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While at the hospital where Raina and Mira were treated. Raina's condition has begun to improve only her legs are not allowed to walk temporarily.

While Mira's condition is still struggling through the period of keritis. As a result of a gunshot wound that almost took his life.

"Good afternoon Miss Raina". Greet the sister kindly.

"Siang sus's". Raina said with a friendly smile.

"I'm Sister Nina who was assigned to take care of the lady in place of the temporary duty of mba Riena". Obviously sister Nina to Raina.

"Where is Riena ?". Raina asked with a look of wonder.

"I don't know, miss. Doctor Jordan just told me to take care of the lady for a while". Nina's Sister.

Hearing the answer from the nun who did not know where Riena was, Raina became a little moody and sad.

"Miss, it's time for you to have lunch and take your medicine. I have prepared before you have to take this medicine first yes".

Clearly the nun told him while handing over the light green medicine to Raina.

Raina also accepted it with laziness and boredom.

"You should take the medicine before eating. It is recommended to be chewed, but kalao miss not tasty with the taste can be helped with water. Wait fifteen minutes. You can eat miss".

Clearly the sister was full of tenderness and understanding to Raina. Making Raina immediately take her medicine using water to push the medicine in.

"Finished lunch later, if there are fifteen minutes, miss continued to take the medicine that I have prepared on this small plate, miss let's get well soon". Said the sister with a gentle smile.

"Yes sus". Lirih Raina's.

After fifteen minutes Raina started her lunch uninspired. Seen from the look of Raina's face that indicates that the food he was eating was very less in terms of taste. A little bland like baby team porridge.

While enjoying a bland lunch at the company of Sister Nina. Suddenly Raina's door opened without knocking first. Making Raina and Nina's nun be alarmed. Sister Nina who was secretly carrying a firearm under her work pants began to get ready to protect the lady from the unexpected.

And when the door opened simultaneously between Nina and Darko, Jonathan's personal bodyguard pointed a gun at each other with a murderous look. Making Raina feel surprised at the actions of the nurse who was taking care of her.

"Relax Nina, she's my personal bodyguard Darko". Jonathan said behind Darko's back.

"Big master".

Nina said respectfully then lowered her firearm slowly followed by Darko who also lowered his firearm.

"Dad". Lirih Raina was still with a surprised look.

"Yes Rain".

Jonathan walked to Raina's bed and sat down on a chair near her bed.

Raina, who was still confused and shocked, only looked at Nina and Jonathan in turn.

"I know what's on your mind, son". Said Jonathan guessing the sensation that was in the child's mind from the look on his face.

Raina was just silently looking down feeling bad for the attitude of the look on her face.

"I purposely put Nina undercover as a nurse in this hospital. He I'm assigned to guard and protect you in place of Rie's temporary duty".

Said Jonathan to his daughter over the existence of Nina, who was still a subordinate of the father.

"Where is Riena. And brother Yash why haven't you seen me yet ?".Raina asked curiously.

Jonathan began to smile lightly in response to a question from the boy.

"Yash, Riena and Jio are having an important task dear. Be patient tomorrow morning when the task is done they will definitely return". Jonatan clearly told me.

Raina nodded her head in response to the father's explanation about the departure of Riena and Yash.

"Your brother sends you greetings and apologies, son. The task is too heavy, just pray so they can finish it well". Said Jonnathan softly.

"Yes dad". Lirih Raina with an awkward tone.

Jonathan who saw the awkward attitude of Raina his own biological daughter also understood him well. Because it is no secret that Raina is indeed less welcome to her own birth aysh.

Since she was born on slander and misunderstanding that someone did to her late mother made Raina born and grew up without affection from her father.

Jonathan used to ignore Raina and not admit it. Raina was never in that big house.

When little Raina cried asking for a hug from her father. Jonathan dodged and chose to approach Yash who was playing ball. When Raina asked her mother why her father did not care for her, she could only cry and hold her tightly.

It happened for seventeen years. At the age of ten, his mother died. Little Raina tried no longer to expect a hug from the father, a greeting from the father and attention from the father. All Raina did was cry feeling sad and alone.

Although during his time in the big house his life was indeed full of material, all-served and sufficient. But the lack of attention from the father is what makes Raina always moody and away from the father.

Dinner with Raina's family followed when she was seventeen. That was because of the coercion of Yash the kaka his step.

