Two Lunar Luminaries
Before The Storm
News of the debate between Laya and Iris spread to various corners of the school quickly. Both 12th, 11th and 10th graders talked about it. Not spared, some teachers also talked about it.
The rivalry between Laya and Iris has been seen since they entered school. But they never really argue or argue. They only chase each other to occupy the general champion during the exam or meet in the language olympic final. They also never engage in the same activities, so they never clash in public.
This is the first time they argue openly in public, this is certainly an interesting discussion for those who have long noticed the rivalry of Laya and Iris, he said, but never really got any real evidence that they were hostile. This dispute will be a justification for the people, a flavoring spice for the discussion of their rivalry. Neither Iris nor Laya hated it.
Laya and Iris understand that there is an unwritten rule between them to pursue each other. Even so they have tried not to show it too much in front of people. Following different activities is not intentional, because they basically have different interests. The problem is that they are both more inclined to social science than exacta, so they both go to the same department. This increases the likelihood of them facing each other.
Both Laya and Iris never really looked at each other as enemies. But it certainly cannot be denied that the pursuit of each other for two years gives a separate picture of them against each other. Iris Laya knows is Iris who was formed by Laya himself, and vice versa. The self-perceptions they form for each other prevent them from understanding each other. They have already formed a persona within themselves and it is difficult to see it from a different point of view.
Currently Iris and Laya are in the school garden, they intend to talk about the sociology duties of Mr. Ibrahim. Ibrahim had warned them before that they were in the same group, so they should not be at odds.
Iris and Laya are just the two at the moment because Resti and Anwar still have other affairs they have to settle. It was good Laya and Iris did not want to continue the discussion if they were just the two of them, but Anwar forced them, because he thought this would help them solve whatever problems they faced, he said, as well as if they were seen together, it would slightly reduce the rumors related to their dispute. Both Iris and Laya felt that what Anwar said was quite reasonable, and they decided to obey Anwar.
Five minutes passed with both of them keeping silent and busy with their respective thoughts. Eventually, Laya opened the conversation.
“So what theme do we want to take for our research? Got a good reference not that time in perpus?” ask Laya.
They were sitting face to face on a round bench, under a shady tree on the edge of the school garden. Iris stopped her activity playing with dried leaves on the table and stared fixedly at Laya.
“There are many books related to social inequality and juvenile delinquency in the school library. The power is enough to be a reference. What about lo?” answer Iris.
“Social inequality is interesting, if it is considered not too far from the school there is an elite housing complex adjacent to the village. if you all agree we can lift the theme of social inequality and find an interesting title.”
Iris agreed, not expecting Laya would just agree to the proposal. They are trapped in silence and busy with their own thoughts. Iris again played the dried leaves in front of her, as if they were the most amazing thing. While Laya, pay close attention to what Iris is doing.
“Cua can not?” laya said, once again being the first to open the conversation.
Iris looked back up and found Laya's eyes staring at her. There was confusion, seriousness and curiosity there. Iris just allows.
“Yesterday why do you want to know so much about family influence and success? What reason? What do you really want to know?”
“Many questions too.” Said Iris. He stopped his play again with dry leaves, put his hands on the table, and looked up at the shade tree.
"Why do you want to know?"
"Must answer the question with the question ris?"
“Lo himself...” said Iris, while slowly returning to his gaze on the dried leaves before him.
“Why don't you want to know?” ask Iris.
Laya was a little surprised to hear Iris's question, he turned his seat slightly back and turned his gaze, away towards the school field visible from there, and then looked back, while the thumb of his right hand plays with the thumb of his left hand.
“Entahlah, maybe the cave just do not want to know.” he replied.
"Prophetic" said Iris
"What's? What did you say just now?" tanya Laya did not believe what she heard.
"We are both hypocrites." replied Iris while looking into Laya's eyes, locking her up so that Laya could not take her eyes off.
"Lo know clearly what the cave wants, the cave wants everyone to realize how big the role of the family, Cave wants everyone to know if family support can facilitate the path of success someone. The cave wants everyone to see how different the success of lo and the cave, because the cave managed to get this far without the help of the cave family." explained Iris, taking out everything he had been quieting all this time.
"According to you the cave made it this far because of the help of the cave family? Who would you dare to judge the hard work and effort of the cave!" laya said he was angry, but he was still trying to contain his anger, there should be no other quarrels, or they would increasingly become the gossip of one school.
"Well let's hear what kind of hardship you've been through, lilltle Prince." replied Iris trying the circus.
Hearing Iris's reply made Laya even more furious, she clenched her hands tightly trying to hold back the anger that wanted to explode.
"The rich prince lo who has never been troubled knows what hard work is, do not talk about hard work with people who have to fight every day just to survive. It makes you seem not to know yourself. You have everything Laya, everything the cave doesn't have. When you walk the cave must crawl, and when you run, the new cave can walk. Since the beginning of the fight we have never been fair and in yesterday's discussions the cave wanted everyone to admit that" Iris said
Laya could see, a glint of anger within Iris's eyes. Laya knows that Iris is blowing up what she has been holding up, but Laya has no obligation to accept all the insults.
