Accompany Me with Hijrah
BREAK UP
"WHAAATT? BREAKING UP?"
The voice of a woman was shrill in the crowd of the Nusantara campus canteen that morning. As a result, everyone turned towards the source of the sound.
"Sssstttt," Malik placed his index finger on his lips. The man hinted for Zarra, the owner of the loud voice, to slow down his voice. Zarra nodded quickly. Tears began to pool at both corners of her eyes.
"Calm down, Zarra," said Malik softly. Zarra's heart rumbled to hear Malik's words. He could not understand how Malik could say broke up after dating for three years.
"Ra, this isn't what you imagined. We still meet as usual. It's just that our status is not dating. We also do not do road activities with the two of us anymore. We can still win," explained Malik slowly. He did not want to hurt the heart of the woman who had accompanied him for more than 3 years.
"Which woman?" asked Zarra as soon as she could control her emotions. Malik chuckled at the question of the sweet girl before him. Zarra's jealousy is indeed quite large, typical of a woman. Zarra stared at Malik. His eyes squinted, probing meaningfully.
"Ra, are you all right? There is no other woman. There was no one but.." Malik hung up his words. Zarra probed through his eyes. He waited for Malik to continue his words.
"Except who?," Zarra's impatient.
"Except Allah, Ra," continued Malik with a sincere smile that made Zarra speechless. He looked into Malik's eyes deeply, trying to find the truth of his words. He could see that Malik wasn't lying. The typical brown eyes of the middle east show sincerity. Zarra wanted to believe, but somehow it felt too awkward for her.
"I want to be closer to God, Ra. I want hijrah. And in our religion, the religion of Islam, courtship is forbidden because it draws closer to adultery. All that is allowed is marriage" Malik explained. A sincere smile was still attached sweetly on her meritorious lips. Malik does have a typical middle eastern face because there is a lineage from Iran. Malik's grandfather was from Iran. Zarra also just realized that Malik now has a beard and lengthen it even though only about three inches.
"Well, marry me! I'm ready!" cried Zarra. Malik chuckled again. He was very worried about the behavior of his favorite girl. If only Zarra could not remember not his mahram, he would have pinched the squash of Zarra's chubby cheek.
"Zarra, it's not that easy to get married. We need to understand the nature of marriage. I'm still learning the fiqh of a living, you're married" replied Malik half-jokingly. Zarra snorted in annoyance. At a time like this, Malik even tried to mark it.
"Say you're not in love!" exclaimed Zarra upset. He tidied up his belongings and left Malik still grieved by his disappearance.
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Zarra opened her eyes. He felt that the blanket was still completely wrapped around his body. Hot eyes. His head also felt heavy maybe because since coming home from college earlier, he was crying incessantly in his room. He saw his phone that had been intentionally in silent. No chat notification from Malik. Wicked, Zarra grumbled in his heart.
Slowly she brought down the blanket that covered her body. He blinked his eyes a few times. Slightly sick because his eyes were tired of crying. He is still inexhaustible, maybe more precisely not accept with Malik's decision which he considers only one-sided. Too sudden. It's as easy as saying the word 'breakup' after three years together. He still hangs out last night with Malik.
Zarra got up from her bed. He was standing next to his bedroom window. Looking outwards. The housing looks deserted. For a moment he stared at the screen of his phone. The clock on his phone showed at three in the afternoon he looked out of his room. His mind went back to Malik. He tried to recall what was strange about Malik's attitude lately. But there is nothing strange. Malik is the Malik he knows. Indeed the last two months, since Malik returned from Mecca there has been a change in his attitude. They rarely hang out like watching or walking together like before. Even if Malik finally wants to walk with him, it's not the two of them. Malik will bring their friends. Malik also never again embrace, hug, kiss his cheek or forehead, even Malik never held his hand. He was never suspicious because they rarely met together after Malik came from Mecca. Is this the end of a change in Malik's attitude that was not discussed by Zarra?
Zarra let out a long breath. Trying to calm his heart. Three years and eight months of their love journey should run aground today. He remembers the first time Malik expressed his feelings. They were still in High School last year. At the beginning of their relationship, he never expected more than to love Malik completely. He was too afraid of heartbreak. Malik is handsome and not a few girls have a crush on him. It took him a year to convince his heart to really accept Malik. As time goes by, the comfort and loyalty Malik shows makes him fall even more in love and afraid of losing Malik. Before leaving for Mecca, Malik had said his desire to be able to marry Zarra later after they graduated from college.
Now, what did Zarra get? The unilateral decision was broken from Malik who even he did not understand the reason. The hijrah? Hijrah where? Deepening in the science of religion, that's the reason. Zarra was completely inexhaustible. Why Malik should change. Why doesn't Malik follow life like his other friends. They are mostly Islamic, but they are also dating. Zarra really does not understand Malik making the reason for 'migra' to break up from him. He regretted that he had been carried away by emotions so he did not hear Malik's explanation further.
TRIINNGG
A notification of whatsapp chat coming in left him stunned. Kinar. Ah, true. Zarra was in need of Kinar to accompany her at this time. But again Zarra had to be disappointed because his best friend was just telling him that he was having an event.
- Kinar
Sorry, Ra. I have another show with Mama. Tomorrow on campus aja story yes. sorry very ebebku 😢
Zarra let out a disappointed breath. At a time like this, he needs the figure of Kinar, his best friend. His heart feels very sad. He shouldn't have just left Malik. He should have asked for a more detailed explanation. Tomorrow he'll have to see Malik again. Yep! Tomorrow! Tomorrow Zarra will ask for an explanation from Malik. Clearly and in great detail. Zarra doesn't want anyone to be missed. Zarra wanted to know if Malik still loved her or not. Yep! Zarra is determined to ask Malik for an explanation tomorrow. Must. This afternoon he passed by with his own loneliness.
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