Victim Feeling

Depressions

I arrived safely after being delivered home by Viktor. My stomach was starving because I missed my lunch. I don't have the energy to cook even one omelet. I decided to order food through an online app.

While waiting for my order to come, I sat down and pondered in front of my window. My head was suddenly dizzy, I felt my whole body tingling.

Blams

I was unconscious.

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I woke up when I heard a knock on the door. I feel a very dizzy. Holding onto my desk, I was able to stand up and neutralize my blurred vision.

After my head was no longer heavy, I walked to open the apartment door. Standing a security guard who used to deliver my order food. Argh, I just remembered that I had time to order food.

"Thank you, sir" I said.

He nodded and walked out from before me.

I eat while crying. My fingers even trembled as if they could not lift the spoon to their mouth. My lips curl. It is so helpless this body.

Not only is my body not okay, but my soul is also in trouble.

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Two weeks passed, I locked myself up more after the bad incident. Threats after threats also kept coming from unknown numbers that I guessed it must be Erik.

I admit I am weak. So terrified was Erik's threat that I was the victim and I was the one who had the right to teach him a lesson. However, I who is neither bear nor powerful can only hide behind the scenes. Not daring to report Erik's actions because I realized this person like me would lose to the material.

Erik could have easily beaten me and turned the facts around with the money he had. While me? Victim's status turned into a perpetrator. Miris.

I never dared to open the Whatsapp application again because there Erik bombard me with all kinds of threats. To calm down once in a while I opened Instagram one of my places looking for entertainment.

Some unread messages from people who felt these two weeks had never seen me. I replied to their message as usual as if everything was fine.

The more I trace down, there is also a fake account Cahya there. Again he sent me a message.

Aya0809

"Good night Rish"

I watched Cahya's schedule send me a message. Always past 12pm. I smiled cynically.

Message again I ignored.

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The more days I feel, the better I am. I also dared to leave the apartment even though not far away, at best around the apartment only.

Until one day after I shopped at my subscription minimarket near the apartment, I found a threat message accompanied by a picture of me just out of the minimarket. I'm shocked! Obviously I was in severe shock. I didn't expect my whereabouts to be monitored by someone.

Until finally this situation made it more difficult for me. My space seems limited which ends up frustrating me or even in the depression phase.

At night I often find it difficult to sleep. Feeling lurked and always feeling unfounded anxiety.

"Hey, who's there?" I asked by slipping into the kitchen. I brought a spray bottle of chilli water ready for me to use if any intruders broke into my apartment.

Once in the kitchen there was no one. I looked around.

"I'm really crazy" I told you. Then I finished my bath again.

The POV Airish End

Airish ran to the balcony, he seemed to set the distance. The woman was about to jump off her balcony.

"Riissss????" The princess shouted in panic. He just got out of his car and saw Airish trying to kill himself.

The cry of the Princess invited the people around. They huddled under two security guards and banged on the door of the Airish apartment unit. That's when Airish's consciousness returned. He did not realize he had walked to the balcony, holding the balcony barrier, and was preparing to jump.

Airish retreated away from the balcony, he looked at his hands which he would originally make a focus to jump over the balcony barrier. The pounding on the back door was heard asking to be opened. Airish nodded and immediately headed towards the door.

The security guard with a panicked face immediately asked Airish to win himself. Not long before the Princess arrived at her apartment unit. The security guard left after it was felt that Airish had accompanied.

"Rish, what's wrong? Why did you get to be rich?" Ask Princess.

Airish silently sculpted. He doesn't know how to answer. While the Princess continued to crowd him with many questions.

"Rish, if you have any more problems, you can tell me the same story. Do not pendam own existing you can be frustrated yourself rich earlier"

"Wouldn't... No, I can't" Airish Gagu spoke. His hands were wet with sweat but he hid them behind his body. He breathed so that everything would be neutral. And so that the Princess would no longer worry about him.

"Put, I'm okay. Lately, there are many more targets to be achieved. I'm just stressed" Airish told a lie.

"Are you sure?" The princess asked as she watched the look on Airish's face carefully. Airish realized that he was being suspected by the Princess.

"OK-okay I'm honest" Airish told me what happened to him. But Airish didn't tell me everything. He only tells about himself being stalked by someone and also the messages of threats that he constantly finds. That made Airish scared and locked himself in his apartment.

"Oh my goodness Rish. We can report this to the police. Do you want me to go to Temenin? When's? Now then, how about?"

"No Put, I don't have enough evidence. Besides the chat was already on me apus-apusin" said Airish reasoned.

"Lo drink first, let's calm down" said the Princess who was desperate because it turned out that Airish did not want to report the perpetrator for the incident.

Princess who that night intended to stay overnight in order to accompany Airish in fact even told to go home. Airish reasoned to want to calm down and be alone. The princess agreed as long as Airish promised not to repeat the incident.

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Airish is afflicted with anxiety like the nights before. He realized something was wrong with him. He must start to dare to tell stories either to people he trust or to experts such as psychologists. He wanted to contact the Princess, but the intention was to pare back because he thought that the Princess must have rested in a good sleep. Airish finally played a video murottal on youtube because listening to the chants of the holy verse of the Qur'an is believed to be able to provide a calming effect.

Just three minutes listening to the video murottal, appeared a notification incoming message. Again Cahya sent him a message through DM Instagram.

Aya0809

"Rish, I want the same story lo😢"

Cahya contacted him at the right time. A time when Airish needed a place to tell stories.