The Love That Is Foreseen

14.trying to find

the morning atmosphere was so scary in my days when the weather did not support my feelings 'when the weather refused I tried to find.

today's plan I want to find more info about leon with moana and eagle, but the weather really does not allow me to find info about leon weather out there heavy rain and lightning, but the weather is really not,I could only get stuck in my window watching the rain fall.

"zah let's eat son" said the mother holding my shoulder, I shook my head.

"zahra come on zahra nantik you sick, you eat a little yes son" said the mother persuaded.

"well ma'am, we're eating" I said.

(towards the dining table).

" here to sit "mom said.

" yes ma'am" I tried to smile.

"eat yes son, even if a little, a lot that bleaches you out there son" said the mother.

"yes ma'am, Zahra eat ya ma'am" I said.

"yes, I want to eat yes, my mother stayed for a while" said the mother and left me.

I didn't actually have a good enough appetite today, but this is all I'm doing for mom so mom doesn't worry about me too much.

"alhamdulillah I've finally finished eating, I'd better go back to the room" I said.

(into the room).

"when did the rain stop" I said again looking at the window.

"good zahra while the rain has not subsided you should do positive things, such as drawing for example" I said excited.

finally I spend my time drawing, drawing is one of my activities when I am bored or sad, even though I am sad I can not be creative in life,whatever my condition, I have to be creative and optimistic.

'3 hours passed'.

(tock...tok...tok.).

"zahra son.beyond there is already an eagle as moana is waiting for you" heard the voice of mother from behind the door.

"yes ma'am, tell them to wait for me for a moment, Zahra wants to get ready first ma'am" I said.

"good boy, don't be long let them hunt away" said the mother.

" yes ma'am" I said

(i'm getting ready).

after I get ready I then leave the room.

"so long for zah" said Moana.

"he's patient Napa" I said.

"iya-iya" said moana.

"yuk left again, the rain has subsided as well" I said excitedly .

"yawah yuk" said the eagle.

"tumben you brought a lang car" I said smiling.

"there is no way we ride the honda alone, you have not much to ride the story directly yuk" said the eagle.

"yes yes yaudah yuk" said Moana.

I paused for a moment looking at the eagle,

"actually you are good lang, very good but I am stupid can not repay your feelings lang, sorry I am lang, you deserve the best other than me" I said in my heart.

"what happened to you there, hurry in" said Moana telling me to come in.

"yes yes" I said by directly entering the car.

then you search for information about the eagle, but still can not get.

"zah wants to find where else, we've been around this" said moana complaining.

"patience and patience wait a little while longer" I said trying to persuade.

"okay okay" said moana.

"thank you na" I said smiling.

"yes together".moana.

we continued our search.

" uh uh wait a moment "my words tell me to stop.

"why zah??" moana asked.

"wait for me to see which army knows it's Leon" I said .

" where maybe zah, where maybe Leonkan is still there doing his job there , where maybe he's suddenly here" said moana forbid me down.

"i'm not sure it's leon" I said then down.

when I got outside I went straight to the army.

"leon" I said patting her on the shoulder.

(he's facing me).

"eh not sorry-sorry mas" I said embarrassed because of the wrong people.

(i got back in the car"

"leon where are you" I said holding my head.

"zahra patient zah, we already eat first yes" said moana persuaded.

"i don't have an appetite" I said, still sad.

"come on zah, you are sick" he said again persuaded.

"okay yes" I said.

we also look for cafes around here.

"zah yuk yuk eat yuk" said the eagle.

"iya zah yul down" said moana.

"iya-iya calm I will go down" I said smiling.

"zah patient yes" said the concerned eagle.

"hmmmmm yes" I said briefly.

"excite yes zah,gue sure you can" said moana encouraged.

"you are calm, I'm okay" I said reassuringly while my heart was still sad.

"anyways you should keep the spirit yes" said the eagle.

"yes yes I will keep my spirit I can not give up anyway" I said excitedly.

"that's dong zah" said Moana.

"thank you we are the best friends who are always there when I am sad again, thank you" I said.

"yeah together" they said.

"you continue to eat yuk" said the eagle and we nodded his words.

(we continue our meal).

"alhamdulillah has finished this" said Moana.

"yes" said the eagle.

"yes" I said briefly.

"how do you feel, want to continue again??" ask moana.

"i went straight home" I replied.

"yeah yuk we go" said the eagle.

(the three of us left the cafe"

"zah lo gk papakan, we both worry about you" said moana kawatir.

"go no papa moana" said I smiled again.

"yeah, let's get in the car".he said an eagle.

" yes lang" said I entered with moana.

along the way I could only notice the darkening atmosphere out there and I wished I could meet leon one day.

"zah" said moana holding my shoulder.

"iya na" I said in shock.

"it must still be a thought" he said.

" actually if I can be honest yes na,gue is still very thoughtful" I said sadly.

"zahra come on you will be strong you can certainly" he said trying to give me spirit.

"my son of anahin" I said.

"must dong" said moana smiling.

"yes I tried" I said briefly.

"smile dong" said moana.

"that's it" I said smiling.

"that's dong, that's the new zahra name that I know" he said embracing my shoulder.

"hey girl" said the eagle interjected.

"sook lo lang english" said moana.

"hehehehe once did not papakan, the kits have arrived" said the smiling eagle.

"yeah yes, until unconscious" I smiled.

"how do you realize the end of you really fun talking to both" said the eagle again smiling.

"yeah lang lu kayak do not know the affairs of aja girls" said moana

"yes yes I understand" said the cengengesan eagle.

"i've come down again" I smiled.

"iya zah" said the eagle.

"thank you so much lang na already want to help me all day long" I said thank you.

"yes, relax" said the eagle.

"iya zah just relax" said moana interjected.

"i went straight in first yes,bye moana eagle" said my pamit.

"bye" said the two of them.

I also went into the house, not like usually, I went straight into the room without having to talk to my father and mother for a moment.

"argh.." I said throw a pillow.

"you know our Leon is very bad tai gak" I said again sadly.

I kept staring at the direction Leon gave me.

"leon look at it, I'll prove I can move on from you see" I said.

"zahra calmly take a breath out and now you take ablution then pray" I said back to myself.

I then took ablution and performed prayers.

"o Allah, I want you to meet me one day with someone who deserves my heart, O God" I said in my prayer

(amen).

then I tried to sleep in my bed it took me a long time to sleep, and finally I started to clench and my eyes were still looking at the leon-given bracelet, I fell asleep.

... *......*...

" you may come but don't inflict this kind of wound on me, because it's really painful without your word, and I miss you".

... ~zahra...