The Second Wife

Part 086 # Love Dilemma

The night is getting darker, the stars are not scattered. Maybe also sad because of the problems that are happening to a husband and wife.

He was standing with his hands holding on to the iron trellis. His head looked up at the sky in the sky.

There was nothing dark there. Even a single star blip was invisible. Is it really the desire of a pregnant wife?

Still clearly remembered by her, the words of the husband this afternoon before leaving her. Still ringing the painful sentence, to make the tears that he thought had run out now come back out.

The regret of her being so easily let down and willing to accept everything now swirled in thought. Feeling to be the most bo do h person who easily complies. But unfortunately everything has happened, he can what now. Besides destroying everything.

"If only, you used to divorce me. Now we won't be among the dilemmas of the heart, Al," the woman said in the night's silence.

"You know, I love you right now and I should be able to let you go because I know, it feels like waiting for that turn hurts. Let Alifa feel the beauty of living together with you without having time to wait."

Yasmine was still talking to herself, speaking at the stillness of the night that calmed the heart. Accompanied by tears and gaping wounds. Wounds that will always be there when the heart is not sincere in everything.

He has given his love affairs to the Almighty, but in fact the human heart still can not fully resigned. He was still upset and wondered why. Maybe true, if between sincere and patient it is not easy to just do.

The pregnant woman stood there. In the afternoon, he spent time alone. Do not talk to anyone, once together with other people only when eating. For the sake of making all his dearest people not too worried about him.

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Tonight besides Yasmine, Alfin is the same. He stood on the balcony in the silence of the night. He immediately got out of bed after hearing the fine snoring of the wife.

It feels so sad, his love for both wives confused about a choice. Looks like he needs to talk to Abi and Umi. He cannot solve this problem alone. He also needs to talk so that he feels a little light. Not as burdened as it is today. His heart and mind seemed to be overwritten by such a huge stone, making it hard to breathe let alone think.

Many times the man exhaled a rough breath, but was unable to relieve his heart. Although he was a man, but his tears still came out when he remembered what he wanted and said the second wife.

After the magrib, he decided to go home when the first wife called him back and forth because she was worried that she had not returned. Of course, Alfin did not tell what Yasmine was trying to do. He said not for now, maybe later.

Although Alifa repeatedly asked 'why' to him, but he always answered another. Like, "i'm just tired, honey. That's why I'm silent," he said earlier when the wife had asked for the umpteenth time.

"Mas" call Alifa from the inside. Alfin turned to his wife.

Alifa approached and stood next to her. "What's up, Mom? It seems that you are not doing well" he asked, looking at the handsome face of the husband.

Alfin breathed out slowly, smiling. "I'm okay, honey. Why are you awake?" ask the man back.

"Come, Mas. I feel strange, like something's stuck in here" he pointed to his chest. "Like a sense of worry, and fear," continued Alifa. "I'm as if I'm making a big mistake, which I don't know what's wrong, myself" he said.

"Is there something you're hiding from me, Mom?" alifa asked in her husband's arms.

"No one" replied Alfin.

Alifa nodded, 'perhaps a work matter that left her unable to sleep, ' she said in her heart.

It was not usual for Alfin to behave like this, that was why Alifa was astonished. Usually every time there is a problem, her husband will always tell her. Neither work problems nor any other problems. And this all made Alifa curious, but to ask back was impossible.

Then the two were both silent, in a hug that did not feel warm. It just feels comfortable. Perhaps it was because in their hearts there was a sense of worry that could not be explained in words.

After a long time, Alfin invited the wife to continue sleeping before waking up to pray. Actually the man can not sleep, he just lay the body without sleeping.

In his mind was full of sad faces of his two wives. In his heart wondered, 'are the two really equally tormented?' so I asked in my heart.

Alifa's sad shadow danced in her mind, the same as Yasmine's image this afternoon who looked laughing but full of tears.

The man was very sure, both Yasmine and Alifa just did not want to hurt each other. However, Yasmine's curiosity according to him was truly outrageous. He did not think that his second wife could be so sure of separation. Which of course he would not easily accept.

He needs a definite explanation, and he will talk later with the two after asking for advice from Abi and Umi.

He also did not stop thinking of his mother-in-law who was ordinary about Yasmine's wishes, as if those desires were trivial things. Don't they think about the feelings of this dilemma man, he asked in his heart.

Again Alfin exhaled a rough breath, then as soon as the regular breath was again heard by Alifa. He sat down, turning his back on his wife's body.

In his seat, he looked at the ring that had been filled with three names. The three names he hoped would last forever, until death do them part.

"I'm not going to let you go, Ay. You should know that" he said to the name of the one inside the ring, the thing he had just removed.

Then he put the ring back on his right ring finger, he kissed the little thing. Things that have been engraved three names.

"Hope you know, Yas. If to part with you is the same as you kill me slowly. Because neither Alifa nor you, you are now in every breath. Can't just walk away, except the will of the Divine."

The words that Alfin had just spoken, were heard carefully by Alifa. He who had just pretended to sleep knew what was going on in the heart of his husband.

'What does Alfin mean, Yas? Do you, ' said Alifa in a heart that he was unable to continue. He does not want to guess bad things. 'No,' the woman continued inwardly.