The Shadow of Semu Love

You deserve to be happy

After driving me home, my son said goodbye. The man reasoned that he still had other business, so could not stop by for a long time to talk to my family. 

I am in my room now. Many times I have seen some goodie bags containing groceries bought by the Son. A sudden taste disturbed my heart and mind. 

"You're kind, considerate, gentle and thoughtful. Your parents also accepted me with a big heart. Are you someone God has destined for me, Put?" 

As I was thinking about my Son and his family, suddenly my door opened, Mother appeared from there. I throw a smile at the woman who gave birth to me. 

Mom sat next to me. The old woman pulled me into her arms. His wrinkled hands also caressed the top of my head lovingly. 

"Thank you, Tasya" said Mother suddenly. 

I let go of my embrace to Mom, then looked up to see the face of the woman who had raised me. It looks like the shade is glazed, like weeping. 

"Mother crying?" ask me Mom. 

Mother shook her head, then pulled me back into her warm embrace. "Mom didn't cry" said Mother. However, with a slightly trembling voice. 

I know, Mom must have held back the crying. But what makes you cry? Did you come back to scold Mom for me?

"Mom don't lie, Mom. Tasya knows, I must be having a problem, right?" I ask behind this warm embrace. 

Mother pushed my body slowly, until our faces looked at each other. I could clearly see that the old lips were shaking. His shady netra also showed sadness. 

"Mom's not crying, I'm just hoping you can be happy, honey." 

"Tasya happy if Mom doesn't cry," I said trying to smile as sweetly as possible. 

"Thank you for being a good boy, Shay. I am grateful to have you" said Mother. 

We hugged for quite a while. Trying to strengthen each other. I know, I must feel guilty for my match with the Son. However, I never blame the woman who is now holding me for all the fate that happened. 

*****

It was late at night, and I slept in my sleep. Tiredness and a lot of thoughts made my body drift into a dream. Suddenly I felt someone wake me up from a dream. 

"Tasya." The sound was blissful in my hearing. 

Not long after, my body felt shaken slowly. I slowly opened my two eyelids. I could faintly see someone sitting next to me with their eyes pointed at me. 

'Who is he?' 

"Tasya, hey, get up!" 

I slowly rubbed both my eyelids. The view that was still vague, is now starting to clear. I was immediately shocked when I saw who was sitting sweetly on this bed. I sat down with eyes full of wonder. 

"Sister!" I screamed with my eyes glaring. 

"Why? Shocked, huh?" ask without guilt. 

"Sister, what, right here?" many wonder. 

I looked towards the door, still closed, even the key was still there with a locking position. Now take a look at Risqi. The man who had been in my heart. 

"Sister kangen," he said softly. 

"Where did he enter?" my question is still astonished. 

I'm getting confused. How not, suddenly there was a figure that I missed so much in my room. I want to hug that body with love. However, my mind turned out to remember that this man before me was already different in the world from me. 

"It seems that brother is not the only one in your heart anymore, yes," he said suddenly. 

Instantly I looked at Brother Risqi with sad eyes. Yes, I realized that at this time my heart was starting to melt by the figure of the Son, the man who would accompany me through life. 

"Big brother angry?" ask her. 

She nodded, her lips smiling so sweetly. "Sister is happy, because eventually you will no longer be fixated on the past. Remember, Deck. Brother is no longer there, you have the right to continue your life," said Risqi. 

"Silent brother if there is someone who owns my soul and body?" my question is full of search. 

"of course. Brother knows he's a good man. You don't have to worry about what's going on. Just follow the destiny God has given us" he replied wisely. 

"But, is my decision to accept him appropriate, brother?" I ask still with doubt. 

Kaka Risqi smiled widely. "You can ask your own heart, Deck. You can also see from the seriousness of him approaching you," replied Risqi without burden. 

I was still speechless, thinking that what Kak Risqi said was indeed true. Maybe it's time to open my heart. After all the Son was a gentle man. His family can also accept me with a chest. 

"Daddy, our world is different. Do not hope for the impossible anymore. Brother will still wait for you in heaven, but you also have the right to continue your life in the world. Be a good woman who does not fall easily. You are the only angel in my life, Dek," said Kak Risqi at length. 

"Sister!" 

"Silver, yes," he said as he got out of my bed. 

"Sister, where are you going?" my question screamed as Brother Risqi continued walking towards the door, then disappeared just like that. 

I flinched, then opened my eyes quickly. My breath was hunting like a ghost had just been chased. My chest was up and down, my entire body was also filled with cold sweat. 

Netraku stared straight at the door. It was there that Risqi suddenly disappeared after advising me. "It turned out to be just a dream" I said as I held my chest still up and down. 

Look towards the wall clock. It turns out it's still early morning. I moved, then came out of the room and walked towards the bathroom, intending to take ablution and perform tahajud. 

I performed the prayer, then offered a prayer for someone who had just met me in a dream. I thank him for allowing me to continue my future with the man who will replace him. 

*****

The next day, I called my son. The man was teaching at an elementary school. I was forced to abandon my intention to ask him to take me somewhere. However, at noon the son suddenly came to the house. 

Now we are sitting face to face on the porch of the house. I pretended to be playing a cell phone, while she was still looking at me with lips commenting on a smile. 

"You mad?" askinya. 

"No" I answered briefly. 

"If you're not angry, why keep playing?" ask again. 

"Again kangen someone," I replied without taking my eyes off the phone screen. 

Suddenly Son snatched my phone, then scrolled the phone screen. Her lips twitched, I don't know what it means I don't know either. 

"So this is the guy who made it hard for you to move on, huh?" he asked with a grin on his lips.