Yash who initially cares less about Raina becomes concerned when Yash often finds Raina crying in the middle of the night alone, Murung in the garden of the house alone, and feels happy when he sees Raina playing in the rain.

The first time Yash approaches Raina and begins to interact with her. When it rains in the afternoon. At that time the little Raina who started crying on the bench of the house garden became smiling as the rain fell and started to play around cheerfully.

It makes Yash Metasa strange and curious to brush Raina. He also brought an umbrella and approached Raina who was smiling under the rain.

"What makes you so happy about the rain ?". Little Yash asked little Raina.

"Rain is my name and Rain means rain. The rain is my friend. My sadness is lost with the rain. Come on you try playing rain with me ayoo kak ayoo".

Said Raina while tugging at Yash's hand impatiently. It made Yash feel annoyed and immediately flicked his hand in annoyance.

"DO NOT!!!". Snap little Yash to little Raina.

"Play it yourself. You weird kid". Little Yash sneered.

But little Raina would not give up. He wants his brother who hates the rain to feel directly how the rain is if invited to be friends well. Raina once again pulled the older brother firmly, making Yash almost fall down and drop the umbrella he brought to paddle him.

"YOU....!". Little Yash cried with annoyance.

But her anger and resentment instantly evaporated when she saw little Raina smiling from a close distance in the rain.

Raina's smile and cheerfulness make Yash feel sad and sorry for Raina. The little girl was very strong, very strong and very cheerful. Yash felt admiration and sympathy for him.

It also becomes the point where Yash and Raina are familiar. From there they became close to each other. And without Yash realizing all the closeness becomes a romance for Yash against Raina's step-sister one father.

And Jonathan also understood the awkward attitude of his youngest son. Jonathan has tried to approach Raina repeatedly. Invite him to interact between father and son in general. But always Raina refused and avoided.

Jonathan's remorse was again present for his unfairness towards his only daughter. For his behavior that always breaks his daughter's heart and for his mind that considers that his daughter is the son of another man.

"Is there anything you want, son ?". Jonathan asked Raina after noticing the look of his daughter.

Raina honestly wants something but she still feels awkward and afraid of her father.

"Tell me son". Jonathan said with a gentle smile.

"I want to see Mira's situation firsthand:. Raina said with a bow.

"Can I ?". Raina asked again with an unconvinced look.

"Of course you can, let me take you to the wheelchair". Jonathan said, awaiting the consent of the child.

Raina was silent for a moment, hesitating to hear the offer from her father. Because in his entire life other than kissing the hand of the father when he was about to leave there was no other physical contact raina did with the father from childhood. He kissed the back of his hand after seventeen years. After her father started to notice her and tried to get closer to her.

"Let's get Miss Raina, I've brought her a wheelchair". Sister Nina's words disperse Raina's daydream.

Feeling bad and not wanting to make his father feel sad. Raina began to nod in agreement with the offer from her father.

Jonathan, who saw the princess' approval, smiled and began to step closer to the boy to hold him and place him in a wheelchair.

When Raina was in the front of her father. Your jonathan has no power to hold back his day and his regrets.

"My daughter, I'm sorry for all of your past mistakes. The father who never carried you when you were a baby. Never noticed you and not always there for you. Forgive me father naak sorry". Inner Jonathan felt bitter and guilty.

When Raina was in her wheelchair and looked at her father's face. Raina also felt a little stunned at the place of seeing the face of the father who was holding back her sadness.

"Let me push it. I'm gonna go see Mira together with my daughter". Jonathan said to Nina and her guards.

Darko who saw the code from his great master also nodded respectfully signaling that he knew what his great master meant.

Jonathan starts pushing his daughter's wheelchair and walks to the beogenfil room where Mira is.

While outside the room beogenfil right in front of the door of the room that Mira occupied. It turned out that the atmosphere was very quiet and no one was guarding it. This made Jonathan feel astonished and a little upset.

"How can patients with keritis no one to keep. What if something happens to her. I don't want my daughter to feel sad because of her guilt. Anyway, the girl named Miranda has to stay alive". Inner Jonathan.

"That's lonely". Lirih Raina's.

Jonathan opened the door carefully and pushed Raina's wheelchair slowly after the door opened and closed it again after she was inside.

