
I'm getting traumatized by my own dreams. I looked at Einy's face, did my son feel the impact too? because some nights he was also often delirious. I became more worried about him. I was confused what should I do?
Even the application of Surah Quran if stopped in the middle of the night will make me have nightmares again. I'm getting worse with this situation. I tried to pour out my heart to Mas Jain.
"Makanya, pray dong dong dek..you, pray aja still perforate." He said while sleeping in front of the television.
"Yes mas... why does it feel so hard to pray??"
"Don't be half-and-half dong, if earlyatin yes definitely loon to deck."
I became sad to hear what Mas Jain said. But I am also surprised, why lately I have been lazy to do prayer?
Even when my chest is pounding, I prefer to leave the prayer. I should try more, but how am I? Not to mention my dreams about Einy, all of this really frustrates me.
Today mas Jain is off work, the three of us just relax at home and sleep. I tried to pray with my fan as usual. With great difficulty, I tried to do the dzuhur prayer. If I do not pray ashar later, I will be mocked again by mas Jain.
When I finished praying, I just opened youtube trying to figure out how to get rid of magic. And when I scroll the screen down, I find a video of an ustad with the title 'eliminate magic, moody and santet'.
I tried to open the video, at the beginning of the video shows the sufferer experiencing possession. After that the ustad recited the do'a that was chanted only in Indonesian.
And are you what happened to me?
When the ustad started praying, I went to sleep??? yeah, I'm not wrong anymore I did sleep, my eyes are very sleepy and sticky. But my ears can still hear the do'a spoken by the ustad. I can't clearly understand what the Ustad said. I'm soaking hearing his voice.
About 5 minutes the ustad was praying in Indonesian, right after he said 'amiinn' ended his do'a-do'a, I woke up from my sleep. Whyyy??? I don't understand either.
I just need to try it again later. I waited patiently to watch it again, but I had to lift my clothesline because it was raining.
I took my clothesline, I saw that Mbah's son-in-law was also lifting the clothesline. Although our distance was only 4-5 meters, we did not greet each other at all.
I went inside the house and played the Sharia Qur'an application using a rather loud speaker so that it echoed throughout the house.
Until Maghrib, I did not stop playing the application. And when the Maghrib prayer time came, I tried not to get sleepy and do the prayer.
I put the phone next to me and I did the prayer. When I finished, I read the short letter and prayed. I still did not move from my prayer mat and continued to listen to the do'a of the ustad I saw yesterday on youtube.
The Ustad began his do'a by begging for forgiveness for the patient's sins. The Ustad also said sins were a hindrance to a do'a.
Maybe I should do what the Ustad said. Many patients have recovered by simply listening to his do'a-do'a. I feel like this kind of treatment is more suitable for me. Even though I didn't know whether or not to heal, at least the do'a of the oustad reacted to me.
When the oustad began to recite his prayers using Indonesia, I began to sleepy and almost unconscious.
Wh why?
I don't know either, but this is what happened to me. Until the ustad said the 'amin' sign of do'a was over I regained consciousness.
What the hell happened to me? I can't even hear that do'a ustad clearly.
Whatisthis?