Trapped in Love Security

Disillusioned

At 15:00 Ega came back to me with my favorite brownies. He tried to persuade me and did not want to lose me.

“Van, why do you do all this? How long have you been cheating on her? How many times have you done it?” ega asked emotionlessly even though her eyes were extremely sharp full of vengeance.

“I'm not cheating at all Ga, what do you mean? I was close to Mas Sony, because he was good, he helped me a lot, and even he took care of me a lot.” I told him without looking at him, without knowing the direction of his conversation.

“You did it at the hotel, right? That easy you hand over the body to him? You love her the same? how many times have you guys been in contact? Why do you accept me if you end up hurting me? why Van? Answer me!"

PLAAAAKKKK !!! A hard slap landed on Ega's cheek, only this time in my lifetime I slapped a man. He's been so outrageous.

“Ega! Shutup! Why do you think I'm so low? Is this what you said lover? Accusing me of doing cheap things?! I am so disappointed in you!” My tears broke hearing the words of Ega who had slandered me doing inappropriate deeds with Mas Sony.

“Can you say like that, who has poisoned your mind?!” I continued to ask him.

“You don't have to lie anymore Van, I already know everything. Now you just answer my question. You love her?”

I asked myself to answer firmly even though I was weak and hurt at the moment. I have to look strong.

"Yes, I obviously love him! he's better than you, he values women more, he's more polite, he's more sholeh, he takes care of me, he protects me, he protects me, and most importantly she never hurt my feelings like you do now! You said you love me, right, where? in the slightest you have never trusted me, even you have the heart to accuse me of being a no-no, like this is what a girlfriend says?! ” My tears don't stop dripping.

“Van, not that I don't believe. I want to trust you but there is evidence that requires me to believe in reality.”

“Revelation? What reality?! What is on your mind is not the real reality at all. So stop describing your own imagination.”

“Is this not enough to prove that you are cheating?” Ega showed some photos Widya sent. The photo was right my photo and Mas Sony, there was someone who took my picture when I was carried Mas Sony down the stairs and towards the security post.

“Oh so Widya has reported to you?! Great is your spy. Even to listen to my explanation you objected greatly. Little Widya said about me, you immediately believe. I'm sorry Ga, I can't keep going like this, I can't keep being with you. My heart hurts so much. I'm tired. It's just that I explain everything and you won't believe it, right? Just wasting time.” I hurried to my feet, but Ega pulled my hand.

“Van, I'm sorry, what really happened?! You tell me the same story, yes, I promise I will believe you,” said Ega pleaded because he did not want me to leave.

“No need Ga, late! And I'm sorry too, I can't continue this relationship. We better be friends, than you keep spying on me, suspecting me. I'm tired, I feel depressed, I can't move freely, it's not normal. I can't love you either. So, we better get it done."

Ega used to be a very nice guy, he never hurt me at all, but since we were both apprentices, he was overprotective even though we were not in the same place, even different cities.

“Can't Van, it's that easy you end this relationship, you know I love you so much? I'm sincere with you. Now just because of that guy you left me.”

I know you love me Ga, but sorry the way you treated me made me uncomfortable."

There is another reason why I left you.

“As far as you want to say what, want me to defend myself will also remain wrong in your eyes, right? You are always right, you are never wrong. Thank you for being such a good person to me. Next, behave normally like a friend. Already yes, I want to go to the room, you better go home and be careful on the road.”

“OK, I will try to sincerely release you Van. But don't expect me to behave like usual."

***

The next day I intended to go to work, my condition gradually improved despite the fear of haunting. Yes, I'm still very scared and not ready to meet Mr. Herman. I put thin makeup on my slightly pale face, I grabbed my bag and headed to Dina's room to take her away.

“Din! Let's go,” I said as I opened the door to Dina's room.

“You've been healthy Van?” dina asked while covering the lipstick she had just worn.

“Alhamdulillah is Din. Who will I be on duty with?”

“It looks the same Mr. Adi Van.” Answer Dina.

“Thank God, not him.” I can't imagine if I had to work again with Mr. Herman. How frightening.

Along the way I told everything to Dina, she was so shocked and did not expect such a thing could happen to me. Until now it felt very heavy if you had to set foot in this hotel. I was too scared and did not know until when I should feel uncomfortable because of the existence of the man.

 

“Thank you yes, Din, I believe you are the most sincere and caring friend to anyone, including me.”

“But I really salute Mas Sony Van, he can be responsive and can move really fast. Try if he's a little late, you might lose your future. He seems to love you very much. And about Ega do not need to be too thought out. He must be taught a lesson because a man must have a stand. Worse yet, he trusted his best friend more than his girlfriend. Why try relationships without trust. Free.”

“Iya Din, so I also owe the same Mas Sony, but honestly if now remembered, I'm really embarrassed. Just imagine, I who usually appear as perfect as possible in front of him suddenly he saw me disheveled, crying, even buttons my clothes off Din. Wait, did he get a chance to see? Aaaa no-no, don't be. That's so embarrassing. And you know, *********** my short just carried with me Mas Sony Din. Geez!”

 

“Ha ha ha .. sorry yes this time I have to laugh. I'm really concerned about what's happening to you, but there's a funny thing. Ha ha ha ... Eh but it's so sweet to know Van fitting he hugged you. But how could a sholeh man like him, I guess he wouldn't dare touch you because it wasn't mahrom. He he ..”

 

“It's enough, Din. Don't talk about this anymore. See someone monitoring us from Pos.”

Across the hotel, Dina and I stopped waiting for a passing vehicle to cross, she who saw us from a distance approached immediately and was in the middle of the road to help cross. How brave he is, O God. Why is Sony so good, if this continues how can I not love him.

 

“Thank you, Mas,” said me and Dina together.

He just nodded slightly and smiled, not a word coming out of his lips. It's just that for me it's been very charming, making me fascinated by his good looks.

I was immediately absent and went straight into the HK office. Going in I was very hesitant and frightened, I stopped my steps and told Dina to look inside. Dina immediately responded to what I meant, because I really did not want to see Mr. Herman's face. So I better avoid.

“Aman Van, come in,” invite Dina after she saw there is no Mr. Herman inside.

“Halo Vania .. how are you? Are you healthy, Nduk? What pain was yesterday?” asked Mr. Adi who was so enthusiastic to welcome my arrival.

“Already Sir, yesterday just dizzy as stomach pain kok.”

“Are you ready to work? What are you going to ride now, Nduk? We'll be on the third floor, yeah. You prepare the one that must be brought to the top.”

“OK Sir, I prepare first run out of it I go directly to the top.”

...*** ...

Some of the rooms have been tidied up, Mr. Adi is always working on the bathroom part. I was always in and out of the room picking things up from the trolly accidentally met Kris who was patrolling from floor to floor.

“Hai sweet Vania, the more beautiful you are today.

O yes, today you become 'TO' Van. Get ready yaa. ha ha ha.” The man stopped right in front of the trolly and started teasing me.

But I'm confused what T.O means, what is it? I don't understand at all.

“ T.O? What the hell mas?” ask me with curiosity.

“Just think to yourself .. ha ha ha..,” Laughter Kris satisfied while walking towards the elevator without me understanding what she meant.

I entered the room with a confused face, I worked while daydreaming about Kris' words just now.

Does this have anything to do with what happened that night? What am I supposed to do? Why is this so freaking me out. But I also don't know what 'TO' is, what's so important?

“Nduk? Is it finished yet? We move next room if we have,” said Mr. Adi who I did not listen to because I could not focus on doing anything.

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