When My Wish Is In Line With My Destiny

49. An Explanation

"Yaudah said it on the way, so be it. I'll also go home."

reply Zain.

The girl agreed to it by nodding her head.

The two of them walked together towards the exit of the hall. Zain began to sigh slowly.

"I want to apologize to you ca."

"I'm sorry for what, brother?"

"I'm sorry I offended you yesterday."

Icha fell silent, her memory returned 4 days ago.

"That's it, brother, lupain. It is not the fault of Brother Zain, it has been moved by God if I am there and hear everything."

"But I can't forget that I feel so guilty for hurting your feelings and making you cry."

The girl went back into silence and occasionally turned her face away.

"Where did you know that I was crying?"

"My sister can feel it, if you're covering your tears with a million smiles that break from the look on your face."

"I can also feel it ca."

Icha glimpsed at his face.

"Nobody knows my heart and my feelings at that time, brother, maybe you think I'm crying out of disappointment and heartache for the statement I heard yesterday."

"It's not just because of a statement that makes these tears flow, but because I feel ashamed of myself, because I've been expecting this feeling too much."

Zayn looked at his face which he did not see at all.

"I'm sorry ca."

"I've forgiven him Brother, even I've forgotten him and will no longer discuss it."

"Are you going to forget how you feel?"

ice sighed slowly.

"Most likely like that. I hope this feeling goes away quickly and can let it go with another woman."

The words were for a knife that directly pierced his heart.

"Why do you want to remove it and let it go away?"

"Something destined for you will never belong to anyone else, and something that is not yours, no matter how hard you pursue, he will always avoid."

"Sir Zain knows what that means?"

Zain simply fell silent and slowly nodded his head.

"I have given everything to God, Brother. Allah will not betray his love for his servant, even though he has hurt and betrayed him many times. If we leave our whole life and death to God for pursuing his love, then God will also give him greater love through something he wills."

His heart trembled when Icha reminded him of his love of Allah subhanahu Wa Ta'Ala to his servants.

Although the servant has repeatedly hurt and hurt Allah SWT.

It felt like the tears were going to come out of his eye patch, but Zain immediately wiped it.

His admiration for the girl increased when he saw her graceful face Zain always remembered God.

The girl is getting stronger, her stance is so firm, her faith and fear of God are getting stronger.

Is it because of this that until now Zain has not been able to get rid of his feelings for the girl?

"Sorry, our conversation is over. I got in front of my car. Thank you for listening to a little of my heart." she said with a smile.

"I should be thanking you ca, for you have listened to my explanation. And you have reminded me of God's love. My confidence is growing I think you're the best woman I've ever had to choose."

His heart rippled as Zain said his words earlier, there was a sense of hope that re-emerged on his feelings, but Ica immediately brushed it off and threw away the hope as far as possible.

"Choose by the way of faith and conviction, not by thought and lust."

"If my faith chooses you?"

"Come to my parents, if it is your faith that chooses him" said Icha before he continued his steps toward Mr. Rashid.

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Draining the voice of the mobile phone that indicates there is an incoming call, woke Zain from sleeping in the afternoon.

Zain reached for the phone to receive incoming calls without seeing the name on the screen.

"Hello, Assalamualaikum."

Zain opened his phone first.

"Waalaikumsalam" replied someone from across the street.

"Zain, it's me, Raihan. Thank goodness you picked up my phone this time, Zain, I've called you many times before but you didn't pick up at all."

"Sorry Ray I was sleeping, and I just heard a call coming in. What's the matter Ray you called me?"

"Actually I don't want to bother you about this matter anymore Zain since you returned to Indonesia. But this time I had to tell you."

"What's up, Ray? What's the problem there?"

"May Zain hospital again, has been washing blood many times, and now the situation is getting worse, worse than a few weeks ago."

"His family asked me to call you and tell you about the circumstances, they're all waiting for your answer Zain."

Raihan added to his words.

Zain was silent and thought.

"Zain, do you hear me?"

"Yes Ray, I hear you."

"Then how?"

"Sorry Ray, for now I can't answer. I want to pray first Ray. Actually the answer is already there, but I want to confirm it again."

"Alright, it's up to you. When are you gonna call me again?"

"Give me one day and one night. God willing the day after tomorrow, I'll call you back and there's an answer from me."

"Give Zain the best decision. Don't you offend her if your decision doesn't match what she expected."

"God willing Ray."

Zain hung up and put the phone back in its place.

A moment he was pensive, tired because his trip yesterday after the seminar in Jakarta was still not lost.

Now her mind is added to remember Mei who continues to expect herself to be able to marry him.

Zain stopped his breathing, his eyes looking at the wall clock in his room.

Already at 04.00 pm, he just remembered, because of fatigue to make him fall asleep, he was left behind prayer ashar congregation in the mosque.

The young man immediately got up from his seat and walked towards the bathroom.

"Well, you're awake. Asma'kira was still sleeping. So Asma' came in because he wanted to wake up Zain's mas."

