Trapped in Love Security

I Love Him

My blank look led to the glass that was on my front desk.

What was wrong with me, until I was harassed like this?

Though all this time I have never acted flirtatious or even teased the men here including him (Pak Herman). Saying her name, I felt disgusted and hated her.

My clothes that I wore were never tight, always a bit loose, although it could not completely cover my chest and buttocks that were formed.

The smell of a typical perfume smelled in the dark blue uniform that covered my body made me very calm despite looking very great. I looked towards Mas Sony who was busy arranging the cars of the guests who were about to exit the hotel.

For a moment I remembered all Mas Sony's treatment of me, his attention, his kindness, his sincerity and his gentleness. Even every time I thought about him, he reflected on his smile, his gaze, and plus after that he hugged and kissed my forehead. For the first time I was so happy to feel it from the man I love.

Why is he so attentive? There's no way he's worried about me like this if he doesn't have any affection for me.

But I'm also afraid that it's just humanity. But all I know is that I've never seen Mas Sony talk to any other woman. Even my friends feel that Mas Sony is a very indifferent person, only with me he wants to talk a lot and joke.

 

God, would I sin if I loved her? while I was in a relationship with Ega, the man who loved me so much.  But I can't love her at all, am I tormenting her? Am I playing with her feelings? Have I gone too far? ...

I keep daydreaming...

 

The cold night breeze pierced the pores. At 20:15 I sat with my eyes closed, my body was very tired, sick, my mind was messed up, I wanted to rest for a while.

The gentle touch of the hand in my hair surprised me. Half-consciously I brushed it off, shifting my position to the corner of the seat.

“Mas! I guess---, Sorry ... I accidentally.” said I lowered my head.

 

“Sorry Yes Deck, Mas didn't mean to surprise you.” sits next to me.

“Please don't be like this, Mas really can't see you sad and moody Deck, the Vania I know is always cheerful, always smiling.” takes my hand.

 

My tears are dripping again, “I'm confused Mas, I don't know, why is this happening? What's wrong with me?Why should I Mas?! I'm really scared, I'm ashamed, and I hate him so much Mas!” I rubbed the rubble that kept flowing down my cheeks.

 

“Dek... hhsstttt” holds both my cheeks and directs my face right in front of his face.

“Do not talk like that Deck, this is not your fault. This all happened because he was the one who was indeed insolent. He's gone too far blinded by the devil's lust." he said.

 

“But even I have never flirted and come close to him Mas, why should I?!”

 

“You know?, sometimes people can do reckless because they know that the victim is weak Deck, so they dare to act, they are sure the target will not dare to complain and tell anyone. Moreover, you are the type of person who does not enjoy the Deck, Mas knows that. Mas glad you still trust Mas to help you.” he explained.

 

He explained patiently, his language very gently arranged. I just quietly listened and looked at him.

“For me you are the perfect woman Deck, you are beautiful, you are graceful, polite, and you have an aura that I have never found in any woman. No wonder many people like you, including me.” he said disperse my daydreams.

 

Whahuh? does he realize what was said? she like me?

 

 “Dek, Mas want to tell you something, not Mas's intention to add to the burden of your mind but Mas just want you to be more alert and careful in the future. Right now there are two friends of Mas who want to get you but they only want to have you for a moment with bad intentions. You could say they bet."

 

“Who Mas?” many wonder.

 

“Kris and Miko, they always talk about you, they always think about how they got you, but Mas won't let that happen. You should always be careful if Mas is not beside you ..” Staring at me inside...

 

 

“You can see for yourself Deck how they look at you ..” says Mas Sony.

 

"But why do I have to Mas, but here are many beautiful women who are more than me" I said curious.

“Yes, since they are interested in you Dek, can you distinguish Dek, where is the sincere gaze, where is the lustful gaze.?” Ask Sony, though,

 

“Maybe I will be able to see it if I already know someone close Mas.” I replied.

 

“You do not need to know closely if you want to know the Deck, you just need to see their movements against you. How he talks, how he looks at you and treats you."

I listened carefully to every word of Mas Sony, he explained with patience and maturity.

"Now Deck, that sincere person, he will give more attention and will try to keep, not harm or even harass. When he's near you, he'll feel calm because he easily protects from anything bad. And when far away, she's trying to figure out how she can make sure she's safe. The slightest attention he gave was an obligation for him.

That's how I feel right now when I'm close to you Mas, are you not aware of what you say that describes your own treatment of me? you always make me feel safe and protected.

“While the person who looks at you with lust, his gaze will lead to the physical Dek. And most of him will not be interested in chatting away from you, let alone about family, personality and others. Because their focus is only how to get the opportunity to be alone and do the action.”

Explain in detail...

 

"Yes, I understand. Thanks for explaining everything."

“But one thing you need to know Dek, Mas really want to always be beside you, protecting you. I don't know why we could have this kind of taste, and it was there from the very beginning we met. Even a day I don't meet you it feels like something's lacking, seeing you for a second is sometimes enough to calm me down Deck. Though from the beginning Mas work here has many apprentices who change in and out but only this time my heart is different."

His deep gaze completely penetrated all the way to the heart making me unable to concentrate anymore.

 I just silently returned her serious gaze...

 

Haaa....! Did he explain that he likes me? What do I have to answer for his confession? I swear I really don't know what to say, my lips are like they're locked up to say a word. My heart beats faster. I forgot the scary thing earlier.

 "Mas, I-I don't know what to say, which obviously I'm so happy to hear those words. I've been lucky all along to be close to Sony's Mas." I tried to calmly answer Mas Sony's words even though I was so nervous I tried to cover it up.

"Dec, listen to me, Mas is not a typical person who easily loves a woman. But once I fall in love, I will be serious, and will never let go. In the slightest I won't let a single person hurt my woman. Rest assured, I will take care of you with all my heart as long as I breathe."

"Huh?,, I mean? Is it ... ?" I was flattered, my eyes fixated on being surprised by his gentlemanly expression.

"Yes Dek, I love you. I'm sorry if I say it now at the wrong time." Said Sony grasping my hands tightly.

"really?! Thank you very much." My tears suddenly fell.

Yes, I am indeed very happy to hear that word out of the sweet lips of Mas Sony, the person I love. It was like a dream, he was returning my feelings. But how is this, I have hurt two men at once for being dishonest towards them.

I also thought about Ega, what should I say if I want to end my relationship with him. I prefer Mas Sony who now clearly have the same feelings as me. I still don't think he loves me.

"Daddy, I'm taking you home now, okay?" Bring on Sony.

I nodded slowly in agreement,

"Mas, don't you want to know how I feel?" I asked worriedly, why didn't he ask about how I felt about him.

"Whatever it is, the important thing is that you already know how I feel Dek. That was more than enough because I was also relieved to have told you. Yes, then I'll take the bike for a minute, okay?"

Sony stood up and rushed to the parking lot.

I only saw his sincere look. But I'm really confused, why does Sony not want to know how I feel.

Wait, does Sony know I have a boyfriend? But from where? And why isn't he angry?

I kept struggling with my brain that wouldn't stop thinking about it.

But I'm so happy that those words finally came out of Sony's sweet lips, even though it was like a dream, but it's a reality. I can't deny I can forget a moment of that creepy incident. Sony's role has been very important in my life.

Seriate....