ANGELIC HEART

Dreamtime

In a small boarding house but looks so neat is lying on the bed a sweet girl who has teeth shuffled in her smile ya !! she is Lily, she looks so bored with her days.

"Ngapain ya good ngedrakor already, streaming idol already, want to shower males tauk ah ngapa gw confused himself" he murmured.

Lily is an art student in one of the famous univ Indonesia, she likes to be smitten but always polite to others who are considered older.

Goodbay's....Goodbay's......Godbay.

"Hallo, what's wrong with nelfon gw ? hah whataaa !!!!!! he was shocked and immediately got out of bed and ran as fast as he could.

He took a taxi and finally reached the garden. Lily was immediately shocked to see all the purple lilly flowers she had planted dead. Lily really likes lilly flowers because in addition to having the same name her grandmother used to love the flower. The goddess who was already there immediately embraced him and calmed him down. The goddess knew Lily was sad even though only the flowers were dead. Because the Goddess knows everything about Lily. Lily's parents dumped Lily when she was a baby. And the grandmother Lily thought her grandmother was the one who found Lily. Lily knew it all because her grandmother told her the story when she was a child. Lily met her biological mother when she was still young even so she was not too close to her mother because Lily was still disappointed with her mother for ever throwing it away. That's why Lily prefers to spend even though her birth mother is a wealthy career woman. But until now Lily did not know who her father was because her mother did not know who a man who had ever impregnated her first.

back to lily's garden -

The goddess still tried to calm Lily by hugging her. The Goddess is a friend since childhood Lily who has always been there for Lily.

"Udah Ly don't cry anymore, why tomorrow we tanem again flowers" Mencoca calms Lily

"But this wi flower is very rare, and even if we buy it is very expensive" spoke with his sobbing

"Yaelaaa nyokap you are very rich gausah gausah confused kali hahaha" trying to tease Lily

"I told you I don't want to depend on her" Lily got angry

"Udah we go home yuk it's almost time for lunch" Invite the Goddess

"Yes wi" still garela wants to go

Finally they both leave from Lily's lily garden. On the way to take a taxi Lily was still sad and moody because she thought who would destroy her garden when it was the only thing that could make her remember with her late grandmother who had raised her from childhood until she he enters the cell and even sedates her until her grandmother dies and Lily finally meets her mother.

"Li........Lys.........Ly"

"Woy" snapped the Goddess patting Lily's shoulder

"Eh yes" reflex instantly

"Udah up to your favorite dining place is elaaahhh ngalamun aja lu" said the goddess

"Sorry wi, uh.oh yes your taxi is paying ya entar gw replace deh" he asked

"Elahh you said that too but change gapernah" he complained

"hehehehehe you know yourself" shyly

"yes I understand, yes wealth is gamesti nurun. Nyokap you rich uh elunya kismin geez dehh"

"paan dah, yuk already"

They walk to the lily's favorite eatery, her favorite mercon meatball. Although Lily still looks sad but she covers it so that the Goddess does not worry about her.

After they were full they went home. Because Dewi was afraid of Lily why² so she decided to take Lily home to her boarding house. Finally they arrived in front of Lily's room.

"Lu really gapapa Ly" asked the Goddess in panic

"Yes, I'm afraid" Lily replied with a forced smile

"Gw temenin ya" bid Dewi

"Gausah I really gapapa kok, I'm tired of taking a break I go in first yes" replied Lily

"have you rest I go straight home" resigned Goddess

then they waved to each other and Lily went straight into the room. Arriving in his room Lily immediately cry because she thinks who would damage her beloved plant. The lilly flower reminds Lily of the tenderness of her grandmother when Lily was a child. When she was a child, Lily was often taught to water and care for lilly flowers by her grandmother. And how happy Lily was when she did it. Although not her biological granddaughter, Lily's grandmother used to love her as much as her own granddaughter. Lily cried sobbing sobbing and blamed herself.

"why does everyone know why.....?" sobs

Lily also remembered the events in the past starting from her grandmother who died trying to save Lily from a collision, his parents who could throw it even though his mother is now back but Lily is still not willing to the behavior of his parents first, the behavior now lilly flowers that he has cared for since he was a child arrived² damaged. Lily thought about why everyone and everyone around her didn't want her. Then Lily took a razor and pointed it at her wrist. And how surprising it turns out not for the first time Lily hurt her own hand but has repeatedly.

(Since her grandmother died Lily had a very strong depression. He always wanted to try to kill himself because he considers himself as the unlucky bearer for all.Even Lily had moved to school when he was in High School because many of his school friends who knew Lily's condition and considered Lily is crazy. Only the Goddess knows about Lily's disease but Lily asks the Goddess to keep it a secret because Lily does not want her friends to think she is crazy)

With tears pouring down her cheeks Lily hurt her hand and went back to blaming herself. Blood flowed slowly from her wrists. The blood mixed with tears, the sound of someone crying both in soul and body filled the room.Why did Lily do such a thing ? because for him the pain in his hands is not comparable to the pain of his late grandmother who always patiently and smiling because I was ridiculed stupidly by a rag person for wanting to raise a stupid child like Lily. In his mind Lily wanted to die but he thought again because his grandmother always encouraged him first. Grandma Lily always asks that Lily learn properly and become a successful person.So that later her parents will regret having thrown away a child as great as Lily.Slowly Lily also began to fall asleep in that cry. tears that did not stop dripping even though his eyes were closed.Blood that flowed drop by drop filled the floor of his boarding room, a photo of him with his grandmother who was tightly in his arms, and his mother, who was still in his arms, the sadness that inhabited the quiet room was clearly visible in the sunlight that began to disappear changed by moonlight.

