The Shadow of Semu Love

Explanation

"You misunderstood. I'm not the kind of person who likes to judge people physically" I said to the man. 

At first glance I saw the man's lips smiling faintly. He seemed to have underestimated my words just now. Does he not believe that I never look at people based solely on the physical?

"It's good that it's like that. But why did you reject me?" ask the man. 

I was quiet for a long time. My heart is worried, should I tell my true story? But, he's a nobody. He also has no right to know anything about my past. 

"I need a good reason to accept your rejection" he said.

Instantly I looked at him. I stared at the face of the man who was looking at me right now. "You really want to know why?" my many. 

"Yes. I wonder what the reason that made you kuckoo want to reject me. There are a lot of women out there chasing me. I'm a teacher and I'm well-established" she replied, exposing her advantages. 

I'm still staring at that face. There is not a hint of joking. The man seriously wanted to know the reason I rejected him. But I still doubt. 

"Say or do I not care about your refusal?" He threatened me. 

"If I say, will you accept my refusal?" tanyaku. I wanted to know the answer from her, so that I could decide to cover up or open up the wounds in my past. 

"Depends on your reasons. If it comes to logic, I will accept it" he replied without taking his eyes off. 

I turned my eyes forward. No longer looking at the face of the man whom my father had set me. For a moment I took a deep breath with my eyes closed. Enjoying the shadow of the love that is happening in my life. I reopen my two netraku. 

"I love another man" I said, then looked back at the man who was my future husband. 

"Did that man love you too?" The man threw the question back. 

I forced these lips to smile as I remembered about Brother Risqi. "He loves me in his own way" I said, looking away. 

"You think we can fight destiny?" 

"meaning?" 

"God has taken him away from me" I explained in short words. However, it is easy to understand. 

"He died?" 

"Yes. He died two years ago, and tragically I was completely absent when he took his last breath." My tears can't hold. She skated as she lamented her departure. 

The mood became quiet. Me and the man were both silent. However, his gaze was still on me. He felt sorry when he found out about my story. 

"Sorry" he said suddenly. 

"Why apologize?" 

"Because I have opened your old wounds" he replied with a sad look on his face. 

Immediately I guessed a trace of tears on my cheek. I forced these lips to smile, though this heart felt pain not play. 

"We are only human beings who have to accept destiny. Man has a plan, but God determines it. Even though she's not my match, but I'm still trying to keep my love for her" I said, holding back tears from falling back. 

"But you have the right to continue your life, Shay. You can't keep going like this. He would be sad if he knew you were torturing yourself like this" the man replied. 

"Then in your opinion, I must betray his true love. That so?"