When Kalbu Tells a Story

9. The Beginning of Hatred

If you ask me again why Resa hates me so much? Only I know, why that? Because I used to help someone who had to be bullied. I helped that guy out of pity and pity, she was a little girl who was always the subject of Ressa's ridicule, to be honest that little girl was very rich, she had everything, she was different from me. Why did he get bullied? Because he is a cupid, even though we are rich but our appearance does not match the eyes of Resa. Resa will continue to bully him, I was confused in his brain was there any thoughts anyway? Until she becomes a cruel witch who always hurts human feelings. Until now I still can't understand Resa, why did she become cruel? Why is he so much a hobby of making others hurt rather than making others happy.

Resa nature that is not easy for others to guess, his life is always filled with anger and anger. He always vented his frustration on others, even venting his frustration more often on me. Maybe I used to be more silent and not fight back when Resa started acting on me, but it seems like this time I can't just keep quiet.

When I arrived home with my face bowed in front of my mother, my mother kept asking me questions. Why did I come home so soon? Why is my face down? Why are my eyes soaked? The word why keeps ringing in my ear, as if it were a nightmare to me. 

"Kalbu, are you home?"

"Already, mom!"

"Tumben's coming home fast, is there a problem?" my mother asked, holding the wound in my hand.

"Aw.". "I grimaced in pain when my scar depressed my mother.

"You why? try to see her hand."

"No, mom!" my answer for a moment was a lie, I hid my hand.

"Kalbu, I want to see your hands!" my mother said again.

"No, mom!"

"Come on, don't make me angry!"

I doubtfully showed my hand to my mother.

"Oh my God, why are your hands bruised? What happened to you? It must hurt a lot, is something bothering you? Honest mother replied, I don't want you to be a liar. "

"Mom, aren't you angry after you know everything? Will you be able to stay calm like this after knowing the problem? Kalbu, afraid that mom will be angry and provoked by emotions after knowing my problem."

"Son! I won't be angry if the problem doesn't cross your good name and your good name. "

"Here you go, now just tell me everything!" tell my mom while compressing my hand.

"Actually, Kalbu in the school's bu score!"

"What's? On your word score!" I was so surprised after hearing it.

"Yes, mom! Kalbu smokes in school, but Kalbu never touched him at all. I am confused now, Mom! You have to behave like anything else in order to prove, that Kalbu is innocent. " After I explained everything to Mom, my anxiety about my anger grew higher.

"Mom, don't be mad at me! I have to believe Kalbu, if Kalbu does not do that. I swear to you, Mom! Now only hope Kalbu mother to get a glimmer of hope, Kalbu is not possible to destroy the upbringing of the mother. "

"Please believe in Kalbu!" I held my mother's hand.

"Enough! Mother already does not want your explanation, since earlier you continue to talk without thinking, from earlier on you have to continue listening to all your complaints, when you can answer all your complaints, when you can answer all your complaints, if you continue to crackle like firecrackers? While I have to keep quiet and wait for you to stop talking!"

"Kalbu had expected, that mother would scold Kalbu!"

"Aw, it hurts mom!"

"This blow is incomparable from the pain you are currently experiencing."

"I mean mother?"

"Mother knows that you were so hurt when the slander came to you, I know that you're trying to get this back to normal, and I'll never blame you for this either. I believe in what you say, I have known you from childhood to adulthood, and I believe in my upbringing as much as you. "

"So, do you believe my words?"

"Yes, kid! I believe everything, but you also have to make other people believe in you, just like you make me believe in you. You have to prove that you're a good boy,"

"Ready, mom! If mother's daughter will prove everything, Kalbu will prove that Kalbu is innocent."

"Good, smart boy!"

I'm happy that after hearing what my mother said to me, I believe what I said. I will try any way that I can prove everything, I will not disappoint those who have supported me.

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...There will always be new leaves replacing fallen leaves, there will always be new life when the soul begins to fall asleep. ...

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I believe in a God who will awaken my sleeping soul tired of the humiliation that continues to be my nightmare. Nor can I lose to the new problems that keep lurking me, waiting for my turn when the first problem I can face, then the problem comes out of the queue.

The word tired has definitely wanted me to say for a long time, but how else this is my life, this is a fate that has been written since I was still in the womb. A fate that is not easy for me to change, even I do not dare to change it at all. If I try to change that destiny, I fear that my life will become more and more messy and disorganized.

When God has been trying to arrange our lives in an orderly manner, let alone we change it, we have to create a new scenario. All humans already know if God's scenario is much better than we imagine.

"O my Lord, do not bring a sense of disappointment in me, do not bring a regret of life to me. O Lord, I make me a woman of patience without limits, this is a plea not just a hope. I trust every promise you make."

To whom else shall we ask for help other than Allah, to whom else shall we ask for a refuge other than Allah, and to whom else shall we ask for love other than Allah.

Allah, the Almighty God who turns back the heart of man, the God who is able to soak every anger in man because of his love, it is because of his affection for his servant. Allah always gives every love to the servant who is able to make God fall in love.

To be honest, making God fall in love is not so difficult, it's just that he is lazy to do that. It turns out that the greatest enemy of man is not only from our passions, but from laziness it can be our greatest enemy.

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...If you love me, then I will love you more than you love me, as long as you can make me fall in love with your treatment. ...

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