"All right, no one's guarding. Not even a nurse. This hospital really". Jonathan was upset.

Jonathan pushes Raina's wheelchair up to the side of Miranda's bed. The pale face of Mira who was lying with a tool on her left right.

Raina approaches and touches Mira's fingers carefully. He felt a chill in Mira's pale hands.

"His palm is so cold dad, is he really okay ?".

Raina asked a little worriedly while holding Mira's hand tightly to channel warm air into Mira's palm.

"The information that you receive for now is still very critical, son. Just pray that Mira can get through her period of anxiety". Jonathan tells his daughter about Mira's condition.

Raina began to tear up hearing information from her father about the situation from Mira.

"Once again he helped me, Dad. He doesn't know who or where. Again helping me and even the temvak wounds that caused it were also because they helped me". Raina said as she shed her tears.

"I owe him my life twice. Dad, I don't want him to lose his life because of me". Raina said with a bitter cry.

"Sssstttt Raina, don't cry don't be sad like this. Listen to daddy son". Jonathan calmed the boy down and took him to look at Jonathan.

"This may have been the destiny of God. His destiny is to meet you and be your savior. Mira is a strong girl dear, father's instincts are very strong about Mira. Believe me, he will definitely go through his time. Don't cry anymore". Jonathan calmed the boy and hugged him tightly.

"Why does my life always make others wretched. Why am I always hated. And why is my destiny always painful". Raina with a piteous.

Jonathan, who heard the words of the boy, felt very sore and more guilty. Her only daughter's life became like this because of her mistake.

"What is all this karma from my mother for me". Raina in the arms of her father.

Hearing the words of the child. Jonathan immediately took off his tight hug and immediately looked at the princess with a curious look.

"What do you mean, son, ?". Jonathan asked the princess.

"Helena said that I was an illegitimate child. My mother cheated on Yash's mother to make her die". Raina said in a sad tone.

"Dad tell me. What Helena was talking about was true. My mother is that bad. Because what I see, mother is a gentle woman who is polite and smiling. Am I really a bastard ?".

"That's not all true Raina. I know very well your mother isn't who Helena said she was". Jonathan said softly.

"But Helena knew it was from Yasmine's mother well. It's impossible if Yasmine's mom is lying". Raina let go of her father's embrace.

Jonathan rubbed his face tiredly and looked at Raina who was crying in silence.

"What have you been talking about Yasmine".

Jonathan's mind was both angry and upset. His third wife was a real troublemaker.

"Trust me son, what Helena and your mama said is wrong. They only see from the side. Dad knows best how your mother". Jonathan tried to make his daughter believe what he said.

"Well, I'll tell you about the story of your father, mother Yash and mother. But not here. Mira is still in a condition of keritis. We can't linger here". Jonathan clearly gave his understanding.

"We're talking about this in your ward. Ok". Jonathan made an offer. And in the balasi a nod agreed from Raina.

Before leaving, Raina took the time to hold Mira's hand and say.

"Fight Mira, I will always pray for you. Thank you for your help to me. I'm leaving first, tomorrow I'll come back to see you. I hope you can get through your period of irritation".

After saying words of concern to Mira. Raina returns to her nursery with her father.

In the room there was only Jonathan who was sitting in a side chair close to the patient bed and Raina who was sitting in a wheelchair not far from Jonathan sitting. Raina waited curiously for her mother's story.

Jonathan takes a picture from his leather wallet and gives it to Raina to look at.

Raina also received a piece of the medium size photo with a confused look. And after he saw it turned out it was a young photo of his mother, his father and his mother Yash.

"You must know who they are". Jonathan said with a smile Making Raina smile too.

"That's a picture of us twenty years ago when we were in college. Your mother was a friend of Cinthiyana. Yash's mother". Jonathan told the princess.

Raina is a little surprised to hear the fact that her mother and sister Yash are close friends.

"Honestly, I liked your mother first. But because of differences in beliefs and castes make the relationship between your father and mother tenuous". Jonathan said with a laugh remembering his past with Rianthi.

"And the funny thing is both the father's parents and the two parents of his mother Yash match the father with his mother Yash. It's a complicated romance, isn't it". Ucsp Jonathan with a ruckus at the end of his sentence.

Raina who had listened to the story of the father was smiling to justify the words of the father about the story of his love.

