THE FLO!

Bag. 19

Brenda and I looked at the big house in front of me. When I entered, I don't know why Brenda was allowed in. Strange indeed, as if Brenda had been to this place many times before. And when I asked him, he switched the conversation. The real me who knew about his relationship with the minister, chose to keep quiet and let him keep it a secret. Anyway, Brenda and I are both grown up and I know if Brenda doesn't want to share it with me then I can't ban it.

"You just wait here. Let me talk to him, "I whispered to Brenda when the woman I think the housekeeper here asked me to follow her to Stella's room. Brenda agreed.

I followed the woman while thinking about what I should ask Stella. It concerns my sister and I need to know the truth. He was my brother's best friend and when I said the words suicide, he was hurt. I need to know about that. My head was raised when I heard the woman calling me.

"Non Stella is inside. He said he was coming in" said the woman. I nodded with thanks and he left me.

I knocked on the door of the room that was in front of me and I opened it when I heard the answer from inside. I saw Stella lying on her bed and her eyes looked sad. I saw his body thinner than the last one I saw. I felt sorry when I saw his face.

"Do I have to ask you why you're here? Please, don't tell me you're anxious" she said with a faint smile that made me smile. He is still sick despite judes.

"Why wasn't I told to go in and start asking?" I said while still standing at the door. He rolled his eyes and told me to come in. I pulled her study chair beside her bed and sat on it.

"Why are you here? You want to punish me again?" stella asked weakly. I raise my eyebrows. Like I was punishing him?

"Why do you think I want to punish you?"

"The one who blames me for Freya's death means punishing me again."

Hearing Freya's name coming out of her mouth, made my face harden. "Why? Do you feel guilty? Did Freya kill herself because of you?"

I saw something coming out of his eyes. Something made me see it. Stella instantly averted her gaze and instead lowered her head. As I repeated my question, he immediately raised his head and looked at me fiercely.

"Yes! I killed him! If only I accepted the fact that Azka didn't like me and I kept my friendship with Freya maybe she wouldn't kill herself!" stella shouted which surprised me. Suddenly he sniffled. "If I hadn't left him! If I hadn't turned my back on her, she probably wouldn't have gotten pregnant and decided to kill herself!"

I looked at Stella but I couldn't get a word out.

"Caesar left me because he felt I made Freya up to it. We promised we wouldn't part but I ruined it! Freya is the only person who can understand me but I left her because of a guy!"

Stella cried out loud. I looked at her and did not want to do anything to comfort her. I want to digest everything that is in front of me right now. For some reason, all the questions I had prepared earlier I immediately forgot.

"Freya is the only person close to me not because of my status. He is close to me because he sincerely loves me. Even when I bully him, he still believes that I will change and become his best friend. Do you think I can live after knowing that I made him look like that?" stella's yelling makes me grimace.

"So that's why you make everyone hate you? So that no one else wants to get close to you because you're afraid to hurt them?" my question is what makes Stella silent.

Stella sobs. "Gue's scared. Ever since Freya left like that, I feel like I'm the worst person. I turned away from him when he needed my help. She's the child her parents are most proud of but because of me, she got pregnant and chose suicide. If only I hadn't bullied him..."

"Why from the start did you bully him? Just because of an Azka?" I just don't believe it.

Stella looked at me so hurt. "Have you ever liked someone, really liked someone, but that person was instead taken with your own best friend?"

I do know how it feels to like someone, because that's how much I feel about Davin, but I don't know what it's like if Davin was taken by my best friend.

"When I liked Azka from the beginning but suddenly Freya said that she had been dating Azka. He said that Azka was not his type and would even try to match me with Azka but eventually they even dated. Freya even monopolizes all the attention of the teacher. He makes me feel useless..."

Stella's wrong. If only he had read Freya's diary maybe Stella would have understood. Freya subconsciously did. She wanted to be the best because she knew only she could teach Stella. Freya herself wrote that she actually envied Stella because Stella was beautiful and a sports hero, unlike Freya who was weak. Freya wants to be on par with Stella so she learns as hard as possible to be the best.

"Lo thought how her brother felt when he found out that you bully his sister?" my question made me instantly aware of my stupidity. What did I just say? Do I want to open my disguise?

Suddenly Stella smiled faintly. "Freya most often tells stories about her brother. His sister has the same name as you. Freya said that Flo was the greatest brother she had. I hate her brother!"

I frowned when I heard his words. "Why?"

"He was never there when Freya needed him! Even when Freya died, she didn't show up at all! That's what you call the best brother?"

