Woman Behind the Veil

Chapter 3

Fajr at 3 am 2 hours before the adhan in my mosque I was awake, not because I woke up too early because I had to prepare mentally so that not stage fright (called a concert).

I was sitting listless in front of the house thinking about my fate that somehow happened, wanting to reject me was afraid of disappointing Dad and certainly Aisyah's assessment of me was getting minus in her eyes, want to respond to the challenge of Aisyah I am also afraid when my reading there is a misunderstanding of humans if again nervous sometimes that is memorized can ngeblank.

"What do you think, son?. Tumben morning gini already woke up first" said my father 

"Not just nervous" I said

"Remain why?, you actually hapal endak is the surah that Aisyah asked for?"

"She's Dad, but if you're nervous sometimes Abe ngeblank, afraid to fit in the middle of the verse abe forget the same reading abe" said I as bowed

"His intentions are taken care of by Allah, you will not forget"

"What do you mean by intention?" I asked him confused

"What is your intention to become a priest?Lillahita'ala or because of Aisha?"

"Lillahita'ala Yah" I said

"If Lillahita'ala well what is groggy?that's a sign that your intention is still not really Be"

"How must Abe go, Dad?"

He then patted me on the shoulder and said "already if you intend because Allah leaves, want your voice ugly or not Bismillah, after all the value of Allah is not a congregation let alone Aisha"

I then set off on my pancal bike to Aisyah village, I ramped up the bike while thinking about the words said Dad just now well I realized my intention was wrong, indeed my intention was wrong, I want to become a priest of prayer just because I pursue the praise of Aisha and this includes a great sin because there is stored the nature of riya in my heart, finally, I resolved my resolve to intend for Allah alone without expecting praise from Aisha or the pilgrims, to be praised or praised by the important bodo period of Allah Ridho.

Half the way to arrive the Adzan was reverberating, I then speed up my bike so as not to arrive late at the destination, after arriving I then put the bike in the parking lot and then headed towards the mosque, when I was about to enter, Abdurrahman called me.

"Son Abe..."

"Dad Om?" my sah

"Are you ready to be a priest?" ask him

"God willing Om" answered me

When the conversation arrived through the angel from the back of Om Abdurrahman passed us to the place of ablution, without turning his head without saying hello past me just like that.

I then entered the mosque and then prayed sunnah 2 rakaat not long iqomah was in the mosque, I saw people who entered the mosque quite a lot if counted there might be two shaf, I saw, and success made my feelings of inferiority reappear but I tried to throw the feeling far away and return to the original intention here.

Then Om Abdurrahman invited me to come forward to imitate the pilgrims present.

As I went forward I also spoke to the congregation "straighten the shaf in prayer, because straightening the shaf is part of the perfection of prayer" (HR. 435 Muslims)

After being felt enough then I proclaimed the takbir "Allahu akhbar"

After reading the Surah Alfatihah I continue to read the Surah Ar Rahman, by taking a deep breath I finally recited the holy verse in front of dozens of pilgrims present.

  

Rahman(u) 

  'Allamal quraan(a)  

"That has taught the Qur'an." – (QS.55:2) 

Khalama-insaan(a)  

"He created man," – (QS.55:3) 

َ 

  'Allamahul bayaan(a)  

"Teaching her is good at talking." – (QS.55:4) 

Asy - shamsu wal qamaru bihusbaanin 

  "Sun and moon (circulating), according to the calculation." – (QS.55:5) 

Until the 50th verse I stopped and bowed and prostrated when I stood back I read Al fatihah after that I continued reading Surah Ar Rahman from Verse 51 to verse 78.

After the greeting finally relieved also I can finish reading the Surah Ar Rahman although in the middle of my tongue choked due to nervousness approaching but Alhamdulillah I can control back.

After I finished my prayer and went out of the mosque and approached my bike to go home immediately, but Om Abdurrahman called me back.

"Where are you going, son?" pinta

"Ah not Om there is still a lot of work at home that I have to complete (when there is no shame just have to meet the Aisyah)"

"Oh so even though Om wants to invite you to play chess this morning, but you're already not what, what, oia your reading is good sound top recommendation if you can replace Om as imam prayer in this mosque"

"I'm sorry om, I am still studying and have not dared to be a prayer priest here"

"Sama aja om also still learning not every Muslim must continue to learn and stop learning when it is in the pit"

"Had said he made me die a flea, why should I even though there are still many young people here who are qualified than me" my bathin

"Well, if Nak Abe doesn't want to know what's important, Nak Abe has shown that Nak Abe is worthy to be an imam for Aisyah" he said, patting me on the shoulder

I can only mangosteen mangosteen, I suddenly smell the smell of fragrant passing me, when my gaze lifted turned out Aisyah passed by just like that and again without greeting let alone greeting me and her father.

Even though Aisyah's father had already agreed to my marriage with Aisyah still the decision was in Aisyah's hands, when he saw her being so ignorant I was so pessimistic and definitely my proposal would be rejected.

After saying farewell to Aisha's father I returned home by pedaling a slow bicycle and bathe "O Allah if You make Aisha my wife then ease all the affairs of the servant, if he is not my soul mate, then keep him from my mind that makes me sin because think of what is not right for me"

"Derrrttt...derrrttt" arrived my phone vibrated like a message came in, then I opened my phone without stopping my bike speed

When I opened it there was a message from an unknown number, it read

"For my future imam Mas Abe, thank you for proving that Mas Abe is indeed worthy of my future imam, sorry Mas for my strange request but God willing now I believe that Mas Abe can be the Imam who will lead me to His heaven, please do not reply to this text until the right time until we are halal later, jazakallahu khiran"