Wedding Dust's

29. Nadya Ayunda

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Perhaps Bagas and I need to talk more about our future plans to repair our long-overdue and unkempt relationship. Both Bagas and I decided to try to understand and maintain each other's privacy all this time. But because we want to improve the relationship—at least—we have to know each other about whatever we had made a secret for ourselves.

Tonight we plan to have a serious conversation, heart to heart, after doing the bed duties we had planned since this morning. And yes, everything went as expected.

Fifteen minutes ago, we did. We even cleaned ourselves by taking a warm bath together. Now, Bagas and I are under the covers hugging each other. The cold air that blows from the air conditioner is fishing for us to keep looking for warmth.

The hug that had felt hollow all along, somehow changed more noticeably now. So warm, comfortable, soothing, and also fun. Every now and then, Bagas peeked at the top of my head and rubbed my sleeves that were not covered in cloth, as I wore an armless negligee this time around.

“Capek no?”

I'm nodding. It takes extra power to serve Bagas who are in On mode. My strength is not half.

“Capeklah. You ih.” my petulant held in shame while pinching his chest which may now be transforming into a male cheetah. I was too excited just now, her chest was targeted by me.

Bagas sighed among his crisp laughter. “Not for an hour, not as usual. Usually strong for up to two hours. Now is the time KO?”

“You're too excited.”

“Lho, weren't you the one who was so excited? My chest to blue-blue tuh.”

“Ish...!” I punched his chest slowly, but he grabbed me again in his comfortable arms. I don't refuse, because tonight feels so special. Bagas like being completely mine.

“Nad,”

“Hm?”

“Ngga anything earlier? If..so, how?”

“Yes is okay. Don't you want to?”

“Who said. Want to. Who wouldn't want to be called Dad? Just, I'm afraid you—”

“I'm fine, Gas.”

Ah okay. Why should Bagas discuss this. My face suddenly felt hot. Fortunately, the lights we used were night lights, or if not, Bagas could definitely see how my face was. So, this means Bagas, he wants to be the father of my son ’ right?

“You were, what's the same business as Letto?” ask me to shift the topic while increasingly looking for comfort in the chest of his sturdy field.

“Important route.”

“Udah in order?”

“Udah.”

I heard Bagas breathing again.

“I'm more relieved now, Nad. Joking you like this is not awkward anymore.” he said, while pressing my body closer to him.

“Really? Didn't you like hugging me?”

“Iya. But it doesn't feel like gini now. In the past, if you want to hug you, I always think about how you can not refuse or feel uncomfortable with me.”

Is correct. All this time, I've always kept all Bagas' treatment onto me. The goal is still the same, you know.

“Ah so huh? Sorry.”

“Not to apologize. I can't make you comfortable—”

“I'm comfortable, kok.”

I looked up, getting the features of his face that were now staring at me. Then, he smiled gently. “You lied. I know you're more than yourself, Nad. So, from now on, get in the habit of being honest with me even if it hurts, Okey?”

His eyes radiate sincerity. Bagas never asked me for any self-respect, other than to give priority to comfort for me.

I gave him a nod and then looked back down, pulled my body away from Bagas' body and put my head on a pillow to prepare for sleep as it was almost twelve in the night. More like five minutes.

“You want to sleep?”

“Eumm. You too, tomorrow work.”

“Do not sleep first Nad, nanggung wait twelve o'clock all night.” whine approached and then hugged me from behind.

“Apaan sih Gas. Amused tau.”

“Biarina. Meet me soon.”

I clucked, gave no answer and chose to close my eyes. Five minutes with Bagas in this position can feel like fifty years.

“Dah ah's. Sleeps. Capek.”

He did not answer, only looking for a place he liked, which was behind my slightly open shoulders.

“You won't change your decision and change your mind, won't Nad?”

Whatdoes thatmean?

“About what?” I'm cold, still trying to shut down. Although Bagas was not annoying, I felt uncomfortable in the position as it is now. My heart was noisy because it was pounding not because I was afraid Bagas heard it.

“About us fixing the wedding. About,” there is a doubtful tone in his speech intonation. “—plan have a child with me.”

I froze in place. My body felt like it was doused in ice water which could instantly numb and blow up the blood feathers.

“Ngak.”

“Hah, thank goodness then. I'm afraid if you suddenly stop, then back off and choose pis—”

“Stop. Do not let what you say tonight be a do'a that God hears. Please take care of your thoughts about everything, Gas.” I said without hesitation. “If you do have something that you think is bad, just keep it fine. Do not let you say, then become do'a.” my scolding at length.

“Please. Don't talk like that again.” beg me that he would understand, then accept it unconditionally.

Bagas' hug back meeting. He peeped my shoulders short. “Sorry.”

There's nothing to apologize for, Gas. You are not wrong. Maybe what I'm thinking about right now is my fear. I'm afraid everything fails, I'm afraid you're back, I'm afraid you let me go, because Hansel is among us. I let him into the place where I should have closed because I had you. I shouldn't have let him give me any attention, then stretched out his hand offering comfort.

I'd be too stupid to know everything I'm doing right now. I won't even forgive myself if you get hurt because of me, Gas.

Amidst the brain chaos inside my head, Bagas' phone suddenly rang. Not too noisy because the volume he set is low.

“Phone?” tanyaku make sure, look towards Bagas and mobile phones that still ring alternately.

“Not.”

“Then?”

“Alarm.”

Bagas took off his possessive hug, then got up from his casual bed and grabbed his phone, after turning off the alarm he put it back on the nightstand.

“You, beautiful.”

I'm slack. Bagas looks weird because he suddenly talks like that. “You why the hell? Suddenly talk so.”

Bagas grabbed my palm, pulling me slowly as a signal for me to get up and sit opposite him.

“Gas, seriously why are you?!”

Instead of replying to my sneers, Bagas grabbed onto one palm of my other hand and combined it into one in the clutches of his big palm.

He smiled showing his neat rows of teeth among the dim rays of the room lights, sweet and soft.

Happy birthday to you...

Oh my God, I forgot that right on this day, more precisely thirty years ago I was born into the world. And Bagas has always been the first person to sing birthday songs for me. I'm at a loss for words now.

Happy birthday to you...

I want to cry now. I don't even remember today. The day that Bagas always privileged. He always said that if my birthday was a lucky day for him. Because he can have a friend like me, he said.

Happy birthday to my sweet heart...

Gases,

May it be long, life.

I, LOVE, YOU.

I stared fixedly at the two Bagas beads which turned out to be more beautiful than I expected. Those round eyes seemed to glow despite the dark room.

Now, he raised our united palms in his grasp, pointed towards his lips, then thrust out a long kiss right at the palm of my hand.

“Happy birthday, my wife.”

Can I cry now? He was very sincere when he called me his wife.

“Hopefully long life. Facilitated all affairs, launched sustenance, and what has been your dream so far, materialized.”

Amens... I whispered it in my heart.

“Sorry there's no cake tonight because I messed things up because my recent work schedule was solid.”

I'm shaking. It's not his fault. I just don't remember if today was my birthday.

“Besok me—”

“Together with you is enough Gas.”

He glued, looking at me without blinking.

“You're here, that's enough for me. Thanks for everything. Thank you for remembering today.”

Bagas approached and kissed me again. Long time, because I contributed in returning the kiss. Crying because you're happy, and it's all because of Bagas.

“Nadya, I will never forget this day. Never.” []

^^^to be continued.^^^

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