The Journey The Seasik Roller Coaster
The Part 11
One day while I was chatting with Erviana, I asked about the woman. Because it just so happened that Erviana was quite familiar with the woman. And Erviana explained with her understanding about the woman. He recognized it because the woman had just joined the same office but different cities. Okay all right, a little relieved I heard it. A little lost in the sense of overthing that haunted my mind lately.
I didn't know before, there was no news not even a wind. Rian was cold to me, again and again I was cooled by him. I don't know why I don't know why either. I asked, but the answer was nil. It was completely missed, and okay fine. I just followed the play. He is good, and I am the opposite. Following the flow of where and what it is like is a new thing that I am going through right now.
Until one day, my story about the woman came back. Gusti Allah, what is this. Why does that name always accompany my night in my brain spinning like a familiar. I tried to calm myself down without anyone's knowledge. Even though Rian I didn't dare to tell him. One morning at the office, Erviana was a little suspicious of my behavior, and Erviana casually asked me about it. And with a sigh I replied that everything was fine. There's no problem even if Rian and I, and Erviana, believe in it.
The weekend has arrived. As usual I cooled Rian trying to melt the atmosphere. I tried to contact Rian with all my courage to invite Rian to visit my city. Because it has not been a vacation together for a long time. And Rian's answer surprised me enough, he said he could not take Sunday off because there was a change in work shift. Okay all right, a little stunned I heard the answer. Because with my disbelief in Rian's answer, I tried asking the admin at Rian's office. Coincidentally the admin is quite well aware of Rian's character and Rian's daily life at the office. And what makes me surprised, more surprised turns out this Sunday Rian is off and not unable to take a vacation. Astaghfirullah, shocked at all. Why did he lie to me so much, what was my fault that he acted that way.
I followed Rian's game to what extent he could. The one who promised to stay with me in any condition, who would accompany my sad happy, and who would endure any distance still chose me. Because my belief in him has been tainted with the lies he has done one by one. I know but I'd rather be quiet because I want to keep this relationship going. Because a relationship that has carried the name of the parents is a relationship that is not playful. But a relationship that already knows what the future plan is like and how the flow. Not for any reason to lie for the good though.
Day after day of the inner conflict I went through. Because I'm a woman who doesn't like to tell stories to anyone, even my parents. Enough is saved and later when I can not hold back, then a decision arises from within me. Either it's a good decision or vice versa.
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