Anindira Dew
Section 140
Since the incident when he was expelled by Anin from his ward. Askara could only see Anin when his wife was asleep.
As he does now, Askara will visit Anin's ward secretly after he gets home from the office. his busy business taking care of the company was also one of the reasons why he rarely visited Anin during the day. and he also knew Anin would definitely not accept his presence if he came directly in front of his wife.
Askara pulled the chair slowly to the side of Anin's bed, a gaze of deep longing emanated from her eyes that looked tired from lack of sleep.
Gently held Anin's hand as he had done in the previous nights.
"I'm sorry, Nin". those words were the beginning of Askara's conversation that Anin probably wouldn't reply because his wife was asleep.
"If there are more words than words of forgiveness to describe my regret, then I will say it over and over again so that you will forgive you, it felt like he was really tormented by the circumstances.
"I love you so much, Anin. I love you and Jendra. I don't want to lose you both". tightness, Askara's chest immediately feels tight considering if you have to separate from her child.
"You may hate me and avoid me, but please don't even think of leaving me, because I can never be without you, Nin".
Askara wiped the corner of his watery eyes, he could not linger near Anin for fear of interrupting his wife's rest.
For Askara enough to see the face of Anin who was sleeping peacefully, it had already treated his longing.
Before leaving Anin's ward, Askara kissed the woman he loved long enough because it was the only chance she had now. Askara confirmed the location of Anin's blanket and glanced at Vivi who was also asleep on the bed that was available in Anin's room.
Just as Askara came out, Anin opened her eyes and accidentally caught the body silhouette of the man.
"What is Askara?". Anin murmured his forehead, his sleep was disturbed because he felt like someone had kissed him on the forehead.
But Anin felt it was very real, even she could smell the perfume Askara used to wear everyday.
"No, that can't be Askara", Anin hurriedly brushed his mind off.
Askara who is currently still wearing her office suit walks towards the baby room where Jendra is. without many knowing, all this time Askara always sleeps in the hospital but in front of her baby's room, the baby, and the man will be home early in the morning.
"Master will sleep here again?". asked one of the nurses who had just checked on Jendra. He recognized Askara because every night the man slept with his baby.
"How's my son doing, sus?". asked Askara without answering the nurse's question.
"The situation is getting better sir, especially after getting ASI from Madam Anin". said the nurse, a few days ago ASI Anin finally came out although initially still a little.
Askara nodded at the nurse's words, he then sat down in the long chair that the last few days had become his bed, although it was very uncomfortable and sometimes his body felt crumpled when he woke up, but Askara is no problem at all.
Every morning after finishing his breakfast, Anin will do his new routine of pumping ASI for Jendra stock. because he has not been able to breastfeed Jendra directly, Anin will do her new routine, make Anin must accommodate the source of the baby's life in a bottle that has been provided by Mami Sandra before.
Initially Anin had felt stressed because her ASI was only out a little, but after being calmed by Mami Sandra and given ASI surfer supplements, she was given, now it is precisely Anin who is overwhelmed because every two hours she must pump so that her breasts do not hurt.
"Well, Nin?". asked Vivi, who had just returned from the hospital canteen.
"Udah, tuh". Anin pointed at some bottles that she managed to pump this morning.
"We go to Jendra's room now, yes, I've been very upset.
"Yes, come on". As usual Vivi will help push Anin's wheelchair.
Actually last night Vivi found out Askara's arrival to Anin's ward.he really had not slept so much that she heard clearly everything Askara said. but Vivi did not want to offend or talk about Askara in front of Anin. even Mami Sandra and Bu Risa also never mention the name Askara in front of Anin after where Askara was expelled by Anin from his ward.
Anin's arrival was greeted kindly by the nurse in charge of guarding Jendra.
"Good morning, sus?". greeted Anin with a fluffy smile.
"For Madame Anin, bring stock ASI well?".guess the nurse.
"Iyya sus, please pass it to Jendra yes.he must be hungry". Anin gave a milk bottle containing ASI pumped results.
"Oh yes, sus. was Jendra fussy last night?". asked Anin while watching Jendra drink her ASI.
"Jendra never fuss mistress, especially every night is always on the same guard Papa.
Anin's forehead wrinkled, "Papa?". asked Anin looking at Vivi's face which was similarly confused.
"Yya ma'am, every night the husband of Madam Anin always sleeps in front of the room Jendra. Anin's mistress' husband is very attention yes, even he immediately looks after Jendra without having time to change his office clothes". the nurse again.
Anin was silent for a long time, her heart was racing fast.What did the nurse say?, Askara always accompanied Jendra every night?, she said?, what that meant last night was that she really wasn't dreaming but rather Askara actually came to her ward.
"Madam Anin is lucky to have a husband like that"., chirped the nurse who thought that Anin and Askara's household relationship was so harmonious.
"Yep, sus". Anin forced her smile onto the nurse.
Anin thought that everything Askara did was a form of guilt-redemption for what the man had done to her, and not for truly loving herself or Jendra. he should not be let down just because he heard the story from the hospital nurse.