Slowly Lily began to fall asleep in the cry.Tears that did not stop dripping even though her eyes were closed.Blood that flowed drop by drop filled the floor of her room, a photo of her with her grandmother who was tightly in her embrace, the sadness that inhabited the quiet room was clearly visible in the sunlight that began to disappear changed by moonlight. Lily woke up and she immediately went out to buy breakfast because she was hungry and she immediately brushed and cleaned her wound.But when she went to buy food, Lily hated everyone, in everyone's laughter, in the humiliation of everyone and not even anyone who wants life there is even the heart to throw it with a stone. how sad Lily was because they were all evil to her when she had done nothing wrong.

"kringgggggggggggggggggggggg" the sound of a waker's clock wakes Lily from her nightmares.

"huh..hah...hah.....hah......hah" Lily's breath gasping.

Lily finally woke up with tears on her cheeks, puffy eyes, and dried blood coiling up on her wrists and on the floor. Lily finally wakes up because Lily has to go to college because she gets a morning lecture. Lily began to get ready starting from cleaning her room, bathing and treating her injuries. Lily had already prepared and ate the bread as her breakfast. Lily went to college alone. Lily decided to walk with the violin in her car because Lily was a student in the art faculty. Lily focused on walking and looking at the streets full of people passing by. Lily smiled when she saw a child who was playing a chase in the roadside park of the city.

" Sister her hair was so long "the plain speech of the little boy

Lily squatted down and stroked the little boy's hair.

" your hair is beautiful too "

the little boy oun innocently asked back.

Lily was confused to answer what.until she finally said "Sister hair long because brother likes, do not you think brother looks beautiful with long hair "

" is that so ? my mama doesn't like me her hair is long because she says I look like a lion when my hair is long "with an adorable face the little boy says it all to Lily.

" sister must go to college, you continue to play first yes same your friends. oh yes name sister Lily whose name is you ? " ask Lily

" my name is Nana" replied the little boy

" okay Nana sister want to continue to go to college first, later we will definitely meet again.yaudah ya babay"

answered with a smile to the polosan of the child kevil Lily was leaving for the campus.

Arriving in front of the campus Dewi was waiting for Lily. The goddess was very happy when she saw Lily already in front of her.

" Y....!!!!! " shouted the Goddess

"uh.." a little surprised but used to.

" i don't think you're leaving now "run and hug the Goddess tightly.

" I didn't know how many times "

the goddess let go of his embrace and held his hand. The goddess was very worried because she saw Lily's wound on her wrist.

" Ly...your hand "Dewi is beginning to worry.

" Eh..oh." immediately pulled and covered it by hand.

" no papa kok kemaren gw jatoh pas want to take a book in the library " replied Lily spontaneously

Dewi Oun is confused and not believe because of yesterday they ate together and came home that afternoon did not stop by the bus at all. But the Goddess agreed to Lily's words for fear of offending Liky if she asked, and actually the Goddess also knew that Lily must be trying to hurt herself again.

" Uw yuk entered soon again my class will be started "sahut Lily

" That's ok...Lets go " replied the Goddess

they get into the campus and walk into their respective classes because Lily is in art class while Dewi is in Economy class. When the Goddess walked towards her class, the Goddess was still worried about Lily's state, who was still blaming herself a long time ago for an incident that she did not even know was going to happen. The goddess was very anxious and worried but soon classes would begin.

meanwhile in Lily's class

Lily was unfocused as the lecturer explained in front of her. Lily daydreamed and thought why can Lily flowers that have been treated since the first whole heartedly arrived² broken and even everything without remaining one. Lily also daydreams about the happiness of Lily and her grandmother when together caring for Lily flowers. Lily finally woke up from her daydream and decided to focus.

Lily knocked on her head and spoke in her heart.

" focus Lily focusesss., you have to make grandma happy "

Lily also began to listen to the lecturer talking in front of him although not too focused but at least Lily can still listen to a little explanation of the lecturer.

- On the other hand -

A man gallantly walks with the violin he carries, walking upright like a real man.Groomy hair with a shirt and long jeans with sneakers that look matching with his clothes. He was looking for his class, but because he was lazy to ask someone who was around him the man finally walked following the stairs that led to the roof of the campus which seemed quiet without a person because maybe the hours of lessons were a lot to start. he sat down leisurely and enjoyed every gust of wind and saw how beautiful the view on the campus was. although not as beautiful as in the campus he used to feel very happy because he was able to return to his country which he missed so much. because since High School he attended school abroad and continued studying abroad. but for some reason he had to return to Indonesia and decided to continue his studies in Indonesia by moving to the campus. He was still enjoying every second of the wind blowing violently on the roof there, because he was bored he finally decided to play the violin he was carrying from earlier. deftly he plays the violin and writes every swipe - for the sake of the friction of the violin he plays. For him music is everything he really enjoys every time he plays music.He really likes music, but he prefers when he can make a beautiful rhythm that he can listen to with others. although he was cold in nature, he was actually very gentle, just that he did not know how to properly express his feelings. He sat with the violin on his shoulder a pencil clasped tightly in his hand a book that saw many graffiti he began his musical play.

LM.

Wake up.......

you cannot mourn in your dreams

the nightmare....?

isn't that just a dream

good dream....?

it will not happen when you have no desire to make it happen

the heart is more honest than speech

your heart is still but your eyes say everything.

The twilight is waiting for you to enjoy it