Wedding Tears And The Gorge of Infidelity

Welcoming my husband but not coming home

Aminah had been preparing since the afternoon to welcome Joseph. She cooks her husband's favorite dishes and dresses up pretty, hoping that tonight could be the start of their deteriorating relationship repair. Aminah felt anxious and hopeful, praying that her efforts would not be in vain.

However, the night, Aminah's worries grew. At first, she understands her husband's delay over work, but the longer it goes, the more hope fades. Every second that passed made him more agitated. Aminah wondered if her husband still cared, whether he was really coming, or if everything was just an illusion. The dishes she prepared looked pitiful as they were cold and no husband came to eat them.

Aminah was still sitting in the dining room, lamenting the increasingly complicated situation in her household. Her eyes were teary, and tears kept flowing, reflecting her feelings of sadness and frustration. The sound of the wall clock ticking slowly, adding to the loneliness that ambushed him.

He wondered what was wrong with his marriage. Why is everything so complicated? Aminah tries to remember the happy times of the past, when they first fell in love, and she wonders how things could have turned out like this. His heart was broken.

Aminah felt alone, not only in the room, but in her relationships. The feeling that Joseph might no longer care, or might have forgotten their feelings that were once so strong, made him even more depressed. He longed for a time when they could talk peacefully, laugh together, and overcome problems together.

Aminah entered her son's room with a hopeful heart. Hana was sitting at the study table, books were open in front of her, and full concentration on her learning. Although she was young, Hana seemed to be very serious in carrying out her duties.

Aminah smiled at her son who was studying diligently. She could feel how intelligent and determined Hana was in pursuing her education. Although there were currently so many problems in her household, at least she knew that she and Joseph had a bright and talented child.

Aminah approached Hana and gently kissed her son's head. "How did you learn, baby?" ask her in a soft voice.

Hana nodded with a small smile. "Good, Mamah. Hannah will try her best."

Aminah felt compelled to hear her son's answer. Seeing Hana with a spirit of learning made her feel better. She hopes her husband, Joseph, can also realize how valuable the family they have and try to improve their relationship.

Aminah sat in a quiet central room. In the silence of the night, only the sound of a constantly ticking wall clock accompanied him. Time went by so slowly, and his heart felt increasingly heavy. The regret over his decision this afternoon was so torturing to him. She realizes that what happened between her and Farhan was a big mistake, and now she feels trapped in feelings of guilt and anxiety.

Had he been able to return in time and erase all his actions, he would have done so. But the truth can't be so easy. He realized that his mistake could destroy his household with Joseph. Aminah thought of Hana, her little daughter, who had been a witness of her quarrel with Joseph. He feels guilty that his bad actions could affect his son's future.

Aminah hoped to hear her husband's footsteps at the door, but as time passed and Joseph did not return home, her worries deepened. What is going on with her husband? Why hasn't he come home yet?

However, amidst deep regret and anxiety, Aminah also felt a dilemma. On the one hand, he wanted so much to mend his relationship with Joseph and his family. But on the other hand, the feelings that grew in it after his encounter with Farhan could not be ignored just like that.

Aminah felt so tired and filled with uncertainty. Time is running, and it's getting night. He knew that sleep was the only way to forget for a moment all his problems, despite his mixed feelings of regret, anxiety, and longing.

With heavy steps, Aminah entered Hana's room. There, he saw his son who was sleeping quietly. Hana looks so innocent and carefree, not knowing anything about all the conflicts and tensions that occur between her parents. Aminah felt grateful that at least her son had not realized how complicated the situation was.

With tearful eyes, Aminah finally lay beside Hana, trying to sleep even though her heart still felt so heavy. His last wish before the break is to hope that tomorrow morning brings clarity and answers to all the problems in his household.

Joseph entered Hana's room with light steps so as not to wake the child. There, he saw Hana sleeping quietly, so innocently and did not know about all the conflicts that were plaguing his household. Her heart was broken as she watched her sleeping daughter, not knowing how complicated things were at home.

Then, his eyes glanced at Aminah, who was sleeping beside Hana. His wife looked so tired, and his eyes still looked swollen from crying. Joseph felt very guilty. He knew that he had made mistakes over and over again, not only by leaving his household in chaos, but also by his misbehavior that had hurt Aminah.

Joseph pondered in the room, contemplating all the mistakes and confusion. He felt so incapable of facing everything. A deep feeling of regret and uncertainty loomed over him. He knew that he had deeply hurt his marriage, and did not know how to fix it.

The next day, the atmosphere in the house of Joseph and Aminah was still tense. Aminah felt that Joseph did not show enough effort to explain and apologized for the delay in his return. She felt that her husband should care more about her feelings, especially when she was already getting ready and waiting in the hope that things would improve.

However, Joseph felt trapped in a complicated situation. With Hana always near Aminah, she felt that the moment to speak up and apologize was not the right one. She fears that the conversation in front of their child could leave Hana even more confused and troubled by the conflict between her parents.

Tension and misunderstanding further deepened the gap between Joseph and Aminah. Every time they are together, the stifled feelings are not expressed, and the relationship that used to be full of love and happiness fades even further. The residence that should be a place of peace becomes a place filled with tension and silence.

Every day that passes, they continue their daily routine. Hannah remained the link between Joseph and Aminah, though they rarely spoke to each other. When faced with Hana's curious questions about why adults fight so often, Joseph and Aminah felt that they should keep their son's feelings in check and not let the tension between them affect Hannah.

However, sadness continued to envelop the hearts of Joseph and Aminah. They feel as if they are trapped in a conflicting device where their feelings can no longer be expressed. The more days, the distance between them grew wider and they longed for the happy moments they once shared together.

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Their lives continued in tension and confusion. Their days are filled with daily routines, such as taking care of work, dropping off and picking up Hana to school, and trying to live life as if everything was okay. However, they both know that behind a million of those routines, unresolved feelings continue to intrude.

Joseph pondered the best way to approach Aminah and apologized. He knew that he had to express his regret and willingness to improve their relationship. However, every time he tried to open the conversation, he felt tense and did not know where to start.

Aminah, on the other hand, felt confused and angry. He felt that he had to wait for the initiative of Joseph, though his heart was also eager to mend their relationship. The mistake she made with Farhan still overshadowed her thoughts, and she felt guilty for ever disappointing her husband.

Hana, who continues to be the bond between them, also begins to feel tension in their family. He often sees his mother and father no longer as they used to be happy together. Hannah wants her family back to the same as before.