"Me and Cinthiyana at that time could not fight and even refuse the matchmaking done by their parents. Because of that, I had a secret relationship with your mother from both parents I was helped by Cinthiyana". Jonathan smiled with a funny smile.

"Dad and his mother Yash used to make a lot of noise. Like cats and dogs. Cinthiyana is very fierce, chatty and does not want to lose with father. He's a little tomboyish and eats a lot". Babe the father with a funny smile considering the events in the past.

"While your graceful and intelligent mother is perfect for a father who was then famous badboy. People say it". Jonathan.

Raina smiles to hear that her father was a badboy. Because what Raina saw at this time her father was full of dignity and cool. Far from what his father said. A badboy.

"Your mother was very difficult to get at that time. He's like a pigeon that's hard to get close to. But thanks to the persistence of the father, your mother finally succumbed to the father".

"Father's match with Cinthiyana and father's relationship with Rianthi continued until the father and Cinthiya were engaged. But unfortunately, both parents of father know the relationship of father with mother. They tried to keep me away from your mother. And it worked, your mother disappeared like she was swallowed by the earth".

"Dad was very frustrated at that time. Seek and seek your mother wherever she may be. It was difficult at that time. Considering dad still can't be independent. And from there the father is determined to be able to exceed both parents. Five-year-old father struggles to build his own business and works diligently and pursues a bachelor's degree quickly. So that I can be independent and can find your mother freely".

"But at that time the father of Cinthiyana had a heart attack. In his last moments he asked his father to marry Cinthiyana at that hospital. Dad was powerless to resist and eventually the marriage happened simply in your grandfather's ward. And after I finished reading the sacred promise, your grandfather died".

"One month later Yash's father and mother held a wedding. And at that time your mother came with another man she claimed that the man was her fiance. Which heart is not broken son, hear that. Your mother and I were both devastated at the time".

"And the father also tried to sincerely accept the path of destiny given by the father. Dad tries to love Yash's mother. I tried to open my heart. And with the patience and passion of his mother Yash, he loved her. Three years later, your brother Yash was born as father's first son".

"But fate seems to be playing games with dad. A few months after the birth of Yash Cinthiya was diagnosed by doctors with uterine cancer. His age is not too long. And at that moment Cinthiya asked me to find your mother again".

"Cinthiyana said that if she was very sincere if the one who replaced her as a mother continued Yash is your mother. Dad refused because he loved Cinthiyana. After all your mother already has a fiancee and father does not dare to disturb the happiness of your mother". Jonathan clearly with his sad look.

"Then how can I be with my mom again ?". Raina asked curiously.

"It was due to the interference of Cinthiya. He brought us back together in his last moments. Your mother, who loved Yash's mother dearly, was powerless to refuse her last request. And in the same way in front of Cinthiyana at the hospital, I made a promise to marry your mother without the consent of both parents".

"You know, son, having a relationship without the blessing of parents is very difficult and complicated. Your mother was hurt a lot by both of my parents. But that way your mother stays patient and takes care of Yash affectionately".

"Three years passed we walked with obstacles. And my parents are still trying to keep me separated from your mother. There was one incident where your mother was almost gone because both of my parents hired a man to separate her from me. Your mother was in a car accident and almost took her life". Said Jonathan with a teary look.

Raina smothered her mouth and was suddenly shocked by what her father told her about her gray hair.

"He almost lost a lot of blood. Dad was very confused looking for blood donors who are type O. It was all planned by my parents. They always prevent you from being able to get that blood type through unreadable threats to people who have type O blood that you get. Some disappeared, some just left and some were suddenly injured". Yash started the story again.

"When you broke up, I somehow found out that Yasmine's little friend came to see me at the hospital with her parents. She told me that her blood type was the same as your mother's. Yasmine however gave one condition to father". Jonathan said cynically remembering Yasmine's words at that time.

"What are the conditions father ?". Raina asked curiously.

"Dad had to marry her legally after Yasmine donated her blood to your mother". Said Jonahan while looking into the eyes of the child.

Raina was again surprised by the life story of her mother who was certainly full of sadness.

"At that time, my father refused an offer from your stepmom. Father again tried to do his own blood donation. But at that time your mother was very keritis must be treated immediately and get a blood donor as soon as possible. Finally with a heavy heart to save your mother's life. Father accepted an offer from Yasmine to marry him legally". Jonathan continued with deep sadness and regret.

