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Being Sincere Is Hard

The days passed by Nick even though his heart was not fine.

Nick admitted his stupidity.

Nick is selfish.

Nick is aware of his bad attitude which he must now accept that what he has not had time to fight for has now come off in his grasp.

Of course Nick's change of attitude did not go unnoticed by Oma Marisa.

Moreover, Oma Marisa has been told clearly by Gusti when Nick met Kanaya and Ustadz Salman a few days ago.

"Caca's asleep, Mom?" Nick saw his mother coming to work.

Oma Marisa sees Nick back as he used to busy himself in his work in his study even though it is already night.

"It has. Caca said he didn't want to wake up because tomorrow he would attend the invitation from Kanaya and Ustadz Salman. You're coming, aren't you, Nick?"

"Would you need Mom?" Nick remained focused in front of his laptop without looking at his mother's face.

"Nick come here, Mom wants to talk." Oma Marisa patted the side next to her asking Nick to come closer.

Nick complies with Mom Marisa's request now Nick sits on the same sofa as his mother.

"Mom knows, your heart is disappointed, angry and maybe uncomfortable with tomorrow's invitation. But as a gentle man you have to come and show that you can accept with grace and be happy with them. If Caca could just accept it, as a grown man, you're stronger than your daughter. I hope you can learn a lesson from what happened. That sometimes that ego makes us hard on our own. And the heart is not like a logic that is clearly black or white. Our hearts are the only ones who know. Never fool yourself. Sincere is heavy but let us do it step by step."

"It's night. Rest up. You've been sleep deprived for a few days. Your eyes are so dark Nick."

"A little more my work is done. Mom, get some rest first."

"OKs. Mom rest first, Nicj. Remember, you don't stay up if it's meaningless." A little humor so that the son can smile again.

Nick responded with a smile from his mother.

At midnight Nick's work is done.

Nick goes into Caca's room.

Staring at his beautiful daughter who is now asleep in the cradle of dreams.

"Excuse Daddy Darling, because of Daddy's selfishness, Daddy failed to give you Mommy. Forgive Daddy Nak!" Without feeling Nick's tears dripping, Nick hastily went from Caca's room to his room.

Nick tried to close his eyes in the large length of his room, but not the slightest drowsiness in Nick's eye fertilizers.

Shadow the first time he meets Kanaya, a petty quarrel with Kanaya, as they venture into a fantasy world, where they, anyway, all the images of himself with Kanaya that had been recorded in Nick's mind as if they appeared one by one making Nick's heart melt.

How blind Nick and his heart frozen when many moments and time he unwittingly passed together.

Nick realized he was too caught up in the memories that his eyes and heart could not feel that in the corner of his heart had grown the seeds of love for the woman he now had to relinquish being happy with Ustadz Salman.

Like a pinch, when he was foolishly unaware of the small explosion when the two began to close up until now Nick had lost before he could start.

"Aurel, I'm sorry I've doted on you with my love for Kanaya, I'm sorry for making our daughter sad because I failed before I could fight for my own selfishness."

In his prayer Nick relentlessly begged for forgiveness for all the arrogance and mistakes he often did so far.

In his prayer Nick begged that the broken heart be dim so that he could sincerely accept everything that happened in his life.

Nick realized sincerely not as easy as said even very heavy than other worship.

In his prayer khusuk Nick unconsciously still on the bed until he was in a beautiful garden and how surprised Nick saw Aurel in the best clothes and so beautiful glow.

"Assalamualaikum Nick." Sapa Aurel's.

"Waalaikumsalam Darling. Aurel, you got sisini? Why did you leave me and Caca?" Nick followed Aurel in a long chair in the beautiful garden.

"I'm not leaving you, it's just that my time is done. Nick, I know you love me so much. Thank ye. But I want you to also learn how to shape your future with our daughter Caca. Open your heart and you will find a good woman who will replace me as your companion and mother to Caca." The glowing Aurel was dazzling in front of Nick.

"I'm sorry, honey. I didn't mean to tell you, but that woman was with someone else. I failed before I fought." Nick's bitter smile that he showed.

"Good prejudice to Allah SWT. If he befouled you, Allah would ease the way, but if he were not a match, God would have prepared a better replacement for me." Aurel's Message.

"Are you not jealous if I remarry?" Nick was clumsy to say that in front of Aurel.

"I'm happy now, I'm sad to see you and Caca feeling lonely. Nick, promise me, one day if you find a good woman as my surrogate mother for Caca then fight, don't you get stuck in the past. Keep me in your heart but do not cover your heart for new love. You and Caca deserve to be happy and move on. Remember my message Nick. I'm picking up our daughter Caca. Take care and love him. I always loved you and Caca. Good bye Nick."

Slowly Aurel disappeared with the light that carried her further away.

"Aurel!"

Nick's awake.

Right the sound of dawn was heard from the balcony door that he did not lock the rest of the night.

Nick woke up to wake himself up.

"I'm dreaming." Nick realized he was still on the prayer mat now slowly gathering his consciousness rushed to the bathroom and prepared to take ablution to perform dawn prayers.

How peaceful Nick's heart this morning as if a new soul that he felt especially his dream to meet Aurel the late wife.

Nick opened a random scripture that he had long forgotten.

Still above the prayer rug in a state of ablution Nick opened the Quran.

"Al-khabietu lil-khabiita wal-khabita lil-khabit, wap-tayyibatu lit-tayyibinna wat-tayyibukina li-tayyibat, ul` mubarra` mimma yaquklikahn, lahum magfiratuw wa rizqung karim."

“Women who are not good for men who are not good, and men who are not good are for women who are not good anyway. Good women for good men and good men for good women”. (QS: An Nur Verse 26)

Nick read the exegesis of the verse.

Tafsir Al - Muyassar / Saudi Arabia Ministry of Religious Affairs: 

Every heinous thing of men and women, words and deeds will fit, in line with and in accordance with the abominable. And every good thing of men and women, speech and deed will fit and conform to the good (after all). The good men and women are clean from the bad accusations leveled by the vile men. They will be forgiven by God who will cover their sins and have good reserves in heaven.