THIRD WIFE AND SECOND HUSBAND
* I FAILED *
My head bertsmbah dizzy because of the drink that made me more drunk. unconsciously our lips began to actively seek busy with each other.
In the silence of the night and because of the alcohol we do something that is strictly forbidden in religion.
Until my chastity that I have to dedicate for the wedding night on my soul mate later has been lost already.
No longer thinking of a sin and a stain, I passed beyond my control by letting him touch every inch of my body.
Taku realized what a sacrifice was based on my love for Arif or just a passion.
Under the influence of alcohol I no longer remember the trust my mother had betrayed, my mother's advice I no longer considered.
Really now my body that is dirty is getting dirty, my body that is already despicable is getting humiliated.
My tears flowed with pain and regret as I fell upon my mother's twilight face.
Mas Arif kissed my forehead full of victory with no remorse for taking away my chastity.
My tears no longer make her feel pity, only happiness without her knowing I cursed myself.
The man kissed me on the forehead marked thanks for what I gave him, I was only able to cry and immerse my face in his arms.
I can't get these lips to talk about what I'm thinking right now, between hating them or having such deep love.
My eyes began to suffer from deep drowsiness, we fell asleep in the cold room of the AC
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When it showed exactly eleven o'clock in the afternoon, the worms in my stomach again protested demanding nutritional intake to be filled.
I woke up and realized that my body was no longer covered by a thread that could cover me from the desires of men.
I was surprised when I realized that there was a man who was sleeping would sleep.
From my conscious, I was only able to cry regretting that what we had done was a huge sin.
"Oh... Lord.... What should I do...?! what should I tell my mother...? I have failed to maintain my chastity.I'm sorry I am God.I'm sorry mah.". "in my cries until I did not realize that I had awakened the man's sleep.
In my tears, Arif hugged me tightly and apologized for what he had done to me.
"I'm sorry deck, I promise I'll be in charge of deck!" I don't care that his words can only hide my face behind my hands.
"I promise to take responsibility for what I've done" he said. "Don't cry again deck, please look me in the eye deck don't be like this. "
I opened my eyes and looked at the sad face of the man who had taken away my chastity and fulfilled the sin on my body.
"I'm getting dirty mas, what should I say to my mother mas...? I failed to defend him, I had failed my mother's confidence mas. "in my sobs I just kept talking regretting my actions.
"I want to go home to my mother's house. "please get me a mas! " my whine while in the arms of that man who just nodded small without her words.
"I clean the body first deck, later you also get ready first yes we find food first and buy a little souvenir for your mother. "remove his embrace and while stepping into the bathroom.
I just nodded and looked at her lost back behind the bathroom door. When I opened the bed sheet I was shocked when I touched my still-wet holy blood.
The bathroom door was wide open at the collapse of the man who was just wrapped in a half-lengthened towel and left the chest of the field with a slight growth of fine hair visible.
"Dek, clean your body first to prepare yourself to get out of this room. "while handing over a towel to wrap my body which is only covered in bed linen.
I just looked back at her and gave her a little smile without saying anything to her.
After I cleaned my body and a little ornate so as not to look pale when visiting my mother later.
"We eat first yes deck let not lemes your body deck. "when I want to get back on my feet it feels painful to walk because of the friction between my thighs when I wear my jeans.
"Silver mas. "mas Arif just smiled lead me and hugged my body back.
"I'm sorry I'm on deck. "that's all the guy can say...
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The silver car drove slowly to find the nearest restaurant from where we were staying after we told the innkeeper.
When Arif's car pulled over on the side of the road, Arif again invited me down to step into the restaurant.
We sat by the fish pond that the waiter showed us an empty bench to sit on.
The more silent I made Arif more guilty of what we had done,.
"Dec why was there no word from your lips? " his fingers clasped my hands tightly staring at my eyes with my blank stare.
Then I fell back down between my cheeks. "I don't know how to explain to my mother if my mother knows what I'm doing? " i sniffled in my sobs.
"I promise the deck, I'll take responsibility for what we've done." paused before continuing his words.
"it's all happening out of our control, because alcohol is affected until it happens like this deck, mas promise will be responsible." continued his words gave confidence to me.
"Mas... If I get pregnant how? you're not leaving me, are you? you're gonna keep your promise, aren't you? " wish that man would convince me.
drrrtt....
My phone vibrated when someone called me. I immediately grabbed my flat object from inside the nightstand, until the name of someone there showed me.
I quickly swiped the green button so I knew what Wiwin meant to call me. " Hall vita where are you now? why don't you go back to Mes? " a series of questions mba Wiwin when I heard my voice answer the phone.
"Sorry mba Wiwin, Vita did not say goodbye last night when he wanted to go with mas Arif. now Vita again eat first, maybe after eating vita want to go to the house mamah first mba. " trying to make mba Wiwin so as not to dissolve in his worry because he did not find me in mes.
"Are you the same as Arif vita? " contact his words like I can't believe I'm with mas Arif.
"Yes mba. "I answered briefly.
"Oh. yes you are well there Vita and be careful on the street to say my regards to your mother Vita. "sounds of relief across the same voice when I hear my explanation.
The phone connection closed after saying hello, and soon our order arrived for us to eat food on this table.
