Becoming a Mother at Age 20

Chapter 12 There are more worthy of you than ojek

It didn't take long, he came back with a boy my age and dressed like me, with the same logo. Yeah, we're a college.

"Now, this is my cousin Vi, you know each other right?"

I was stunned to see who Brother Brian called a cousin, a person I knew, and even knew who he was.

"Lo?"

"Hi Viola."

"So that big sister's cousin Bima huh? Pantesan looks just like you," I said while looking at Brother Brian and Bima alternately.

I don't understand why the universe always brings us together, especially at times that I never thought of myself if we could meet there.

I see Bima's eyes are very sparkling when I see me, I don't know what the point of his gaze is but obviously I'm actually glad he's here.

"Good if that is so, if you know each other, yes already gih cepet depart later bad luck loh," said Brother Brian spread my daydream.

"Eh, I ride ojek aja ko is okay, do not be with Bima afraid to take care."

"Who said ngerepotin? Don't worry, let's go" said Bima while pulling my hand to follow him.

I just followed the pull of his hand, not trying to let go, not protesting. I'm coming, I want to come.

"Be careful, you guys, don't speed in the street" exclaimed Brother Brian slightly yelling at us.

I saw Bima just giving a thumbs up her left hand, somehow what she did made me smile unconsciously. L like it.

"Eh Brother" I said when we got to the car park.

"Gua riding ojek aja deh," somehow the feeling came again. Feelings of fear, fear that the feelings I feel will get bigger.

I'm afraid to fall in love, not afraid of rejection. Instead I was afraid because Bima also likes me, I was afraid that the feeling that would bring me down again like the taste that Alex made for me.

Unfortunately, our walls are too high and thick, to the point that I am afraid to even look at them.

Bima pulled my hand so I could get closer to her. "Why? Why ride the ojek while I'm here? Why choose naek ojek while there are more worthy for you besides ojek?"

I shook my head, I don't even know what answer I should say from her question. I was pretty scared, really scared.

"Don't like to make people worry, Vi, the cave doesn't like the same feeling of worry. The cave was quite hit by the incident, and the cave did not want to see you rich anymore. From now on, the cave will be a lo ojek, please understand."

"Lo ga ngerti cave Kak, you said you were hit during the bad incident? Especially the cave as the victim?"

"That's exactly Vi, the cave will take care of you more than yesterday. Lo, it'll always be safe when you're in the cave."

"What's the evidence?"

"Lo needs proof? Means you have to hear what the cave says, and do it."

I shook my head, no. Not wanting to get closer to her, not wanting to feel the same pain. Not wanting to repeat the trauma more deeply, I was so scared.

"Jam in for a second, there's no choice, you're in the cave now."

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The feeling of love, love, affection, all have thorns that somehow will surely stab. The longer it stays in the hand, the more it hurts. I wouldn't even otherwise, I'd hold that feeling until I forgot how it felt.

I won't grasp the taste, but I'll bury it deep. To imagine it scares me, let alone to the point where I fall in love, again.

I can't fall in love, I have to remember what my position is. I'm a mother, a mother who has to think about her child. I can't be selfish thinking that I can do what a kid my age does.

"Well, when will you come?"

I blinked my eyes repeatedly, I looked around and found that I had arrived at the campus.

"Thank you brother, cave to class first."

"Don't think much about the things that have happened, focus the same today okay? Go home to the campus with the cave."

"You need to go home, go home alone, first Brother."

I got out of Bima's car without waiting for her answer, huh, I feel like I've had a hard time breathing lately.

"Binca!"

I looked towards the source of the sound. "Eh Tia, the afternoon tumben is leaving?"

Yeah, he's Tia, he's got his own car today. Ah, I'll take him if the angkot doesn't exist.

"Yes, I was waiting for the old cave driver in the bathroom, he was already first, forced to bring a car. Going home later, right? You didn't bring a motor, did you?"

Brava! Here comes the luck of a Viola Binca. A sister of Monica Vinca, there is no match for luck.

"Oh okay if that's Ti, yes let's go to class afraid of going in."

Tia and I talked lightly while walking towards our class, although different but still lucky because it was next to each other. Well, really, right? Viola is very, very lucky in any case!

The power, don't make it today.

"Heh, the cave wait for you to rest later on the campus rooftop, if you don't come, temen lo gua incer," said Ica, a member of the group who only hitchhikes names and loves validation, crazy folowers, crazy fans too.

Examples of people who just want popularity by joining the set, yes it can, but also use the brain.

Ica came from the left as I was about to get to my class, Tia had already entered first. Yes, now I'm right in front of the class.

"Lu who's sister?"

"How dare you? Inget, lo business has not been run the same cave, abis this material cave wait lo at the rooftop campus."

Ica, the upperclassman I don't even deserve to call that big brother into Tia's room. Maybe today he's repeating my mat or what I don't know.

I will not come, however I must stick to the principle.

I will never have any problems with anyone. Especially with the Ica, not not brave, not not not have the guts too.

I thought about Brother Monic, but I had to stay in college for him. So that what he did for me was not in vain.

I quickly entered my class, I saw Piona sitting in her chair and looking at me now.

"Eh Bin, here's a spit," exclaimed Piona a little panic.

I'll approach her soon. "What's wrong?"

"It's you, isn't it?"

I immediately saw Piona's phone screen, how surprised I was when I saw who was in the photo even more surprising than the photo was the caption.

Oh my God, why is it like this?