"You know son, your mom and dad's wedding is just a serial wedding. Because both of my parents did not agree with our relationship. A mother is just a child growing up from an orphanage. Both of your mother's parents died in a car accident when your mother was a baby. And lucky your mother survived the accident and then your mother was taken care of by someone who took care of the orphanage". Jonathan told me one more piece of information about his mother.

"Now I just understand why grandparents don't like me so much. Because I'm the son of someone they don't like". Lirih Raina with her sad look.

"Then what about my mom. How did he react when he found out that he married Yasmine's mother again ?". Raina asked her father.

"Your mother just cried in my arms. He even told me to leave him and live happily with Yasmine. Of course I refused. Because I love your mother so much and can't separate from her. So with a strong determination, I brought your mother to a big house to live with Yasmine's mother. Luckily Yasmine agreed to the wishes of the father and both of the father's parents couldn't do anything more".

"One year later, both parents again urge the father to give them another grandchild as Yash's playmate. But they want Yasmine's granddaughter. Father who at that time still did not fully accept Yasmine tried to avoid their request".

"Dad didn't want to hurt your mother any more. By giving Yasmine's son a taste it's the toughest blow to your mother. Given that you've been married four years to your mother, you haven't been pregnant".

"And a year later somehow Yasmine was pregnant with her father's child. She was born to twins Attalarick Marteen Leonard and Artaniel Muntaza Leonard". Jonathan said to me.

"After the birth of her two twin sons. Yasmine has changed. He who originally looked graceful, classy and understanding turned jealous and crazy about socialites. His life and time spent with his social friends. Shop, gather, vacation abroad every year and not to mention important events such as charities, gatherings, gatherings and more. Makes your twin less attentive than his mother". Jonathan said, exhaling his heavy breath at the end of the sentence.

"I know that everything Yasmine did was simply to divert her disappointment and resentment from my unfair attitude. I paid more attention to your mother and Yash at that time. Although Yasmine has already given me two twin sons. But still it can never change the feelings of the father towards him. And finally Attala and Artaniel were taken care of by your mother with the help of two nannies". Jonathan said with his story.

"Two years later Yasmine again gave birth to my fourth son, counting from your brother Yash again who you know very well his name". Said Jonathan with a mischievous smile to the princess.

Raina also immediately showed her careless expression considering her third brother who could be said to be quite annoying to her.

"Uffmh....Who does not know the owner of the name. Someone who claims to be the most handsome and melancholy grazes on the beach if not Jasson's brother Wiliam Leonard". Raina grunted in annoyance.

Not a secret anymore if from childhood Raina and Jasson it looks like a cat and mouse in the old-fashioned cartoon. If you meet already in make sure Jasson will always judge Raina all out. But that goes for Jasson. If anyone other than Jasson is insulting Raina or is harassing her excessively. It's been confirmed that the man will be caught the next day.

But unfortunately, when he graduated from high school he preferred to study abroad majoring in businesses.

Jonathan also chuckles to see the look on the child's face if he hears or concerns Jasson his third son.

"Trust me son, even though he sucks in your eyes. But he is the one who loves you more than anything. He also most rightly considers you a little sister". Jonathan said meaningfully.

Raina could only smile happily at the father's words about the third kaka. Although very ignorant but to Raina, Jasson is the saneest brother to her.

"Then after that what else happened to Yasmine's father, mother, and mother ?". Raina asked still wanted to listen to the life stories of the three important people in her life.

"Still with Rain, your mother still takes care of Yash, Attala, Artaniel plus Jasson. Yasmien is busy with his life. There's one incident that's sure to make you sadder Rain. But this can open your mind to what Helena and Yasmine said to your mother". Jonathan started his story again.

"Tell me dad I want to know". Raina said excitedly.

"At the time of the successful company's birthday, my father set up himself at that time your mother was trapped by someone. He was engineered to look like he was sleeping with someone at the hotel where Dad was hosting a corporate birthday party. At that time the father was successfully instigated by a mysterious informant who had come from nowhere. The informant said that your mother was not a good woman she was having fun with other men besides me". Jonathan began his story.

