TRAPPED Marriage

Confident

" You didn't join the dining table?"

I just shook my head and immediately left the kitchen.

In my logic I couldn't possibly embarrass Mama who didn't deny about 'whether I'm a new waitress' by joining a table meal with them.

I'm moving faster into my room and Toby's. There was a sense of annoyance, disintegration and sadness but....

Huh... I was stopped between my branch reflected in the window glass and the junghans closet clock that was on both sides of me.

Is it just because I'm inconspicuous, then I'm not worthy? Is it because I'm an ordinary person that I have no rights? Me and them are the same - human and I am entitled to my rights. Not just as Toby's wife, but also the daughter-in-law of the family.

I cut my field a hundred and eighty degrees. I slowly pushed my pace to change my ways. I don't need anyone to support me or give me a confession. Because I can do it better than anyone.

"Cheff I joined the dinner table, and please make lemon mint tea for me and Toby" I asked as I passed the kitchen.

*****

I am Sandra Kawiswara Laksono, the woman who is most expected of almost the entire population of the city at six in the morning. Maybe not at the moment. But isn't that the value they'll never get with money.

Ummm.... I adjusted my voice a little before entering the Dining Room. Beauty can be obtained by anyone through makeup or plastic surgery. But a beautiful voice, it's a miracle that only you can get from God.

I took a deep breath, preparing for all the attitudes I would face from the boisterous socialite women I would face. It's free that I'm often on Toby's side if I don't learn acting.

Show time's...

I stepped steadily into the space, no matter if any eyes were looking or not.

Without a doubt I immediately took a seat where I usually pricked in this room. Which happens to not be filled.

One, two and three of my friends started looking at me. Their manic seemed to deliberately judge me.

Slowly the boisterous laughter of their jokes changed with a faint whisper. Maybe they swore insolent or bravely that waitress.

I chose to sit quietly, upright and did not hesitate to lift my chin.

"Good day everyone" I said without hesitation and immediately my fingers set napkin on my lap.

Next I had to face my mother-in-law who might not like my existence which seized her attention and grace.

The atmosphere of the dining room became silent for a moment.

"Include me Sandra" I took a pause and let them poke me with an uncomfortable look "I understand that the photos of me and Toby out there are better than you're seeing right now, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm Toby's wife"

The whisper of kemabali echoed until Mama began to take part.

"True, he's my daughter-in-law. The news announcer that morning"

"Aahs... Your voice is quite beautiful, greetings know as well"

"Thank you Auntie" answered kindly,

at least the first half passed well.

Soon two girls younger than me in white and cream uniforms began to enter the dining room.

Is this the waiter in this house? I didn't really use their services while living here.

Both have almost the same height as light skin and neatly tied black hair. And both of them have a face like a five-star hotel employee.

Well... Isn't a look not a benchmark for social status?

Except....

If it's about Toby...

The steps are organized slowly, regularly and straight with a fairly strong movement.

Toby entered the dining room and immediately spoiled all the eyes of the women who were there, including me.

I could see the young women watching Toby half-dry in his full golf outfit.

How do you feel when the beauty of your partner is enjoyed by others without hesitation in front of your eyes?

Yup... That's what it's like to be Clebrity's wife... Interested.. Uhf..

Anyway.. I admit I am starting to get jealous.