THIRD WIFE AND SECOND HUSBAND

* I'M BACK IN MY WORLD *

I arrived at my mother's house, even though I forbade Arif to take me home, but he still drove me home to my mother's house.

I saw the smile of my mother who was waiting for our arrival, especially her first grandchild who had just been born.

"Grandmother..here in grndong same grandma yes son. "his smile that expands between the wrinkles.

A smile that I longed for because my mother always dissolved in sadness and tears.

Now that smile I see and return to make my eyes cool when I look at it.

"Have you guys eaten? mamah cook food to your tribe, eat first let your daughter maamah fatong first. "I just nodded without turning to mas Arif.

It turned out that the man was following me from behind and sitting next to me, although my attitude is not concerned about his presence but still mas Arif seek attention so that I serve him to eat as usual.

I looked at the empty plate that Arif sodor was on me and with no guilt he looked at me with his smile.

I grabbed the empty plate and gave her some rice and some side dishes that she always liked without my smile and a word from me.

Silence is the right thing for me to express my anger and disappointment towards her attitude towards me.

After eating I went to the room to rest even though my path still felt pain and easter pain melahir right but I survived as if everything was fine.

Without being asked to ask Arif to hold me up to my bed, my refusal to touch was not in the mood by him and still helped me up to my soft bed.

"Thank you for helping me to come here, and after this please stay with me. "I threw my face away and looked the other way because I no longer wanted to look at him.

"Don't tell me what else to be rich in gini, because all this has become my responsibility as a husband. "

Mas Arif kissed my forehead and then went to the living room to see the baby and her mother-in-law.

Now I live crying in solitude in the room.if only I did not end childbirth I will act a sense of rebellion because I do not like at all and I hope for the stupidity of my husband.

ooooeeeeee.....

The loud sound of my daughter's crying voice made my daydream instantly crumble and worried about my daughter's crying.

Mas Arif came by carrying my baby and gave up on me. "maybe he's thirsty deck, you better nurse our son first. "

I took my daughter to give ASI for her, but I could stand it because Arif's eyes just kept looking at me with nanar.

"Can you come out first? I want to give ASI to my daughter. "mas Arif just glared was astonished because of my attitude now.

"Why? I'm your husband why you have to throw me out of the room when giving ASI to our child, yet I've often seen even touch what is in you, right? "

His sense of disgust hearing the words HUSBAND and CHILD KITA, even though while in the hospital was clearly the person who doubted the child I had just born right.

"Alright if you don't want to get out of my room, as good as the direction will be the view to the other side. "

I no longer care about the existence of the man, the most important thing now is my daughter who is now the encouragement of my life.

"I'm sorry son, if your life is not lucky.Grow hanta will receive your mama's affection."

"It's not good for the deck to talk like that to our daughter who doesn't know anything. "

"Stop pretending to admit this is your daughter, aren't you the one who doubted the baby I was carrying so you don't care about my situation, do you?! "

"If I don't care for aoa I come to the hospital deck? "

"If you really care, for aoa you prefer to come to another woman than I who expects you to go home mas?! "

"Have the deck, I don't understand what you mean by that, which obviously now you break the deck because you seem tired. "

Mas Arif lay on the side of the bed with a slanted sleeping position and furniture me with his back.

I tried to be patient and strong when my household was in the midst of the storm.Every household always demanded honesty and harmony, but now I no longer find from my husband.

I was caught between lies and lies, I was caught between love and hate.

If only I could turn it back I wouldn't and I wanted to be in a situation like this and wanted to feel like I was running from reality.

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Three months have passed and now my daughter is getting more agile. DEVRI DARMAWANGSAH the name of my little princess who is now getting funny with her smile.

Time just kept going and the more I felt lonely and silent there was no more harmony in my household

The man who used to be there for me now no longer feel comfort from him, even Mas Arif rarely go home just a few times in one week, it was just to give milk to our daughter.

The more he was busy with his world to forget me and his daughter, never again did I demand for the rights of my son but even so he still gave the need for our daughter.

I am increasingly tormented by my situation that no longer knows where it is going. until there is a desire to return to my former world.

At first, Arif still gives a living to my daughter but after the next three months no longer at all give a living for me and my son.

Until I was forced to finally go back to work like before even though it was not in the place of mba Wiwin anymore.

Now I have to go back to work in the world of night in one of the batak cafes in the Bekasi area.even though we are required to dress modestly, people still look at us one eye.

"I'm sorry my son who now has to go back to what he used to be to provide for you and my grandmother. "my tears in my heart want me to scream tonight.