"Why not just now, As."

"Actually yes. But I said don't have to first, pity because I just slept, kept sleeping really good."

Zain broke out his smile.

"Assalamualaik."

"Getishalight."

"Buddy."

"Eh. Kafa neng Zizi's. Let's go in."

Both went inside.

For a long time Kafa and Zizi did not visit his monastery.

As they said yesterday to Icha and her parents, it was also the reason that made the two rarely approach her budenya house.

They were sitting in the living room together with Ms. Husna. Little Ghifar also seemed so happy while sitting on his grandmother's lap.

"Mas Zain equals asthma where's bude?"

"Oh, Zain again in Asthma's room was also just about to wake up his mas who was still sleeping."

Soon enough, you're still the Asthma girl' going out into the living room to visit her mother.

His home smile immediately unraveled from the look on his face when he saw Kafa and Zizi coming along with the adorable little Ghifar.

Asma' approached and took over Ghifar from his mother, kissing his chili cheek and hugging his tiny, filled body.

"Why are you doing nduk again?"

"Mom's praying first."

"o."

"Peach drink there nduk, for Mas Kafa the same Mbak Zizi."

"No need to bude, let Zizi just later who took it himself."

"Yes can't do that anyway, you are a guest who wants to drink alone."

"If for the opening he was taken first mbak, if you want to add yes just take it yourself" said Asma' with a smile.

Zizi chuckled at the asthma statement to her.

My brother got up from his seat.

"Where is Kafa going?"

"You'll talk to Mas Zain for a minute."

"O. Yaudah Mas entered in his room, Mas Zain was still praying ashar."

Kafa nodded with a smile.

Kafa continued his steps until he reached Zain's room.

The young man had reached the end of his prayer.

After the salutation, he continued it with istighfar, dhikr after the prayer and closed with a long prayer.

By the time he was in his room, he was sitting on a chair in his cousin's room.

He continued to wait until Zain was finished with his long prayer.

Fifteen minutes later after he waited Zayn finally finished.

He folded his alphabet and placed it on a special table where his prayer clothes were.

"Kafa." he said as he turned around.

"Hey, mas. How are you?"

Kafa got up and experienced it and embraced it.

"Alhamdulillah bil Khair."

"When did you come?"

"Bust be a mas."

"Tumben you entered my room fa, have you been waiting for a long time?"

"Not so good."

"Somebody wants me to talk to you about Mas Zain."

Both of his eyes looked solemn as he looked at Kafa.

"What are you talking about?"

Stafa turned his face forward, then sighed.

"Sorry Mas before, if what I'm talking about later deals with Mas Zain's feelings."

It seemed like Zain was starting to understand with this intention of his cousin.

"We have not seen Mas for a long time, not even communicating. Our kinship relationship is also increasingly tenuous so that we never know our situation with each other. I came here because I wanted to reimpose our family relationship. I also want to know what kind of trouble this cousin is actually going through. If at this time you need a friend or friend who can listen to your complaints, I'm ready to accompany you Mas."

Zain was still speechless with his eyes looking forward.

"A week ago, Zizi and I came to the house of Icha. Zizi is a close friend, they have not seen each other for a long time. At first everything was fine I was mah But when I mentioned it with your name, the look on the face filled with smiles changed. His two eyes were glazed over, like someone was hurting his heart."

Both of Zain's eyes looked back at Kafa.

"What really happened to him and you?"

Zain breathed.

"I who had offended her she cried at hearing my talk with mother and the others."

"What are you talking about, to the point of offending him?"

Zayn remembered something, his mind was reminded again of the past of the kafa.

He knew Kafa had also experienced the same thing as himself.

Maybe if he knew the things that Brother was experiencing as well, there would be additional input that could strengthen his answer.

"What I'm going through right now, is the same as what's happened to you before, fa."

Kafa rounded his two eyes that were looking at Zain seriously. When I heard that statement.

"Did I not hear you wrong?"

"Not fa."

Kafa sighed.

Both are silent to each other.

Zain began to regulate his breathing and told his cousin what he was going through.

The man was silent as a listener, and had yet to give Zayn any response.

"So Raihan called me. He told her that Mai's situation there was getting worse. He also washed his blood and went to the hospital many times. They're all waiting for my answer, I'm still confused by my answer fa."

"Mas. that answer you already got from your prayer istikharah. And I'm sure it's God's best choice for you. Not because you are sorry for the circumstances of others, so doubt back your decision that has been steady to choose Icha."

"I don't want to see that girl get hurt again in her feelings. It's enough that I hurt his feelings, not Mas anymore. Even to this day the guilt can't go away until I actually see Icha being happy with a nice guy like you."

After a long time he listened to what Zain was talking about about his problems, Kaffa finally issued his opinion that made Zain's heart rippled with his opinion.

Kafa could conclude that Zain was too weak with his mother's great taste. If the young man could not shift his mother's taste to any weak woman, it was possible that he would not have a strong stance.