The Love Rhyme of Kawa

SCK 21: A Moment of Scratch

The atmosphere is still the same, quiet, quiet and soothing, that is what Kawa has felt since being in this place from the first day until now. Although without luxury, without anything served, but he was so enjoying. Hustle and bustle makes his mood want to rest for a moment, slowly and almost already he forgets the memories with Nadin, a woman who almost became his wife.

Slowly but surely he started to like this place. There was the sound of the roar of a fan twisting in her room, Kawa closed her eyes while lying down. The feeling is traveling, why Zahra? if you make the calculations, anyone will take a look if Zahra and Nadin are much different. It's just that Kawa won't be a big deal. Zahra is different, Zahra is not a girl.

Perhaps Kawa was too confident that Zahra also had the same heart as her, yet she also did not want to rush to a conclusion. There's still a lot of things he has to think about. Zahra herself, who is she really? what about the girl's background? didn't he ever get married? is he ready to get married again? What about Dira? the little girl who made him fall in love with her jolly innocent figure? so what about his family? whether his extended family can accept the state of Zahra. Not only about that, what about the Zahra family, especially Zahra's father who looks not so fond of new people who want to enter his family's life, Kawa felt.

Kawa tried to think about these things, although it was not certain. Zahra's face flashed filled his mind, how the girl's face was so shady but harbored a sadness, the scent of Zahra perfume that seemed to flash in his sense of smell. All about Zahra. How could he be so hypnotized by that girl?

"Did he feel the same way?" he said to himself. Kawa opened her eyes, looking at the ceiling of her room, glare at the bright lights.

Kawa thought back to the things to do, however he was a man, a mature man who should be able to take action. Life isn't just about dating, she's been through it. What was on his mind right now was a serious relationship. Yeah, he's thinking of a wedding. But again, would he be able to get through the things he had thought of earlier?.

Kawa took a deep breath, if Zahra knew who she really was? is that not a problem for Zahra?. Will Zahra stay close to him or stay away from him?

***

Zahra had just offered his long prayers in the third of the night. Kawa's face flashed in her mind since a few days ago, even she had a hard time controlling it. Zahra saw his ring finger, now he was not wearing a ring on the finger that for a while always circular there, providing a barrier wall for anyone who wants to have it. And his father's reaction also seemed different, no longer bothering Zahra to wear it again.

"Did I love her?" he murmured slowly while rubbing his face with his right hand. Then he shook his head slowly, trying his hardest to shake off those feelings. To him, Kawa was far away from him. He thinks he's not worthy of Kawa.

The man he saw first in a stall, his eyes sharp but full of wounds, that was the initial look he saw from Kawa. The man she knew worked as an employee at a minimarket of an octopus business a person she knew. Yeah, who doesn't know Arjuna Group, the octopus of his business everywhere. Even Zahra often sees the owner on the television screen, online news, and newspapers and magazines.

For Zahra, there was no man other than her husband in her life, although she herself did not know Altaf well, but she promised to be faithful. It was then, the fact that he had to face the harsh reality, Altaf left him for good in the field of duty.

Zahra let out a long sigh, her hands still clutching the prayer beads, in her heart humming the asthma of God. He left this to the creator of the universe.

"I don't deserve him" he murmured again. Remembering herself with the status of ever being the wife of an alias widow, despite the fact that she is a girl. "Would I get married? what about Dira? surely he would be sad to lose my existence that was almost always with him?"

The Dira from the baby with him is the main reason for the weight to step, will Dira allow him to be with others? all this time Dira thought she was her real mother. His heart felt strange when he remembered that.

But what if Kawa accepts that? Kawa seems to be very familiar with her little girl Dira, as well as Dira who likes Kawa.

Zahra did not want to reason, even she was afraid of too much hope. He was afraid that reality would hurt because it did not live up to his expectations. His father has not yet made any decisions about his life.

        Hrai is Sunday, where Zahra is on holiday teaching. After performing the morning prayer, he tidied his face and his alphabet, he kept it in the cupboard. Then he tidied up his bed. It is routine he did every day, selepaas tahajud he continued the morning prayers without a break of sleep. Now he was ready to go to the kitchen to cook.

Zahra picked up the vegetables stored in the refrigerator. After that he made a warm drink for his Father and Mother who were already in the family room with his activities, his mother was teaching, while his father sat listening. They will talk lightly afterwards.

Zahra cut the vegetables she was going to cook, Dira who had just come out of the hospital asked for soup to be the menu today in addition to fried chicken. Zahra gladly agreed and obeyed what Dira asked. The little girl missed her cooking. Zahra cut carrots and potatoes and chickpeas, then washed them clean. There was the sound of boiling water, the omen of which were ready to be made a drink. Zahra hit the ginger until it was fibrous. Then he washed it clean, in the dark brown glass was waiting for the pouring of sugar. Her father doesn't like sweet too, neither does his mother. Zahra put the ginger root into the glass, then she poured the hot water inside carefully.

"Baapak already thought about it.." faintly heard in Zahra's ear, apparently Zahra's mother had finished teaching. "Father will release Zahra" he added. There is an unexpressed sense of happiness in Zahra's heart, which means her father will accept the fact that Zahra's husband has been dead.

"What will you do after this?" Bu Latif chimed.

"As you said before, you do not want the incident Airin repeated" he said. The smile that rose from Zahra's lips faded. His father's words hinted that he would later return to be betrothed. Zahra has returned to her dreams...