When My Wish Is In Line With My Destiny

47. Derogate

The two sat down and continued their conversation.

For a moment, Icha hid her sadness, she tried to comfort herself by joking with her niece and best friend.

"What is your college ca?" ask Kafa.

"Alhamdulillah stay waiting for graduation, doain aja may be the best predicate."

"Amen."

"Oh yeah, how's Zain, you're out of there, right?"

Icha was silent for a moment.

"Good news. Have you guys not been there yet?"

"Not yet, the plan is God willing after this we will come there."

"Yes, come there, they are all waiting for your arrival, especially the presence of Ghifar."

"Where dear, have you given your greetings to the young man named Zain?"

"Eum..."

"Sorry pa, Icha forgot. Because Icha did not meet directly with Kak Zain, only through Asthma' only."

"Can't you see me? Is Zain not home anymore?" ask Kafa.

The girl fell silent again, her facial features changed like a confused person, she also occasionally lowered her head down.

"Ca....."

"You don't have any more problems, do you?" ask Zizi.

Icha raised her face and returned a smile, slowly shaking her head.

"Ep.... I'm going to go to the room for a while." he said as he left.

Kafa and Zizi stared at each other curiously. It seemed that the girl was not feeling well and needed time to calm her down.

"Icha why Om?"

"Om also did not know zi, before he was fine, like there was something he was hiding."

"May Zizi come to his room Om?"

"Yes, please, who knows with you he wants to tell me everything."

"Yes om." he said while nodding.

"Mas, take care of Ghifar first."

Kafa nodded with a smile.

Entering her room, the girl threw her body on the bed.

For a moment maybe his memories that could have been lost just like that, but now everything came back again. Both of his eyes returned to tears.

It seemed to need a place to pour out all the complaints that are in his heart and feelings.

"You don't fool yourself Cha, you have to be a strong woman. Conscious ca, conscious......"

Her tears just spilled down her cheeks.

"Miss..."

Zizi just opened the door of her room. He saw his friend sitting on his bed with a face soaked with tears.

Zizi sat beside him and immediately hugged his body.

"What happened to you why are you crying like this?"

The girl could not say anything, her tears kept flowing.

Zizi also tried to calm her down and persuade her to tell him everything.

"This tear, it has not completely spilled zi. So I'm gonna keep it flowing. Until later in time these tears are no longer wasted for nothing."

Zizi fell silent and hugged her back.

"Actually what has happened ca, who has hurt your feelings and heart? Tell me about my role-swallowing."

wheedled.

Icha shook her head slowly.

"No one wronged Zi, no one hurt this heart and feeling except myself."

Icha straightened her face towards Zizi, slowly wiping away the girl's tears.

"What's wrong with you ca, why are you blaming yourself?"

Icha momentarily fell silent with an empty look.

"Ca...."

Zizi held the girl's cheeks with both palms of her hands, exposing her face to both eyes.

"Hey, don't cry like this. I'm not strong if I have to see your tears again."

Icha closed her eyes and let one tear drop back down her cheek.

Slowly the girl began to catch her breath.

"I was wrong to have loved someone zi, I was wrong to have maintained my feelings for him. I feel disappointed in myself zi. When I found out that she had been loved by others I felt so sick. This silent love torments my own feelings."

Zizi was silent by looking at his best friend's lungs. His face was now dry from tears. He tried hard to keep the tears from coming out again.

"Don't blame yourself like this ca, you're not wrong. It's all fate.

That feeling is also not because of your desire."

"God is testing your heart. Don't keep weak like this ca. I know you are a strong woman, even God has tested your heart through me."

Icha directed her gaze at Zizi.

"When I want to let him go, God will meet me with someone better than him. Will I let him go this time, too."

"Give it all the same God ca. Rest assured that if God has prepared the best for his servant, the closer we are, the more dear God will be, the more trials will come."

Zizi again grabbed Icha's body and hugged her with a taste of haru.

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The morning was so bright, Ica started her day with a new spirit.

It is not the time to continue to surround yourself in grief.

It only took him one night to calm all the disturbing thoughts of his life.

The girl learns to forget her feelings which only makes her continue to wish on the creature.

He resigned with God's provisions that he could no longer deny.

Believe that God loves you more than he loves you.

"Mr Rashid."

"Sir Rashid....."

"iya neng." the middle-aged man came to fulfill Ica's call from the dining table.

"Let's have breakfast first, sir."

Icha is still busy preparing his cooking that is ready to eat on the dining table.

Mr. Rosyid was still silent, he felt uneasy with his two employers, although they often invited him to eat together and already considered him as his own family.

"Yes Mr. Rosyid, let's enjoy my daughter's cooking for a long time right, we never cooked like this." said Fajar while glancing at Icha who was next to him.

"Corn sir. Mature nuwun, but I had breakfast before."

"Well, Rashid, a little bit. I have not eaten Ica's cooking." persuaded him with a pleading face."

"Actually so, too. That's why I have breakfast too."

"It's not good to be denied his sustenance. Especially with a lot of cooking."

"That's dong."

Her smile was beautifully on her face.

Dawn also felt happy if her daughter returned to smiling like this.

The smile was so meaningful, his happiness could exceed his pleasure when he was declared able to walk by the doctor.

"Today Ica didn't go to college?" ask Mr. Rashid.

"No, sir, take a day off. God willing tomorrow Icha college."

"Oh yes, three more days at the seminar at the Ica campus. The speaker was a professor from Cairo, Dr from Pakistan, also an Indonesian student who studied in Andalusia."

"What's his name?"

"Icha also do not know the heck pa, if there is time papa come yes to there, Mr. Rosyid too. The theme raised about the collapse of Islamic youth in this day and age."

"It seems interesting to look at."

Icha nodded with a smile.

"When's the graduation announcement, baby?"

"One Week after the Pa seminar. The existence of the seminar is also an additional task for students who will follow graduation. We were asked to conclude, describe, and then recapitulate it as the final presentation. If the delivery is good it will greatly affect the final value."

"Good too." said papa.

"Hopefully neng Ica can achieve the highest value predicate among all."

"Amen. Thank you Mr. Rashid for praying."

"Sama-sama neng."

"I'm sorry to ask again. After graduation, Neng Icha wants to go to college,

or work or get married?"

"After wanting to go to college again, sir, but Icha seems to want to spend a while working at papa company.

Can you please pa."

Both of his eyes glanced towards Dawn.

"Are you sure you want to work?"

"Yes pa. Ica wants to try out the business world, who knows there's an Ica ability there."

"May also if that is so. It just so happens that papa again has a new project. Papa wants to set up an Islamic coffee shop. Anyone who comes there must dress Islamic and all the interior of the building, workers until the cook is also nuanced Islamic containing elements of sunnah Rasulullah shallallahu alaihi wasallam also with the style of young people."

"Who knows with the passage of this Islamic coffee shop, many young people are interested and change their way of life not only with contemporary style but also with Islamic elements."

"Papa's idea is good, Ica's interested."

"Yes, this business is perfect for you, if you want to run it. Because you've lived in pesantren also in the outside world, so you better know anything that must be made in the coffee shop that contains more Islamic elements."

Icha nodded with her smile.

"Where will papa set up the coffee shop?"

"In Kalimantan, the building is available only to design the contents."

"Alhamdulillah, the place is far away. So I can start a new life there and forget all the memories on this island of Java."

"Where? Are you ready to start?"

Icha started to regulate her breathing.

"Bismillah, God willing Ica is ready" he replied with a feisty smile.

"In the end, sincerity is related to the distance between MU and God.The closer a person is to His creator, the easier he will accept all His provisions."