BEREAVEMENTS

Prologues

Today, like the days you promised, I am sitting here waiting for your return. The return I never knew when was coming, the days I didn't know when I would miss. Four years. How much more time do I have to go without you?

You always write in your letters that I don't have to look for you, I don't have to spend time and energy chasing you. You said you'd always be mine. I believe, I believe because you're the one who knows what it's like to be betrayed by someone you care about. I believe you never broke a promise.

Renov pensively rereads all the letters and postcards sent by Renatta. The girl, within four years of visiting dozens of cities in Indonesia, she also continued to explore the world. Renov smiled bitterly. How could Renatta smile happily in each of his photos as he left Renov in this uncertainty?

Truly a cruel girl!

Renov spread his gaze around the corner of the cafe. The cafe, which is set up on 300 square meters of land, is the only asset listed on behalf of Renatta. The design of this cafe is also familiar to Renov. Yes, very similar to the Renatta house in Jakarta. The cafe has a fairly large garden and thousands of book collections that fill every corner. The books are no stranger to Renov. Renov sighed in despair, this is the only clue to Renatta's whereabouts. Only this cafe could be said to be home to Renatta. But Renov did not find the figure of the girl at the moment. How long should he wait for her again? What's he supposed to do?

Renov grabbed the novel in front of him. The novel that Renatta wrote and gave to him through a store clerk last year. He opened the last page of the novel and re-read the message from Renatta.

A promise of the past

Now it is present as a whip of time

Longer until it feels sore in the chest

There is no more trouble

The darkness of night dawned on me

Not only the promise of the past but also of yourself

This silence reminds me of a terrible departure

In my willingness to take my grip off of you

To a time where the sun radiates warmth

Giving you security without fear of darkness

But the pain always comes to light

Will this heart be back?

I really want to keep my promises

Even though you are tired without time keeps changing

Will my miss mean anything?

Renatta.

Renov wondered why the girl continued to hurt herself by widening the distance between the two of them. He thought why would the girls choose themselves if they could do it together? Honestly, he hated Renatta's nature. He wants to do everything himself. Is it possible that Renatta is still insistent with the term waiting for the right time? Totally stubborn and totally selfish.

"There is no right time in this world as long as we ourselves are the judges. We can't make everyone happy by waiting for the right time."

Renov remembers having discussed it repeatedly with Renatta but still the girl has her own opinion.

Renov again gave up on his logic. He chose to focus on strengthening his heart even though only small clues were able to make him survive. He has promised. Although his search this time back did not get any results, it is okay. He'll come back later.

“Kriing..” the sound of the bell of his order coffee sign has been completed reads, surprising him.