The Secret of the Heart (Loving My Brother)

Chapter 17

Zara was stunned to hear the words of the woman before her. Likewise with Kennan, he did not expect, but in his heart cheered, like wanting to jump around expressing his joy. Not yet known by Kennan, that Zarapun already had the intention to cancel his ta'aruf.

"Wedding?"

Karisa smiled wryly "More precisely a while ago"

Zara was further confused by his words.

Again the woman smiled, no matter what the smile meant, Zara frowned, staring fixedly at her face

"A while ago?" zara asked confused

"Now it is the former, because a few days ago, Joseph canceled it"

Still not believing Karisa's words, Zara did not respond to his words.

"A few days ago, what after Joseph came first to the house, and I was chosen, after he broke off his engagement"

"She broke off our engagement after knowing that I couldn't have children" Karisa continued to break Zara's daydreams and make her even more surprised. "And after I found out, it turns out he was also undergoing ta'aruf with mbak Zara"

"Call Zara only" sambar Zara quickly.

"I was very angry, because it turned out that Joseph could not accept my shortcomings, but after my family advised me, I understood and at that moment I positioned myself as Joseph's mas"

"Did Karisa come to see me to make me cancel my ta'aruf with her?" ask Zara full of questions

The woman nodded "Secuil anger is certainly there" he said "And I want to repay Yusuf's actions to me, but," Karisa hung up like judging Zara's figure.

"But what is mbak?"

"But after I saw you, I felt inferior myself"

"Why?" Zara asked while linking her hands together

"Bak is beautiful, and seems good, I think mbak is indeed more appropriate to be chosen by men like mas Yusuf" Karisa Inhaled deeply, trying to normalize her feelings before continuing her speech "And then I forgot my original purpose of meeting the shoot"

There was pain in Zara's heart. Just about to establish a relationship, precisely the man started it with a lie. It is only fitting that besides Kennan be the main reason for Zara not to continue his ta'aruf, as if Zara has a strong instinct that the choice on Yusuf is not right.

"I'm sorry to interrupt my time" he said, upholding Zara's "resteady seat, I'll cancel my plans to derail your relationship"

"Other than myself, is there any other reason why I suddenly dropped my initial intention of seeing me?"

"There" he replied emphatically "I feel unworthy of vengeance, where I was born to a family who knew exactly about religion"

"But before I could see me, I also intended to end my ta'aruf with Joseph's mas"

"Why?" ask Karisa wonder

"After 2 meetings with Joseph, I tried hard to open my heart to receive it, but still could not"

Karisa increasingly does not understand Zara's words "Why?" the question repeated

"I love other men"

In addition to Karisa who was surprised by Zara's words, the man who had eavesdropped on her conversation was no less surprised.

"Mas sure the man must be Za" Inner Kennan who was still sitting behind Zara's back

"Is that so?" karisa's question was accompanied by a movement of Kennan who stood up to return to his room. It was enough for Kennan to eavesdrop on the two girls' conversation.

"Once again I'm sorry" he concluded, "my initial goal was not good, but after I really saw mbak Zara, I realized my actions were wrong"

"I'm sorry" he said again

"I'm not at a loss, so there's no need to apologize"

******

As soon as Karisa, Zara was intending to return to her desk, she thought about how unlucky she was, even failing twice.

"Mbak Widia" Zara said, they met when Zara came out of the elevator

"Za, I just went to your desk earlier, and since you're not there, the file you asked me to put on the table, you check again the margin difference with last month, you check again, after that, you can immediately submit it to Mr. Ken to be signed"

"Good mbak"

"Then I'll excuse Za, there's still a lot of work"

"Yes mbak"

The sound of the door awakened Zara from the daydream. His gaze was straight on the computer screen, but the brief encounter with Karisa really messed up his head "Za, the file from Widia is already on you?" ask Kennan

"I'm checking back"

"Here let the check" Kennan walked around and stood beside Zara who was sitting

"Not to bother anymore is also done"

"But it will not be finished if you do it while daydreaming Za" he said. " Let's stand up for correction" Because Kennan forced, making Zara unable to refute.

Zara complied and gave her seat to Kennan.

"Hemm" said Kennan without looking at him.

Zara deliberately lingered in the toilet, she was not ready to face Kennan who would definitely re-track his heart rhythm.

For more than ten minutes, Zara came out of the toilet, she did not find Kennan on her desk, which means that the man had finished checking his work. But when he had just reached the table, he saw a piece of paper with Kennan's handwriting.

"After going to the toilet, go straight to the bathroom"

Zara grumbled after reading her short message. He tried to neutralize the nervousness that had suddenly taken hold of him, before entering his mental examination room.

"Sit Za" Kennan commands while clicking the close button on the monitor screen.

Just sitting down, Kennan had already put away the chair next to Zara and was sitting on the edge of the table.

With a position like this, making Zara instantly remember some time ago.

A little pressing, Kennan touched Zara's chin to look her in the face "What do you need your friend to see you?"

Zara silently looked at Kennan, only this time Zara stared at Kennan for so long. Until then Kennan pulled Zara's hand slowly to stand in front of him, right in the middle between the left and right legs of Kennan.

Kennan's hands held Zara's hands.

"Is there something you're thinking about?" ask again.

"Do I have to tell you?" I don't know why Zara's mind became this calm.

Kennan sighed right in front of his face "If it weighs on you, you should share it with me"

Zara swallowed her saliva, reluctant to tell her what Karisa had told her.

"Eat it" said Kennan calmly "Don't get used to keeping your own problems" His hand that was holding Zara's hand, now turned to summarize his face "So this is it?" your work was a mess" Kennan took a deep breath, then exhaled slowly "After the woman meets you, do you still want to continue your ta'arufmu?"

"Kok did you know?" zara asked, squinting her eyes.

"Mas knows everything, because I was sitting behind you"

"Kas nguping?"

Kennan nodded, "Karisa know the mas there?"

"Might not know, right?" ask Kennan back

"She doesn't suspect you're nagging?"

"Well, I'm pretending to be a guest"

"Ish" Desih Zara

"Za" call Kennan lock Zara's eyes "Mas your love"

Somehow Zara's voice seemed to be stuck in the esophagus, so she was still unable to say I love you too.

They were both silent and just staring at each other.

For a second, Kennan's lips touched Zara's lips. Kiss it very gently. A calm and deep kiss, unknowingly, Zara returned the kiss.

Whether since when, knowing Kennan had stood up made Zara a little tiptoe. A few seconds passed, and the kiss came off.

"Without you answering it" said Kennan with his forehead still clinging to each other "Mas know that you also love the same mas"

Silent

"If you don't love the same, you won't return a kiss"

"If your mother knew, they would definitely scold us"

"This is the first and last, mas promise"

"Not the first?"

"When did they do it?"

"Last night" Zara replied

"No, I just touched it"

"Just like a sin"

"Allah is forgiving, we will both repent"

"But you have to be serious about repentance"

Kennan chuckled, still not changing his position. Cupping both hands on Zara's cheeks with her eyebrows stuck together, and Zara's hand holding Kennan's wrist "Back from Thailand, I'll find the right time to talk to my dad, if you love you"

Seriate

Regards

Ane