The Journey The Seasik Roller Coaster

Part 4's

It feels like if a relationship is just fine it will not be as exciting as it is to live. There must be things that are used as a spice in a relationship. Jealousy is the only one, somehow I have a bad feeling about this relationship. Though at the beginning of my relationship with Rian is fine even seen walking together and remind each other.

That is why a void is created in a person. Although already have a heart patch, but still feel less. Often it becomes a conversation that makes everything runyam because one does not want to budge. Even want to win by yourself because of selfishness in yourself. Whether it was me who was less mature, or the Rian who still looked childish.

The problem started when Rian asked me to help fill in his mobile phone pulse. But at the time, I had no money for it. My money was only enough for my needs at that time, so there was a dispute. Just because of a trivial matter, Rian harshly said words that were not worthy of being heard by a woman. I don't know, at that moment my heart was filled to hear those words. Shocked inside without realizing someone I love is able to speak harsh words to me.

After the quarrel between me and Rian, I acted to try and give understanding to Rian. Because it was like that I could not force myself to seek a loan to give credit. I told him the truth, but Rian remained in disbelief and even after speaking harshly he disappeared and gave no news.

I am also like that, when I have given understanding and explanation but all that is not heard even deliberately removed from his hearing. Three days passed, suddenly Rian called me again. I don't know why he's like that either. It was clear that after the fight he kept calling me and apologizing for things he shouldn't have said to me. And my response at that time, I tried to forgive the incident and give a little encouragement to Rian not to repeat his mistake. And Rian also agreed and tried not to repeat his mistake.

Often, these events repeat themselves continuously. Either maybe because of the busyness also that causes Rian never to see me in my city. They rarely meet, only online. And as his successor he always leave any Snack, even the original Snack is sent typical city. Hehe Masya Allah, why the hell is this a very good boy. I said in my heart the foyer smiled and blushed in shame.

Always pray and ask the creator for this relationship may not stop in the middle of the road, but can continue to the guarantee. And being given a good partner like Rian, and a good extended family is a happiness in my life. At the time, I was still living in one of my big families.

When the time came, I had a little problem with one of my extended families. About me staying at his house, the conflict was actually trivial. But it is always being talked about and disputed. Also 5% of my salary for work was set aside to help the situation in the house. Almost every month I was never late to pay but always blamed. There's just something wrong with me. Hehe is right, said people, living with a family that is not a grandmother or even our grandfather will make runyam himself. The effect can be everywhere, the work is a little disturbed. At home it feels runyam and not calm.

Wait for part 5 yupp:)