When My Wish Is In Line With My Destiny

27. Zain's Decision

The pain is still there, even though it was a wound in the past. That is what the Kaffah still feels today.

The love was gone, all sides left and preferred Zain over him. But now turning back to him, God's destiny has determined him to return with Zizi.

Can that genuine love come back too?

"Zizy.."

kafa's voice sounded out calling out to him.

Zizi who was talking to Dita immediately set his eyes on the source of the voice.

"What's wrong?"the question is coming closer.

"I want to talk to you for a minute."

"For a while, Zizi said the same thing to you."

Kafa simply nodded with his smile.

"I'll wait outside."

"Yes." Yeah."

Zizi went to Dita, and went out and met Kaffa who was waiting for him.

"What are you talking about?"

the young man began to catch his breath.

"You don't misunderstand me, with my attitude like this is the same as yours."

Zizi elaborated her smile at a glance.

"I know what you still feel."

said Zizi who understood Kafa's current feelings.

"I never hated you at all, I just needed time to be able to eliminate the pain that had existed in the past."

Zizi was silent while bowing her face.

"Please give me some time ya zi."

"I'm sorry, because I made that painful wound."

Kafa looked at the girl before him who was bowing his face.

"Of course, it's all over."

Silence struck both.

"Are there other women you loved before you accepted this match?"

Zizi let out a question from earlier that stuck in his heart.

There is nothing else to cover, Zizi also must know if the young man in front of him was ever his best friend.

"There's."

"Do I know who that woman is?"

Kafa took a long breath.

"He's your best friend, the person closest to you, Icha. I've loved Icha."

"And maybe that feeling is still there right now."

The deg!

Guilt began to envelop Zizi's heart. By accident he has hurt the feelings of his own best friend, what is this, why all this time he does not know if his best friend is harboring a sense of pain because of him.

"Miss.."

Zizi repeated his words.

He just nodded his head.

"Before I knew Ica, there were two women I loved the most in my life, but one of them left me and it's hurt so much to this day."

His words instantly made Zizi's heart beat extremely fast. Zizi raised his face and looked into those eyes.The girl suddenly shut up at that moment.

"But it was because of my own stupidity that I let my love go without any effort to fight for it."

Zizi was still silent with her face that kept looking down.

"Do I still have a chance to get your love back, ma'am?" Zizi spoke with her low voice.

"Why are you asking like that?"

Zizi fell silent again, not knowing what else to say. His face just kept looking down as he did not dare to look at that face.

"Eh. It turns out you're here." Dita who had been looking for their existence, finally came and met the two, replacing the atmosphere that had seemed crisp.

Both faces were on Dita.

"What's talking about?" Mama can't follow?"

Sitting between the two.

Kafa and Zizi were equally silent, both of them just showing their respective smiles.

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"Assalamualaik."

Zain came to Kyai's house alone, not as usual.

"Waalaikumsalam." kyai came to Zain who was still at the door.

"Zain, what's wrong, son?"

"There's something Zain wants to talk about for a second, Abuya. Sorry if Zain bothers Abuya."

"Oh, let's go in Zain."

With the invitation of Kyai finally Zain entered the house kyai.

"What's so important you want to talk about Zain?"

Zain looked a little nervous he didn't know where to start.

"Em.. It's Abuya." said he who was still nervous with cold sweat.

"What's Zain doing?"kyai repeated the question.

"Zain wanted to talk about the Icha scholarship that had been canceled from there directly Abuya, because there was a little problem."

"What's up with Zain, with the Icha scholarship fire?"

"Em... actually I want to give Abuya's proposal, what if Icha still leave but with my scholarship, can it be Abuya?"

Abuya momentarily fell silent

"meaning Zain? you want to give your scholarship to Icha, right?"

design is disturbing with full seriousness.

Abuya sighed.

"Know abuya, from the past you worked very hard to be able to get the scholarship. But why are you giving it to someone else now Zain?"

"Do you no longer intend to study there?"

The question from Kyai slightly shook his heart, because Abuya had always been a witness of his struggle to get the scholarship.

Zain fell silent again with his face lowered.

"The scholarship was indeed Zain Abuya's biggest dream, but I can't bear to see someone else lose his biggest dream as well. Because Zain knows how to struggle to get it all."

"So, it's better for Zain to give in, because Zain wants to help others make his dreams come true."

"you want to help others, but you yourself are not helped, that's how Zain is?"

"It was an Abuya sacrifice, who knows after this there is a better God's plan for Zain."

Zain said with a full smile.

kyai just nodded her head.

"Your sacrifice for Icha is so great, all those who will depart for Cordoba can only give their mother a taste because of Icha's failure to set out with them, but none of them sacrificed like you."

"Do you have the same feeling as Icha Zain?"

Zain immediately raised his face, when he heard the question from Kyai, his question managed to make Zain's heart beat so fast.

"A feeling? is that how I feel right now? astaghfirullahaladzim, O Allah, help me to be able to keep this heart and this feeling only to You."

"Zayn..."

the call from Abuya made him aware of his reverie.

"Yes, Abuya."

"You haven't answered Abuya's question yet."

"Em.. sorry Abuya, Zain did all that not because of a feeling, but because Zain's intention from the beginning wanted to help his brothers and sisters. That's all Abuya."

"If the matter of Zain's feelings can't give an answer now because Zain still isn't sure about Abuya."

answer with to the point.

Abuya returned to do the head with a smile.

"Then, if anyone else had experienced the same thing as Ica, would you have done the same?"

"God willing, if Allah had given Zain the same ease, he would have done the same for Abuya."

"Alhamdulillah your intention is very good Zain.But you made this decision have you considered Zain?"

"God is Abuya. Zain had considered it and was sincere Abuya."

"Your decision will let Abuya musyawarahkan again with ustaz and ustadzah in charge of administering the santri scholarship."

"Thank you very much Abuya."

he said in a feeling so relieved.

"Same as Zain."

Now his heart felt so relieved when he had conveyed his good intentions to kyai to help Icha, in accordance with his mother's message.