The Turkish Male Charm

Heart-Wrenching Statement

It had been six months since the sad incident where I knew that Arges could not give me a child, and I had not talked to him for a long time, our relationship had become very cold. We spent more time outside, avoiding seeing each other. Argese doesn't touch me anymore. It's okay, I understand his feelings. I don't talk much either, yeah, just talk as necessary.

This afternoon after work, I stopped by the cafe near the school where I worked. The cafe is small, simple and very comfortable. I sat on the maroon-colored sofa by the window, enjoying a hot chocolate and a piece of cheesecake. The laptop that I brought from home was already brightly lit in front of me, I busied myself to write a short story, right.

"Excuse me" greet someone using Indonesian.

"Yes?" I spontaneously answered using Indonesian, because only this time there was someone who greeted me using Indonesian during my stay in the city of Mardin, Turkey.

"Yasmine, that's you. At first I hesitated to greet you, now you really are like a Turkish woman" Rudy said with his trademark smile.

"Hi, Rudy. Are you here again?" much

"Can join?" ask Rudy

"Oh yeah, go ahead." I let Rudy join me. He sat across from me.

"I happened to stop by here after work. I love the hot chocolate in this cafe" Rudy said, showing the glass in his hand.

"Yes right, I think the best hot chocolate in the city of Mardin haha" I said with a chuckle

"You haven't come home after work?" ask her while drinking her chocolate.

"Yes" I replied blandly.

"Oh yeah, did you give me the wrong phone number? I called you a few months ago, but there was no reply" Rudy said

Hmm I slightly frowned, trying to remember, ah. I completely forgot not to return the message, my inner self.

"It seems I forgot to reply to your message, sorry" I said regretfully.

"Haha it's okay" replied Rudy accompanied by his laughter which made him look even more handsome. He is indeed getting handsome, his neat sideburns complement his handsome face more.

"You're going to stay in Mardin for a long time?" much

"Hmm now it's been 7 months in Mardin, there's still one more month here. After that, go back to Indonesia" he said

"Not yet, only had time to Istanbul for work purposes. Yeah how else, I came to Turkey to work. Do you remember when we dreamed of going to Turkey for our honeymoon?" asked Rudy laughing. I laughed and was embarrassed.

I was embarrassed to hear it, amused to hear it, the teenage years, me and him in the last year we dated, had knit dreams together, to get married and honeymoon in Turkey, he said, we both like the Turkish state.

"We're not on our honeymoon, we don't make the dream come true, but fate says something else, destiny brings us back together after years of separation and never meeting, we accidentally met again here. In Mardin, Turkey" Rudy said with a smile. He looked at me for a moment. Either there's a sense that there used to be a time like this. His old look always made me smile.

"Ah yaa.really so. I never met you after we broke up, all these years, you're in front of me again now" I replied, then I looked into her eyes for a moment, then I lowered my gaze.

"Can I talk to you about something?" ask Rudy

"Yes" I answered briefly

"After you decided to part with me. I feel so heartbroken. I'm really disappointed in you, Yasmine. But I'm trying to continue my daily life well, I think you're just my monkey love, teenage love. But I realized that I really love you, all these years I couldn't forget you, until I was trying to get a scholarship in Turkey, hoping to get a job in Turkey, too, in order that someday when I see you again, I will marry you and bring you to live with me, I will make our dream of honeymoon in Turkey come true. You were my first love, Yasmine. There's nothing else in my heart." Rudy explained.

My eyes are teary, my heart is not ready, not to accept Rudy or reject him, but my heart is fragile at the moment. Why do I have to meet him at a time like this? I know I love him a lot, but that was before. Now I'm a wife. My love is only for my husband. I'm unmoving. My hand just silently held my brown glass which was now cold.

"I.."my words stopped. I don't know what I have to say right now.

"Are you married, Yasmine?" asked Rudy, his handsome face was now shrouded in anxiety.

Again, I couldn't say anything, I just nodded my head.

Rudy bowed lethargic, his countenance was very disappointed. Like someone with a broken heart. I tried to muster up my courage to explain the truth to Rudy.

"I married a Turk, Rud. That's why I'm here now. I've lived in Mardin for almost six years. Ii'm sorry. I wasn't waiting for you. It's just that I had time to look for you after we split up, I wanted to come back to you, but I didn't manage to find you, your friends told me they couldn't tell me where you were. I know, I was wrong to have severed our relationship, which is why I was finally able to accept when I couldn't see you again. For years I waited for you, hoping to meet you again and be able to build a relationship with you again, because I really love you. But fate says otherwise, I met a man, who is now my husband, he always assured me that he could make me happy. He really fought to get me and win my heart. We finally got married. Our marriage has been running for almost six years." I explained to Rudy, a circle of tears fell on my cheeks without me knowing, I was not able to continue my sentence.

"Congratulations, Yasmine. I'm sorry I said this while you were married." replied Rudy smiling, but I saw the look in his eyes filled with sadness.

"I'm sorry, Rudy." That's all I can say.

"I'll go first. Thank you for being with me." I said as I tidied up my laptop and said goodbye to Rudy.