Somehow when Stella said that, something hit my heart. Am I not the best brother to Freya? Stella's right. Where was I when Freya needed me? I was busy chasing my dreams and forgetting my surroundings.

"Why is your face like that?" stella asked quietly which made my head lift. I just pulled the corner of my lips.

"Lo regretted bullying Freya?" askaku. Stella's face was instantly grim. He's not looking at me. He stared blankly at whatever was in front of him.

"If I could turn back time, Flo. When I was, Freya and Caesar were still good friends. When we are not separated. But I know my hope will not come true. Freya's gone before I even apologize and make peace with her." I was speechless as Stella suddenly cried silently but her lips formed a sad smile. "Say the deceased nyokap me, we do not know how valuable others when the person has left us and he is right. I just realized that I have lost my best friend and the person who understands me the most when he left me."

I looked at him, unable to bring out anything. I felt guilty because I was thinking of taking revenge on Stella. This kid is more sorry than me. He suffered more than me. I did lose my sister but she lost the best person ever in her life. Without realizing it, I clasped his hand. I thought he was going to pull it but he returned my hand.

"Well, I'm Freya. Say whatever you want to tell him" I whispered. Stella looked at me, initially frowning, but she nodded and took a deep breath. He cleared his throat and wiped his tears.

"Gue's sorry, Frey. I regret all my treatment. I just realized that I love you so much when it's too late. I shouldn't have left Elo from the first. I should have stayed by your side even though I had to be hurt when I saw you and Azka. I should be happy when you are happy, like you always do. I'm sorry, Freya. Sorry me..."

And subconsciously, my tears fell when I saw his face and heard his words, like he was venting every emotion right now.

When Stella was calmer, she let go of my hand. I smiled at him and stroked his head gently. Unknowingly, I thanked him. I don't understand why I thank him. When he heard my thanks, he smiled.

"I'm the one who should say thank you. It's the first time I've taken all this out to someone else. No one wants to be close to me because of my image" Stella said.

"Friends of lo gangs?" askaku. He even shook his head.

"They don't want to hear about my feelings. What they want to hear is starting from the things I buy, where I go for a walk, where I want to treat them today and others that benefit them. You're the only one who's heard my story" Stella replied with a sad smile.

"Caesar? Why don't you try to make peace with him?"

Stella nodded again. "Even if I'm sorry and he's sorry for me, it's definitely not going to go back to the way it all was. I won't be able to get close to him."

"Why pessimistic? I'm sure Caesar must be sorry. Believe me the same. For business to return to its original or not, let the time determine. I'm sure, Caesar actually from the beginning wanted to apologize you but he was too proud to deketin lo because you instead stay away from him."

I saw Stella frowning which made me smile thinly.

"Make a first move. If you wait for him and he waits for you, who will come forward if you wait together? There will be no end. If you want your best friend back, try apologizing first. Say thanks and sorry won't make you look like a coward."

At first Stella was silent. But over time, a smile was engraved on his face. A smile she never showed me. There I realized just how beautiful Stella was when she smiled at me.

"Lo know, Freya also said the same thing when I fought with my ex?" stella asked suddenly which made my eyebrows raise.

I smiled and lifted both my shoulders. Of course I know because I was the one who taught that to my sister. What I didn't expect was Freya teaching it to someone else. Hearing that, I became even more proud of my sister.

I got up from my seat and patted Stella on the shoulder. "Tomorrow to enter, huh? Don't pretend to be sick" I said while teasing her. He smiled while nodding.

"What do you think Freya's family will forgive me if I apologize to them, especially her brother Freya?" stella asked who made my eyebrows rise.

"Lo want to hear my opinion?" my question and Stella nodded. "Actually her brother Freya already knew from the beginning how to treat you to his sister. But you try to apologize directly to him."

"But how? I've never met him let alone know how to relate to him!"

I scratched my head though it didn't itch. He's right too. How could I have given Stella my e-mail address while she knew I didn't know Freya's sister. It was the same as revealing my disguise. Suddenly an idea came out of my head.

"Look me downstairs. She works at the same place as her sister Freya. Maybe she knows her brother Freya's e-mail address" I said. Stella smiled broadly as she got straight out of bed.

"I didn't realize, did I? I have often met you!"

"Masa? Why do I never tell you?"

"He was here when Papa invited him. I thought that you were really fierce, but when he talked, it turned out that the person was fun. His insights are broad too. He used to tell me about his boss."

