ANELIC

Chapter 31

"Truely said Mother. Happiness and suffering make little difference. Today I'm so happy but after a while, I'm sobbing."

Anelis clashed while staring at her reflection in her makeup mirror. He would never know if the happy aura present greeted only a short stop.

Anelis enjoys a new atmosphere in her usually overcrowded apartment. It is undeniable that he is happy. Today he can eat his favorite food. Although not pete as before, his mother still prepared another nutritious dish. The business of preparation for the seven-monthly shipment he entrusted to Rajasa.

Rajasa started looking for the best catering. The main priority is to send the food to Study Friends. He also contacted Daisha Bakery's manager's number for cake delivery in addition. Again he thought about his mistakes that could not take care of his wife and prospective children. Right now there is nothing to regret. He must immediately complete his first task.

"I'm leaving first Ne." Rajasa said goodbye to Anelis who was cool helping mom in the kitchen.

"Aren't you waiting for a minute, Sa? Just cook the food again."

"Ndak Buk will just fit lunch try. Rajasa pamit Buk." Rajasa kisses the back of Mom's hand.

Anelis although left Rajasa work does not feel less the day, there are Andara and Mother who accompany. Anelis knew she could never be completely away from her parents.

"Bak you take a shower first. It really smells really bad."

Anelis kissed her own arm. He smiled at you and Mom.

"Well, it's more asem than the anchovies that Mom brought." Andara took out their small built-in box.

"Okay my sister." Anelis went out of the kitchen and decided to clean up in her room.

Finished flushing his body with water, back Anelis looking at the mirror. She is clearly no longer beautiful. Anelis chose to clean her face first. He even forgot the sensation of applying aloevera gel on the face. Her pregnancy really makes Anelis more and more not take care of herself. Anelis sat on her makeup chair, various makeup looks available on the table with a large mirror in front of her. As his hand was about to grab a cotton swab, his gaze changed.

Tumben is missing. Think Anelis.

Previously, Anelis never wanted to know and not even interested in Rajasa's cell phone. Almost every day they maintain their privacy even though they are married. Only today when she accidentally found her husband's phone on her dresser, made her curiosity appear.

Anelis vibrates opening an unlocked phone. There are no photos of the two of them anymore. Previously, Anelis knew Rajasa never forgot to make their photos as the main wallpaper. Maybe her husband is overwhelmed. His heart whispered at least Rajasa did not keep a secret. The proof is that the phone screen can still be opened by him.

Actually, Anelis did not want to open further the contents of Rajasa's phone, just that his curiosity suddenly got stronger. Anelis opened a photo gallery on her phone. Their photos at Borobudur Temple used to still dominate. No other photos yet. Anelis smiled, the moment was a happy moment for them. He also took another photo. Unconsciously he was carried away on the journey of that time. A journey that made her whole as a wife. Anelis is grateful to this day Rajasa is still patiently menenami although sometimes he feels her husband is no longer the same.

Finished reminiscing about the memories, Anelis switched to seeing whatsapp Rajasa messages. He read them one by one the message. Nothing strange, all about work and colleagues just greeting each other. Anelis's heart was relieved, Rajasa was still to be trusted. He doesn't try to communicate with the opposite sex if it's not important. Curiosity is always demanding to look for more. That's what makes Anelis want to continue her activity to check Rajasa's phone for the first time. Anellis turned to something else.

On Rajasa's phone there is no social media like hers. The only other form of communication that can be done via email. Anelis opened Rajasa's email. Read one by one the incoming email title. Most are just promo emails and other spam. Anelis smiled to herself. Her husband is clean even email is not piled up much. Not like him. Satisfied with the inbox, Anelis switched to sent emails. The look on Anelis's face changed. He's flabbergasted. At that time also the heart of Anelis was run away. He knew there was nothing wrong with the email, it was all a fact about him. It's just that Rajasa never had a discussion first about all that, making Anelis ask.

Should hide? Why not talk from heart to heart? Should I be honest about this for a consultation? Is that how bad I am in your eyes?

The date of the email is long. Just as Anelis was getting pregnant. At that time Rajasa made a distance with him and often did not go home.

Anelis felt herself being cheated. Although there was no other reply from the email, it was just that the psychiatrist Rajasa contacted was a woman. That's the reason that makes Anelis uncomfortable.

An email with detailed stories about her true self. Anelis listened to every word Rajasa wrote. It is a feeling that is present there. Her husband had been silent because he did not want to cause trouble. Her husband had always looked fine and everything was just a lie. Actually Rajasa keeps a lot of stories of wounds that he deliberately closed tightly. The email explained everything. A clear thread drenched his cheek.

"Mbak cepetan bath. Mumpung said Mother was still a good angel to eat." Andara spoke from behind the door of Anelis's room.

