TRAPPED Marriage

Struggling

" Sometimes this life has to choose just right for the longer happiness "Papa's staring straight back at the receptionist table before us" I don't have much time to prepare everything for Toby, I just want the best "

I just looked down this time, Papa wasn't wrong. Every parent must have done the same, including me, who kept Toby because of my son.

" You understand my feelings, don't you? "

I was only able to stay still and look down at my baby who was still sitting warm in my stomach.

So how should you, dear?

*****

Toby only stayed overnight in the hospital, and continued with treatment at home. Not no reason, it's all because Toby had to complete several arrangements of several songs to prepare for the concert.

"Are they not satisfied with what already exists?" I complained to him among Toby's echoing piano twangs.

"All artists must continue to innovate and perform differently" replied Toby who welcomed the glass of juice I gave. "If same... Why should they buy tickets for another concert? They've seen enough of my re-broadcast"

I can't argue "Do you not want to give this job to someone else?" I tried to bargain, I just pity to see him who hasn't healed properly but has worked.

Although he works at home, Toby's working hours are more than 8 hours. In addition to music, he also did the stage layout, choreography and even to choose costumes.

"Are you sure you're wearing this?" My protest the other day, when I saw one of the costumes that I felt was too heavy.

"Yes..!!" Toby answered "good, right?"

I nodded and lifted him up "It's Tob's heavy.." My protest when I started to lift the jacket made of washed Blue jeans, with some metal ornaments here and there. Not to mention this snag will later be combined with accessories that are not light.

"This is for which song?" I'm just making sure if he moves a lot or not.

"Fight Song.. The old song that was my signature"

"the concept will be different.." Toby took a deep breath "Are you worried about me?" our pair of eyes.

"Of course..." My answer must be "However seeing people suffer is not entertainment"

Especially for me who has a father who is sick from being an alcoholic.

There was hardly any mild disease of my father. Starting from Brain and Nerve disorders, the,

Liver disease, Heart and blood vessel disease, Digestive problems, Vision problems, Diabetes complications as well

Bone damage.

Seeing my father live to this day is a miracle of technology in addition to the power of God. His heart beats because of the help of a pacemaker.

"I hope you can take care of your body and be healthier" I muttered solemnly that night from Toby's stage costume room.

Actually my dad and Toby have something in common. Both are the same - equally hardworking without knowing the time and himself. Although life makes a lot of money, it certainly does not mean that all the money will be wasted on medical expenses.

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"At least this dad is very useful because he's a great doctor. Many lives you can save" One time when my father was defending himself, in our debate about the profession I wanted.

"Really dad.... But it's not only you who saved people in the end, but us as well" I replied in a soft voice.

"Because of all your struggles, all that is left for us from you is a burden. Not even your retirement money, because all that money is always running out to maintain your life until now" I continued by looking at the mother who was busy sewing in the front room.

"Look at your old wife, she must now continue to work for our family. Accept the fact that the doctor's profession is too expensive for me" I still muttered as I began pouring tea that began to warm up.

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