TWELVE DAYS OF LOVE

Take a Leave

Arriving at the rented room, I immediately threw my body on the bed. Crumple, that's all it feels right now.

Clear lights flow from both corners of the eye. Yes, I'm crying! Never say that men never cry. Men are also human, have a sense of having a heart, do not equate with a dagger. Uh ...!

Tonight was the grayest Sunday night I've ever been through. Roll in the arms to be a witness, I'm heartbroken.

Could I have lost? Lose to fate or lose to fate? The soul mate I dreamed of lived a dream. A dream that carried in my mind tonight.

Lucky today Sunday, holiday. I woke up when the sunlight coming from the sidelines of the ventilation hit my face. I narrowed my eyes when I tried to open it, it was already too hot. I wrote the lyrics to the wall clock, apparently it was 11 p.m. Maybe I was too tired to wake up.

Tired up? Not my tired body but my heart. Hicks ....

Naura .. I thought back to her. Did she cry like me all night? Sure, I'm sure of it. His heart must have been broken. Could her tears have changed her parents' decision? There's no harm if I still put a speck of hope? To make sure I get my salary, who knows Naura sent that signal.

One by one the apps on the device I open, call, message, to whatsapp. But I was wrong, there was no one who said Naura's name there. It means Naura didn't contact me at all.

Naura's contact on whatsapp pulled my netra, I looked at her profile picture, no more of my face there. Yes, until last night Naura was still displaying pictures of the two of us sitting side by side as her profile display. Now there is only a photo of her self alone with her sweet smile. I don't know when Naura replaced him.

Curiosity to find out more ushered my finger surfing into the facebook app. Naura Salsabila's. The name was already plastered after typing it in the search field.

Geez! Her fb profile picture has changed. Just like the display in his wa, my face is no longer visible here either.

But that's not how much, the dating relationship linking my fb account and fb account has been deleted. The status has now changed to 'single'. And it can be ascertained, the thumb and heart symbols repeatedly flooded the change in status.

Of course, I am not surprised and I can make sure the contributors to the symbol are the men I had previously fallen while hunting Naura love.

My finger again shifted the phone screen in my hand, still on Naura's facebook homepage. A new status this morning was created for him. This is what it sounds like, 'I don't want a weak man who won't fight for me, and I don't even want to keep my pride and my family'.

For some reason my chest was hot, my breath was congested after reading those words written by Naura. In an instant Naura's status was already flooded with various comments. Of course they know, what he means is me along with the breakup of our relationship link on facebook.

Oh, Naura ... Why are you smearing charcoal on my face again? Is it not enough just in front of your parents only my face is stained with charcoal? Should the whole world know about it now? That I, your former lover, am weak, unable to fight for you, even less able to uphold your pride and your family.

I also remembered Naura's last words last night. 'I will make you regret for leaving me!'

Is this the beginning of Naura's vengeance? He's trying to make me jealous. No, why else would I be jealous? There is no relationship between us. Is he trying to hurt my heart?

Then ... do you think my heart hasn't hurt since last night, Naura?

No, I'm not a weak man. Immediately I close the blue application, pressing it a little longer accompanied by clicking 'uninstall'. It's finished! I decided not to open the app again, not until when.

My business with Naura is done, but not yet for those who know our relationship. The status of the change in relationship between me and Naura on facebook who roam in their timeline seems to be a trending topic for my office friends.

I went to the office as usual today. Since entering the gate into the workroom, they were unceasingly glancing at me while whispering to each other. Some even ask directly, "Dil, did you break up with your beautiful girlfriend?" I just smiled as I continued to pass.

"Fadil, did you really break up with your girlfriend Naura? Though according to Mother, you are a matching couple. You're handsome, Naura is beautiful. It's a pity that it's really broken up."

I looked at Madam Mila's face, my superior. All this time I thought of him as my own parent. She was under my mother, but I had a lot of advice from her. At first glance I looked at the look on Ms. Mila's face, seeing that she was really sad.

"Yes, Mom. We broke up."

"Don't you ever tell Mom that you're serious with her?"

"Yes my mom is serious but my soul mate is not on our side."

I bow my head. Madam Mila caught my look of sadness. He did not continue the question, only a small tip was uttered from his lips.

"Patience Dil, one day you will meet the best mate."

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This is the last working day of the week. In fact, the last few days I've been through pretty hard. In any case it's not that easy killing time after a heartbreak. Especially coupled with news about me that is still trending in the office. There are still people who ask, even though I never take it seriously.

"Mom... Can I apply for annual leave? I want to go home" I told Ms. Mila on Friday morning.

"May Dil, how many days leave?"

"Ten working days Ma'am. The plan is to leave Saturday tomorrow, then Saturday two weeks back to the city. Sunday break in the contract and then Monday into the office."

"Ten days feels like too long, Dil. Don't you give me Mom who's gonna finish the job alone?"

"How many days can you agree to?" my many.

"Less two days. Eight working days plus two Saturdays on Sunday means you are in the village twelve days," replied Ms. Mila.

"Alright, Mom. I think twelve days is enough to calm my tired heart and mind and let go of longing for my mother, father, and brothers."

"Yes, Dil. Hopefully in those twelve days you can forget your sorrow. I also pray that in those twelve days you meet your soul mate and come back here to introduce him to Mother as your companion."

"Oh, this mother could have. Where is it possible that Ma in twelve days can meet a soul mate. This village Bu, if you meet the same cow goat mah much. Hehe...."

"You are Dil, there is no harm in accepting the prayers of parents, let alone the mother's sincere prayers. If in twelve days you meet the lover of the heart, then Mother will give additional leave of two days."

"Yes, sorry Mom .. sorry. Aamiin...."

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