"Yes. It's over with Ra."

Anelis wiped her wet cheeks. The combination of gel and tears makes it more moist. He hung up Rajasa's phone, trying to put it back the way it was. Fear Rajasa will return to take it. He also resumed his intention to dress up. The emails and names of Rajasa's acquaintance's psychiatrists upset him. Let's not say she lost to that beautiful woman.

Has Rajasa turned cold all along because of that too?

Anelis shook her head trying to keep thinking clearly, clearly.

"OKAY. Perfect." Anelis applied liptin as her last touch. She moved from her dresser to the kitchen.

"Well gini dong pretty. Although pregnant and only at home still have to look beautiful in the eyes of the husband. Remember that Ne cannot be careless." Mom prepares dishes at the table.

"Should Ne. We never know what our husband is out there. For sure we do believe but the name keeps much more main. Especially later when your child is born, you still have to try to maintain the appearance."

Anelis received a plate from her mother. He increasingly guessed what kind of face of the woman who became the place of Rajasa vent.

"Emang Ibuk njaga as well?"

As you recall, Anelis' mother was no less messy after giving birth to Andara.

"You like to turn the word around. And eat a lot. Don't let your child starve. He knows nothing about the outside world, you have to take care of him. If you're in six weeks, you're out, right?" Anelis' mother was upset by her daughter's remarks.

"Kok can you tell?" ask Anelis polo.

"Mother used to be pregnant as well. You know what the ideal age is for giving birth. You should learn a little about the science of being a mother. Don't keep the fool." Anelis' mother was concerned about seeing her daughter's pregnancy. Moreover, he is far away and can not accompany every time.

"Yes Buk" said Anelis lazily.

Anelis felt she no longer wanted to eat her mother's cooking. When they got back to their familiar mother began to launch advice for him. And he doesn't like it very much yet.

"One more. Lahiran, either normal or cesar, are both sick and need a struggle. It is not always easy, but nothing is difficult if God wills. Whatever it is, never regret it. Because it is proven that many women who choose to repeat the process up to two or three times there are even more. Anelis Arkaina's daughter must also be equally strong and tough." Anelis' mother smiled. He knew Anelis was starting to listen. "Eat a lot." The veiled woman added a side dish to her daughter's plate.

"Thank you Buk." Anelis is glad her mother doesn't tell her much.

Just one mouthful of rice entered Anelis' mouth the apartment door opened. Rajasa returned home in a hurry.

"Well is it finished Sa?" ask Mother Anelis in wonder.

"Nothing is missing." Rajasa just straight towards the room. He took his cell phone fast.

Anelis who had read all Rajasa's emails acted as if nothing had happened.

"missed Mas? How can?" ask her when Rajasa is out of the room.

"Forgot Ne. You didn't see? You're missing at the dresser."

"I don't even know Mas" Anelis said.

"OKAY. I'm back again."

"Didn't you eat Sa?" Mother asked back.

"Later on Buk. Please enjoy."

Without getting close to Anelis, Rajasa just leaves. The look on his face was not like the beginning of his farewell in the morning. Anelis put the rice back in her mouth. If there were no Mom and Youara, her tears would have spilled. Gelagat Rajasa raises the jealousy of Anelis. The mother who was secretly observing Anelis and Rajasa caught the awkwardness. Their relationship is not okay.

"Silence will not solve the problem. If it bothers you, you should say it directly. Don't be harbored and torture yourself." Anelis' mother accidentally opened a heavy chat for her daughter. "If something goes wrong in a good relationship you fix it. Do not make assumptions without correcting. Do not dispute every truth with uncertain assumptions. Make sure you confirm first whether it is valid or not. Don't rush to the final conclusion."

Anelis can no longer chew rice and side dishes. I want it to feel like he finished the bad morning meal and locked himself in. Look at Mother Anelis' eyes looking sharp. He didn't like his first daughter to look so weak.

"Eating, even if it feels heavy. Keep on chewing every chew for your child and not for you. You must be strong Ne." Mother rubbed gently on Anelis' left hand. He turned to look at Andara who clearly did not understand his words.

"Let's eat too."

Andara nodded. He fed the rice to his mouth while still looking at his older brother who looked down deeply. Her mother's words jolted Anelis. The bond between mother and child cannot be defeated. Without the need for a prologue of a story a mother already knows what the contents will be like. His heart felt when bad things happened to his son. Yep. Anelis is not okay. He guessed what really happened. The email and the name of the woman as the destination swirled in his head. Without feeling, tears came back out. Anelis sniffed, she couldn't fool herself anymore, thinking everything was fine.

What appears on the surface is not always true. It could be that everyone keeps neat every problem on their own, and still live the days as if without the heavy burden that befalls themselves. Anelis is getting sobbing along with her mother's cooking which currently feels not delicious.