Throes

Pain

Povs. Ramah.

God brought me to someone in my dark past. The past has left me devastated and disappointed. And it makes it hard for me to trust anyone, including me.

He returns.

Either come back to disturb my life, or come back just want to meet the family in unfortunately. Leaving it six years ago, and never setting it up again in a loving home. Because of the mistake he made, it destroyed everything including me, and also Nana's mother.

This is indeed the reality and indeed what I hate once, when I meet again in my past. The shadows in the past, made my head rewind it.

At home, in his room, the captivity, the body that was already*ng, the body that was bruised and also the crying that was so heartbreaking.

Everyone reminded me back. Back to remind the cruelty of this man in front of me to Nana's mother.

If it were a stranger, I might have killed him a long time ago. I don't care about the law, or am ashamed of my family. Most importantly, my heart was content to eliminate him.

But this man in front of me? It's disgusting! I really don't want to admit it anymore. But he and I were born from the same womb, from the same father and the same blood.

Mas Ryan's. My oldest brother, my first child, my mom and dad.

" Father?" Call Naufal sitting in the bed stroller. It made me wake up from anger.

Staring at Naufal with a gentle smile, who was now willing to call me 'Papa'. I don't want to show my anger to my children. And I tried as much as I could to control the anger in the man who was staring at me for a long time.

I walked pushing the bed stroller towards Yanna and Nana who were in her arms, past the couple who were still loyal to me.

" It's done? Let's go home." Take me to Yanna and wipe my daughter's head.

Yanna nodded in understanding, unwilling to protest at me. All I know is, Yanna still needs something in the supermarket.

I did not want to turn to look at the couple again, I carried my daughter's body, walked first while pushing the stroller kranjang.

I heard Yanna's voice saying goodbye to my sister-in-law. And I won't be mad at my wife, because it's just me and a couple.

" Let's get the kids in the car first, let me line up here." My orders to Yanna. gave Yanna the car keys.

I've taught Yanna how to unlock the car and turn it on. But he never wanted me to buy him a car.

Again, Yanna complied and nodded. Taking Nana and Naufal out first to the supermarket left me queuing at the cashier not too many people.

" Rama?" Call a woman's voice from behind me.

I just glanced at who was calling me and came back with my eyes forward. Without saying hello back or asking when I knew who it was.

Sister-in-law, Graceful mother.

" How are you Ram?" Ask me softly, and now it's my turn to start paying for all the groceries.

I didn't want to answer, and still faithfully watched the cashier so quickly put my groceries in.

Sick and angry.

I don't know, but it wasn't my sister-in-law who did it. But I was also angry, because I remembered what he said first. Still faithfully defending her wrong husband and blaming the helpless woman for her husband's behavior.

Anggun still looked at me, his face looked sad and his eyes were glazed as I glanced at him at a glance.

I paid for all the groceries, before leaving. Once again I looked at him, and my gaze moved to the man behind Anggun's mother.

Mas Ryan's.

Sendu, and also sad. Just like what I saw with Madam Grace. Not just them, but me too.

Not selfish, just. Still disappointed.

I open the trunk of the car, put all my groceries in.

" It's done?" Yanna asked, looking at me who was already sitting behind the wheel.

I gently swiped Nana's head on Yanna's lap, tightly hugging her mother's body.

I didn't mean to silence my wife, because my thoughts this time were very awkward.

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" You're at work?" Not believing, Akbar saw Amel enter work when the woman was so pale last night.

" Yes, why sir." Ask back Amel, carrying an empty tray in hand. And I'll go back to the kitchen.

" You're healthy." Ask again Akbar. looking at Amel's face still looks a little pale.

" Your face is still pale." Its effects.

" I'm kind of happy, sir."

" Sure?"

" Yes." Yeah." Amel, with a slight smile, showed that he was okay. Though the head again throbbed and his body began to cheer.

" If you're not feeling well, just rest. Don't force it."

" Yes sir. Thanks." Thanks." Amel replied, nodding a smile before again leaving Akbar back to work.

" What's wrong Mel?" Dinda asked, seeing Amel talking to Akbar.

" There's nothing. Just ask me how it is in the kitchen." Answer Amel. Again lazy if you have to serve the jokes of his friends, when telling the truth.

" Oh! What do I think is going on?" Dinda nodded in understanding. " You're okay, your face is a little pale."

" It's okay, it's just dizziness."

" Just rest Mel." Timpal Eko, heard and also saw Amel who was a little pale.

" Let's just rest there." Agree Dinda.

" Later on, there's still a lot of castamer. When I get some rest. Not good for the others." Answer Amel.

Just a few hours of work he asked permission to rest, what else when the restaurant was so crowded in the afternoon. There will be a friend who does not like it. From that, Amel tried to endure the pain in order to work with his siff sore team. And do not want to make any of them envious or angry.

Amel again became a waiter, delivering food to visitors who ordered. His body was getting hotter, his head was also getting heavier and. Trying to take a deep breath while closing your eyes.

His body feels like it is no longer strong. Look at the wall clock in the kitchen.

" A further two hours?" Amel Mumbled. " Strong mel.. Must strong. For the family." Encouraging himself, the body and the ceremony seemed to contradict.

" Amel?" Call his boss from behind the kitchen door. Make all the employees look towards him.

" Yes Sir." Amel answered, seeing Akbar calling himself.

" To my room for a moment, I need your help." Akbar's orders. Made Amel frown, but also nodded in understanding.

" Excite, end of the month! Must be a paycheck." Eko Seru.

" Wahh!! Aye, yes. Let's spirit. Hurry up there Mel." Timpal Dinda, expel Amel to quickly follow his superiors.

Amel just smiled and went towards his boss's room. It may be true, Akbar is in need of his help.

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