TRAPPED Marriage

Drafts

El was still asleep in the hospital bed. His head was on a bandage, the infusion was also still attached to his hand.

Erik looked at El fixedly, how the face was now pale. Erik opened another small red box. Look again at the jewel ring inside. Now he regretted that it was too late to pin the ring on El's finger. He was worried that he would not have a second chance. Now El is still unconscious even though he has moved into the ICU room and is going through a critical period. But Erik felt a deep sense of worry. The feeling of anxious expectation haunting him made him even more confused.

"Darling, you know from the moment we first met at the cafe then you came home with a bad heart that was the first time I felt worried about you. To the extent that I had Reno follow you just to make sure you got home safely.

Erik goes on to reminisce about his past with El. Although El was unable to respond.

"Honey, when we first got a message back, you know I can't wait for your reply. Although at that time the contents of the message only called me cold and I called you teletubbies but I did not deny I was smiling myself like a kasmaran.

" Dear, you remember when you served me your salty tea. I was forced to swallow the tea just to make sure you weren't embarrassed in front of your parents even though my throat was burning. Erik grasped and rubbed the weak hand of El. He did not know Buk Zahra and Pak Baskoro had been at the door and held his steps there.

"Pa, we'd better go home first. Erik needs time with El. He's still trying to get El to tell him Pa. Poor Erik" Buk Zahra was sad to see the condition of his son and daughter-in-law now.

"Yes Ma, it looks like Erik and El really need time with Ma. Yeah, let's go home, Ma"

Buk Zahra and Pak Baskoro decided to go home.

While in the ICU room, Erik continues his story.

"Honey, on the first night of our wedding you made a drama of forgetfulness buying pads. At that time though I reluctantly bought you a sanitary pad although strangely I desperately thought about what pads fit you. Until I read every detail of the pads how long, winged or not until I was laughed at by another visitor. When I paid to the cashier I thought I'd do some research because I bought all kinds. You know I just want you to feel comfortable.

"Darling, do you remember when we pulled your towel pads off, you were so worried I'd seen something precious from you that you pressed and pinched me. If I think about it again it's so ridiculous and ridiculous. Erik kept telling me this time he chuckled a little considering his wife's ridiculous behavior

" My dear El, sometimes I don't understand why I like to judge you. You remember when we watched a horror movie, after that I turned the light fuse so that the light went off. At that moment I heard you yelling for your mama in the room. You know when you sneak into my room I feel like winning my plan worked. What I can't forget is my first hug when I pretended to be asleep and thought you were bolted. I know you're forced but my smile stays up in the dark.

"Honey, when we go to Bali for our fake honeymoon. That's where I was so shocked to see you pass out in the pool. And after I found out it turned out that your reason was so ridiculous just didn't want me to look at your body. But Sorry about that incident really forced me to look at everything that was precious to you. You know, honey, it turns out all yours is so beautiful and I can't forget it.

"Dear El, when you forget to bring a bra. I immediately bought him a ketoko. Even though the cashier laughed at me. Remembering the color of the bra you wrote on the paper is like the color of a rainbow. Red yellow green, and stupidly I didn't read it first. You look happy to have pranked me, but at that moment I was relieved. I just don't want anyone else to laugh at your body enough I'm your status husband.

"My dear, to me you are a reckless woman too. In front of my staff you dared kiss me just to stop me from hitting secretary Jim. You know at that moment my heart was like you were exploding. You have managed to stop me.

" El, one thing you should know. That night you hugged me without a bra making me couldn't take it anymore. That night it wasn't that I didn't want you, honey, but I saw you were asleep and I couldn't bear to wake her up"

Erik kissed El.

"Oh yeah, one thing that pisses me off when you think I'm gay. I don't know why my chest is like being stabbed by a sharp object. Before, I didn't care about people talking about me being gay. When I pressed you, you were scared, and I liked that expression. When I kissed your lips for the first time actually I couldn't stand it and wanted more. But again I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable. I want you to serve me willingly"

Erik stroked his wife's hair, rubbed his eyebrows and kissed her eyes and lips.

"Dear to me, you are so perfect. Your attitude is sometimes considerate, ignorant, silly, careless and sometimes you act recklessly. And your innocent attitude has made me fall in love with you El. Although I don't know exactly when I love you but it's been obvious since our marriage. You became the center of my attention that made me smile - a smile of my own. Since your presence, my life has become colorful. And I now realize, it turns out love doesn't always come from the beginning you look at, nor does it come from colliding in the library like my delusion all along. But sometimes love comes because we've gotten used to being together. We are used to cheating on each other, but we worry about each other.

"My dear El, right now I only ask God for one. I just want you to know my true feelings. I love you so much and I want you so much that sometimes I feel almost crazy holding back all that turmoil. But then again you should know I don't want to force you El. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable next to me because I didn't know you loved me either.

"Darling, you have to heal. You should know that I love you too. Otherwise I'll be sorry and tormented for the rest of my life"

Erik kissed El again, and looked into El's closed eyes. I don't know when he'll look into El's beautiful eyeballs. He was worried he could not look at her anymore.

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