"The father who was then covered in the flames of jealousy and anger began to believe in someone. I started to go to an informed hotel room. Dad broke down and I saw. It's true that your mother fell asleep on a blanket with a stranger without a single piece of clothing. Father at that time could not think clearly father's heart and emotions and then beat the foreign man out". Jonathan was full of anger at his story.

"Mother Muu woke up in a daze and shouted hysterically at the situation and the father who was beating a stranger. When I was satisfied, I approached your mother and immediately told her to get dressed and go home".

"At home we had a big fight. It was a big fight for the first time in your father's and mother's household. And from then on I lost my trust in your mother. And damn it two months later your mother was pregnant with you Rain".

"Dad thought you were the son of the stranger because the evidence was there and I saw him in person your mother slept with the stranger". Jonathan said in frustration.

Here Raina began to understand and get answers to all the questions first about her father and all the people who did not like her and her mother. Even every night his mother always cried while hugging him tightly.

"So that's why dad ignored me. That's why you don't think of me and you always stay away from me. Because I assume that I'm not your real daughter". Said Raina with tears.

"I'm sorry, son, I'm sorry". Jonathan hugged the princess.

Raina finally cut her tears with sadness mixed into one.

"If I were the son of a stranger. Then what's my fault dad, what's my fault....". Raina said with her cry.

Jonathan could only shake slowly over the head of the child he was holding. An apology Jonathan always says at this time.

"Then am I really not aysh's son ? ". Raina asked.

"You're a father's son, you're my daughter. My biological daughter". Jonathan reassured Raina.

"Dad's not lying, is he ?".

Raina asked while looking into the eyes of the father to find a lie in his father's mind. But semya is nil. Raina sees the honesty there and the firm belief in the aysh's answer to her.

"When you're nine years old, I doubt your father's thoughts about you and your mother. I quietly searched again. I also secretly took a little bit of your hair for me to bring it to the house of Saki to do a DNA test. And again mom and dad had a fight. You must have reminded me of that fight". Jonathan asked the princess.

"Remember. At that time I accidentally heard that my father was disappointed in my mother". Raina answered her father.

"Because your mother once again tried to convince dad about you and him being innocent. But dad didn't listen to it. I keep accusing your mother. Until your mother finally cleared up and went to clean up her things and took you away by taxi. And soon the results of the hospital and Darko's investigation came. I just found out that you're my son and your mother is innocent through the info and evidence Darko brought to me".

"Dad was so sorry back then and started to panic considering your mother and you've left. I started looking for you and your mom with Darko. But by the time I found you and your mom in the cab, a big truck suddenly hit the taxi you and your mom were riding in".

"You certainly remember the accident, don't you ?". Jonathan asked the boy.

"Sure dad, mom pushed me out of the car at that time. He sacrificed himself for me". Raina said sadly and still with her cries.

"I was devastated at the time, son. I feel like a fool in the world. I haven't apologized to your mother. Dad couldn't make her happy either. His life was too much pain from my father. Dad's very sorry". Jonathan said as he bowed sadly and wept bitterly.

"I'm sorry if you just admitted you when you were seventeen. Because I found out who set your mother up after your mother was buried. And I did deliberately keep pretending to hate you in order to make my search work. And al results dad found the mastermind behind it all". Jonathan.

"Who's father's mastermind ?". Raina asked curiously.

"Both of the father's parents, and also Bram's uncle Yasmine's younger brother". Jonathan said to me.

Raina who heard it was shocked and did not believe uncle Bram who also contributed to this crime.

"Dad can not immediately throw both parents father also Bram into prison. Given the full power of both parents, fathers are hard to conquer. So I tried another way. That makes both parents father bankrupt and fooled all out. Thanks to the cooperation of the father with the friends of the father finally the power of both parents collapsed. And that's why both of my parents became sick. They did not yet know whose possessions and power they had fallen for. All they know is they're broke and dad's successful in a company that dad built from scratch. So that now they can no longer suppress the father and impose their will on the father". Jonathan said with a cynical smile.

"Dad was still investigating Bram to what extent his involvement in the matter came to father and father's son Yash. And up until here you can deduce for yourself what your mother's like". Jonathan said as he stroked the mane of the child's hair.

Raina finally breathed a sigh of relief now. All questions have been answered. And his sense of disappointment towards his mother also evaporated into a proud and affectionate rass.

At least now Raina knows very well who her mother is, how her behavior and attitude is also the journey of her life.