"Poverty is not the only suffering in the world. Nor are you the only one who suffers in this world. Likes or engga caves also struggle, caves are also trying. And if you want to be angry you should not be angry with the cave. Gua tau ris, our fight never runs fair, but the cave can not release whatever the cave has, because you are not the end of the cave. Lo is not the only one that the cave has to defeat.”
Iris was silent at Laya's words, their conversation went too far. Iris telena was too deep with her emotions, revealing a side of her that she did not want to show to anyone, especially Laya. He lowered his hands from the table, his hands trembling slightly.
“Our discussion went too far, we continue the discussion next time. The cave first." Iris said as she grabbed her bag and intended to leave, but then she sat back down.
“Gua never asks you to take away what you have. Cave just want you to know, cave just want, everyone knows.” he said, while passing away. Leaving Laya, leaving behind her anxiety.
Both Iris and Laya begin this discussion to solve their problems, and both end up with another timidity, another unease that eats away at their hearts and minds.
***
The wall clock shows at 3 am, Iris who just woke up from her sleep, was looking at the ceiling
her room. He just started sleeping right at 12 pm, after finishing helping mom take care of the trade preparation for tomorrow, exactly at 9 pm, Iris can only do homework. Finished working on PR, Iris reviewed today's lessons and prepared for tomorrow's lessons. He got into bed at 12 p.m.
After falling asleep for a full 3 hours, with no dreams and distractions, he suddenly felt cold and woke up from his eight slumber. After waking up he simply lay on the bed staring at the dull ceiling of his room. After that, for some reason, out of nowhere, Iris recalled her conversation with Laya earlier this afternoon.
He recalled how he got carried away with his emotions and released his anger on Laya. He remembered how disturbed he felt when Reski said he had everything, but he loudly accused Laya of having everything. It's not Laya's fault that she has everything, and it's not Laya's fault that Iris has nothing. It is not the responsibility or responsibility of the Laya.
Instantly, the journey of his life for two years flashed in the mind of Iris. How he struggled to maintain the first position. He doesn't take lessons everywhere. He had to divide his study time by helping his mother and occasionally teaching his sister Chrysanthemums. He did not have time to add organizational skills following the activities of OSIS. He restricts extracurricular activities and cannot get much involved, as he does not have enough time.
Meanwhile he sees Laya, maintaining his academic position, while attending various OSIS activities. Elected as vice chairman of OSIS, became an archery athlete and won to the provincial level, was elected to the social science Olympiad which he also awaited. Iris recalled that during their second year of school, Laya was chosen to attend the social science olympics while she was eliminated, before the school wanted to send two teams to follow the Olympics, but due to limited funds, she said, the school decided to send one team, the selected Lilah team.
In the first year when the school sent two teams, he and Laya both met in the final, unfortunately his team lost. In his second year he failed even before the match. In the third year, he no longer had a chance. So when his team failed to be selected, Iris was completely destroyed. He cried all night in his room, without anyone hearing. He has lost an important point to get into PTN.
Iris knew it wasn't Laya's fault or responsibility. Laya has enough money and time to take various lessons, so she can maintain her academic achievements, so it is easier for her to learn the problems that come out in the Olympics. He has enough time to participate in organizational and extracurricular activities. He even had enough time and money to become an archery athlete. It wasn't a mistake, Laya was just using well everything he had.
Iris simply had no other choice but to vent her anger on Laya. The fact that he doesn't have enough money or time. The fact that he was left behind in various aspects. The fact that he had to try ten times harder just to get to the point that Laya thought was not the end point. If not for Laya, she would have ended up turning each anger on herself.
ris knows he's been pretty bad, if he ends up blaming himself he'll get worse. Not only does he have to work 10 times harder, the load will increase to 20 or even 30 times harder. Because he had to rise up to fight back. Iris hated to admit how miserable her life was. He hated himself who had to use Laya as a shield.
A drop of tear falls down through the iris temple to the pillow. Iris closed her eyes with her hands and held back her stuffing. He wept for his pettiness and incompetence. At three o'clock in the morning where she should have fallen asleep, and had a good dream, Iris wept over her miserable life.
***
While at the other end of the road, Laya lay on her bed, waking up in the third of the night. He lay in his spacious room, his comfortable bed and his magnificent home. His heart was still filled with anger at what Iris said.
Iris may be right, Laya has everything that Iris does not have. she lives comfortably and all her needs are fulfilled, but that does not mean Laya does not try, it does not mean Laya does not fight.
Laya once stayed up after suntuj just to memorize vocabulary and formulas. Laya sacrifices her days off to practice archery, many times until her hand is injured. Laya fought just as hard as Iris. There was no reason for Laya to be ashamed of her achievements. There was no reason for Laya to accept all of Iris' accusations.
so what was the reason he woke up in a third of the night, what was the reason he woke up and remembered Iris' words?
Laya rubbed her face, trying to remove all the fatigue on her head, she was tired of whatever it was that she was facing right now.
