Woman Behind the Veil

Chapter 43

This hand shook to see what I did not want to see, this heart was so crowded after knowing what Wulan was doing in cyberspace, disappointed, disappointed, annoyed and angry mixed into one but I tried to remain calm because bertabayun with the anger accompanied by the coming from syaithon, and I do not want syaithon affect the contents of my mind and heart.

Wulan finally emerged from behind the room and then fell silent for a moment when the tau hpnya in my hand, but again walked up to me while calming the cry of my daughter in her cradle.

I'm "owh baby, abi's son, why are you crying that way?"

Wulan "tau nih kayaknya abis peed deh,bau ecing Ummi.au ecing ummi" joked Wulan while tickling the stomach of Annisa, annisa also finally laughed.

I'm "changing Mi's diaper, here's her pants let me get in the laundry bucket" I asked

I took Annisa's pants to the bathroom and soaked them in detergent and then sat down next to Wulan with a glass containing cold drinks.

Wulan "you opened whatever Bi was on my phone"

I'm "not really, not anything" I replied

Wulan "don't lie, from your face it looks like you're saving something" he said

I "that's why I'm ayah abis Isya" while smiling at him

Wulan nodded, but I saw her face like looking anxious, maybe she thought I already knew her medsos because during marriage until now Wulan was very closed about her medsos I never questioned about it.

I actually want to be angry but I think again to do that, seeing the condition of Wulan which is still fairly unstable that there is not solving the problem even added the problem, moreover, she must realize the make of heart without thinking that what she did in social media can plunge me also into hell.

After finishing praying I walked home thinking how to be firm with Wulan, firm but not hurt him because the word ustadz woman is sensitive, too sensitive if we talk wrong sometimes women misinterpret when for the sake of himself and the household as well, "ah confused it feels, bismillah deh hopefully what happened tonight" murmured me

I'm "Assalamu'alaikum warrahmatullah" while opening the door

Wulan "wa'alaikumsalam warrahmatullah" said Wulan who had sat on the living room sofa

Wulan then said by kissing my hand, this moment that makes me not have the heart to interrogate him, but would not want to, do not like it I have to question the problem of social media because if I let it continue. I fear the threat that Allah's Prophet Shallallahu'alaihi wassalam said :

"There are three classes of men whom God will not see (with a view of compassion) on the day of the apocalypse, namely: the one who disobeys his parents, the woman who resembles a man, and the one who looks like a man, and ad-dayyuts.." [SV. An-Nasa-i and Ahmad]

Dayyuts as mentioned in Al Mu’jam Al Wasith are men who become leaders for his family but he has no jealousy and no shame, letting his family interact without being reminded.

In addition to never having feelings of jealousy towards his wife, sometimes a husband of this type of dayyuts also does not mind when the wife tries to attract the attention of other men or even seduced by other men.

I'm "Annisa is bobo?"

Wulan "already Bi" with a bowed face did not dare to look at me

I'm "honey, why is his face so low, just look at me"

Wulan "shakes her head"

I "do smell ya? Or less handsome? Yaudah didn't miss it" I joked, wanting to stand up, but Wulan's hand held mine and prevented me from leaving

I turned to face Wulan and slowly sat down beside her.

I'm "yes..."

Wulan "do you know everything?" his face was now looking at my face with a sad look

I "nodded while smiling"

Wulan "you are angry with me?, you are disappointed with me?, sorry I am Bi, I am not a wife like Aisyah"

I "there's still a chance to change ourselves for the better, and you don't have to be like Aisha" either"

Wulan "i used to date while you never dated, I like to share photos on social media while your social media is full of studies and not a single photo of you is on display there, we're different Bi..we're different, what pantes do I have with you?"

I'm "Darling, I don't care what your past is like, because every human being must have done wrong and I know you are a smart Muslim because you can cover yourself with a hijab and veil it is a glory for women but...?"

Wulan then looked at me and waited for my answer, her eyes wet from crying from earlier.

Wulan "but what is Bi?" with a hoarse and soft voice

I'm "a Salafiyyah woman will not show her face in medsos, especially with the word islami, just with the word islami alone without a photo can"

Wulan "means I'm wrong?"

I "(shake my head) but I'm jealous baby, I don't want your face to appear on social media and then enjoyed the Brotherhood who became your followers"

Wulan "my maaffin is not perfect for you Bi, I promise I will delete all my photos"

I'm "who's the man's handrails?"

Wulan "that's my ex Bi" then cried hugging my body

I silenced her and let her cry until she was comfortable.

Wulan "i'm dirty Bi, I can't keep what God has safe with me😭"

I'm "“Kullu Bani Adam khotto’’, wa khoirul khottoina attawaabun”.

: “every son of Adam's grandson must have sinned, and the best of the sinner is the one who repents”. (CHR. At Tirmizi & Ibn Majah)"

Wulan "but still I feel ashamed Bi, I've been defiant with my husband, rather than make you angry mending homein meja Bi" with my face subdued

"I'm not the way to solve Mi's problem, I'm not a perfect human being, I'm not an angel who never fell into sin, my sins are many, even if it were not for God covering up my sins, you might not want to sit with me, I want when I'm wrong you reprimand me as well as when you do wrong I'll reprimand you it's not because I don't love, it's Mi's love, because I don't want this love to end only in the world, I want this love to reach the paradise of Allah jalaluhu😊"

Wulan then looked at me and then her hands covered her mouth, her tears were flowing to wet her face, and then she hugged me, well this hug tonight I can't describe in words because I have found true love tonight, which is a relationship based on loving each other because Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala.