The Turkish Male Charm

Retry

The conversation at the cafe this afternoon with Rudy still crossed my mind. Highlight his eyes were filled with sadness, his face that looked very disappointed and hit when he found out that I was married, still reflected very clearly in my memory.

But what power, I already have a husband, even though my household is currently on the edge, not necessarily I will accept Rudy back into my life, I must keep my honor as a wife. So far, I've been trying to fix all the mess that's been going on between me and my husband.

I saw Arges who was in the tv room, I stepped my feet intending to approach him. Arges was sitting on a brown sofa and was busy reading a book he seemed to have just bought. I wrapped my hand around Arges's shoulder, hugging him from behind.

"Hi, canim." I said as I kissed her head.

He just kept quiet, didn't answer my greeting and was still busy reading. Honestly I was disappointed, Arges deliberately ignored me.

But I put aside my disappointment and sat next to her, I stroked her curls.

"Darling, I've prepared your favorite meal. Want to eat now?" I was hoping Arges would be happy if I made him his favorite food.

"Later on, I'll sleep now" he replied coldly, then he got up from his seat and left me alone.

I exhaled my upset breath. I have been trying for months to reverse the situation as before. But it always fails.

I followed her into the room, intending to ask what I should do in order to repair the broken household. Like a glass, the glass cracks are very much and vulnerable to break, if one touch just a little then the glass will break apart.

"Darling, what do I have to do to get us back to what we used to be?" my many.

"What are you talking about?" ketus answer.

"We're okay, aren't we?" he answered without looking at me, his gaze focused on the tv screen in front of him.

I was silent to my husband's answer. Then I sat down next to Arges and hugged him. There was no response he gave, he just kept watching tv. Although I'm sure his heart and mind are raging right now.

Sadness runs through my body and makes me feel very weak. My husband who used to be very considerate of me, pampering me, his gaze which always kept me calm, always hugging and kissing me, is now like a stranger who is living under one roof with me.

Upon learning that Arges couldn't give me a child, our relationship fell apart. To be honest, I had not had the spirit of life for a month after that incident, it was very difficult for me to accept this harsh reality, I applied for a leave of absence to Sara, I need time alone to calm my mind. Even so I still try to carry out my duties as a wife, such as preparing food, cleaning the house, watering plants, preparing work clothes and others, just that I am not cheerful as usual. It only took a while until everything was back to normal as usual. After a month, I began to accept the reality.

But unlike my husband, since that incident, Arges never touched me again. The last time she hugged me was when I cried holding the test results we got. I still remember his last hug and as I cried in the days that followed, Arges looked like he was ignoring me, pretending not to know. If it was me who hugged her, she hurriedly avoided me.

In addition, he always went to work and went home until late at night, when he arrived at home he immediately cleaned himself and slept, he said, his sleep was always behind me or he preferred to sleep in the living room or the sofa tv room.

I asked him several times about his totally changed attitude, but he was reluctant to answer my question. He just kept quiet every time I asked him.

Feeling tired of what happened at home, I finally looked for other activities outside the home, almost every day after work, after hours, I go to cafes to write short stories or take hours to teach tutoring, I'll come to their houses if anyone needs it and I'll just go home if the hour hand shows at eight or nine, actually all this I do is just to avoid the things that make me sad, because when I'm at home, I feel very depressed and make my head hurt.

Things like this also happened for a long time, it did not feel like six months our household relationship was not very good.

After I realized, we had been selfish long enough and avoided what we should be facing.