same because you are also hurting others. You should know that best, right?” Lena nodded slowly at Renov.

“Renatta, you are a great writer, so create your own world as you create a world for the characters of your creation. Don't be afraid of falling, you can make them stand up again, so you will also rise right?” Renov rubbed Lena's tears with the back of his hand.

Renov then stood up and pulled Lena to stand up, Lena staggered because her legs felt so weak and sore in some places. Renov looked at Lena with regret. It's what caused Lena's leg to bruise and hurt like that.

“Sorry Mas, yes? Pain?” renov asked while crouching to see the wounds on Lena's legs.

“Ehm no papa..” replied Lena slowly.

“See who said you were alone.” Renov looked behind Lena and saw Chery and some of Lena's friends standing behind her.

“Lenaaaa!” chery shouted after a moment of fear towards Renov. He hugged Lena tightly and made the girl moan.

“What's up?” Chery comes to see Lena's legs and turns to face Renov, “Mas must be responsible!” chery shouted loudly, ignoring his fear.

“Kok elo bear him anyway Len? My heart was almost dislodged when Mas Renov narik elo kek. Tega-egasanya he treats women like that..” continued Chery does not accept.

“Let him be aware..” replied Renov briefly.

“It's true too, but it's still..”.

“I'm in charge, done right?” Renov then stood up from his seat, “you can walk?”

“Name Len!” whisky Chery.

“No, Mas!” lena replied with a laugh, according to Chery.

Renov then sat in front of Lena, “mau I carried on the back or want princess style?” asked Renov who made Lena's face flushed.

“Ah I can walk, Mas!” Lena took a step back, regretting her joke.

“Come Len! Cepet select!” persuade Chery.

“Anaan anyway, Cher?”

“Ayolaahhh”, Chery still wants to see Renov lose.

“Please your friends who want me to take responsibility, chepetan. I told you I've had a hug, carried you what's the problem anyway? You also can't walk, right?” Renov pulled Lena's arm and held her.

“Monthly..” Chery stopped in front of Renov who was about to leave from there, “hugs? You guys dating?” the two of them did not give any answer to Chery even though he had repeatedly asked.

“If you are embarrassed, close your eyes and pretend to faint.” whispered Renov while giggling amusedly. Lena's been doing it since she got off the roof. He did not want to see his school friends or the parents of the students who had cornered him. He did not want to think of anything and pressed his hand against Renov's neck. He felt that Renov's shoulder was so big that he could hide it right now.

Chery opens Renov's car door and makes Lena open her eyes, “thank Cher..”.

“I guess I don't need to come, right?” Chery glanced at Renov. He could feel that the man in front of him was sincerely protecting Lena, “gue will love you the news about the school, Len. If there's anything do not hesitate contact me, elo still got me in this school. Calm down and don't forget to come back before the test?” message Chery while hugging Lena.

“Still yes?” lena said sincerely.

“Seeing Mas earlier it seems like Lena found someone right to look after her. So take care of him Mas..” Chery's message to Renov. Renov then smiled and nodded at her before his car left Chery who was dumbfounded there, “Mas Renov can smile like that huh?”

Actually, there are many who want Chery to ask about the relationship between the two of them, but seeing them today alone has made Chery so relieved because at least someone will always look after Lena. The girl was also afraid that because Lena did not show her sadness, she also saw Lena acting like she usually did so that made her even more worried.

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Renov undoes his intention to go to the clinic when he sees Lena who is fast asleep next to his wheel. He didn't want to wake Lena who looked so exhausted. The girl obviously could not sleep well in her house. How could it be, right?

Renov grabbed his phone and started calling someone, “Ma, remember what Renov told you about Lena? Yes, Ma. It's okay, isn't it? Please contact Om Yanu Ya Ma? Renov will explain at home. Thanks Ma...” Renov ended his conversation with his mother while waiting in the middle of Jakarta traffic. He glanced at Lena and rubbed his head gently.

“You will be fine from now on.” said Renov.

Renov saw the traffic lights turn green. He then drove his car back before turning in a residential complex that was so quiet and beautiful. He drove his car and took Lena who was still asleep in his arms.

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