I raised my eyebrows. "Oh, huh? What's he telling you about his boss?"

"Gue the story while walking to where you are," said Stella as she pulled me and I walked along. "He told me that his boss sometimes asked for forgiveness. Where there are no adults. He said that his twin brother, om lo, joined his boss, always make him rise in blood. He also said that his boss was a croaker and sometimes very selfish."

Waita minute! Brenda never told me that! Whahuh? Immature? A ranger? Selfish?

"Hello, Auntie!" stella's nice greeting to Brenda made me realize we were in the guest room. I looked at Brenda while smiling wryly. Brenda's gaze fell on Stella's hand that was grasping me tightly.

"Udah shaman?" ask Brenda. Stella and I nodded at the same time. "What are you talking about?"

I smile. "much. But what makes me curious, Mama why never tell me about the boss Mama Kayak that Mama told Stella?" I asked while smiling sweetly.

I could see Brenda's eyes suddenly widening.

"You told Flo, Stella?" ask Brenda to Stella. Before Stella answered, I hunted her down.

"Oh, he told me a lot, Ma. Starting from the boss Mama who is not mature, nyebelin, a herald and selfish. I think Mama should tell me. I wanted to know about Mama's boss" I continued, which made Brenda swallow her saliva.

Stella seemed oblivious to my relationship with Brenda, if I was the boss in question, because Stella opened her mouth to ask.

"Tante Brenda knows her brother Freya's e-mail address, right? His name is Florentia Abdi Kusuma. You see, Auntie is working with her brother Flo," asked Stella. Brenda glanced at me and I nodded, gesturing at her.

"Tante knows he's pretty famous in the office. Why why?" brenda asked while looking at me and frowned. I just smiled and nodded back at him.

"Someone wants me to talk to her. I'm guessing he e-mailed me or not, huh?"

"If you say that you're Freya's friend, maybe she's retaliating as quickly as she can" Brenda replied, following my voiceless remark.

Stella suddenly smiled broadly. "May I ask, Auntie?"

I understand that Brenda is confused but even so she gave my e-mail address to Stella. Brenda gestured at me by narrowing her eyes but I just smiled while shrugging both my shoulders.

"According to you her brother Freya will read my e-mail?" stella asked and I nodded. Stella smiled at me. "Thank you, because you want to hear my story. After I thought, you do look like Freya. You both don't judge me. Strange, yes, when you do not know each other but your attitude is very similar?"

Although Stella was unaware of it, but her words really warmed my heart. Hearing that I look like my sister, while Freya is not my sister, makes me feel a lot better.

"But you really have nothing to do with Azka?" ask Stella who made my daydreams go away. I immediately shook my head.

"No! I'm not interested in a forced man!" my hiss when I remember Azka who kept chasing me without stopping.

Suddenly Stella laughed. "Yes, you want a cool type like Mr. Davin," the god that makes my face immediately feel hot. I could see his eyes widen when I saw that face. "Lo really likes Mr Davin? Jesus, Flo! He is thirteen years different from us. Do you like a much older guy?"

I averted my eyes. I wanted to say to Stella that my age difference and Davin's not that far. But not wanting to reveal my disguise to her, I just shrugged both of my shoulders. My attention was turned when I heard the door open and Phillip, Stella's father, came into the house. When he saw Brenda, he seemed to be a bit surprised.

"Lho's? Brenda's? How come you're here?" ask Phillip. I looked at Brenda who looked wrong as she tilted my head.

"What a hurry?" ask Stella.

"Yes, Mom, what's the rush?" I asked while looking at Brenda inquisitively.

"What if you had dinner here?" bargain Phillip. And before Brenda answered, I immediately cut off her words.

"Thank you, Om. But I have to go home. Tomorrow we have to go to school. Isn't that right, Ma?" brenda and I immediately agreed.

"Dearly enough. Though I want to be closer to you," said Phillip who made my eyebrows rise and I immediately looked at Brenda but Brenda looked down.

I smiled at Phillip. "Other times, Om. I'm the same Mama still has a lot of other work" I told Phillip and looked at Stella. "Tomorrow not to enter. I see you're much healthier."

Stella nodded and I smiled at her. Then I said goodbye to Phillip. When I was about to say goodbye to Stella, she said she'd drive me to my car. I agreed and Brenda walked ahead of me while Stella walked beside me.

"Thank you for listening to me. Whereas all this time you and I were like mice and cats but it turns out you were much more understanding than I thought," said Stella who made me smile. "But by the way why do I feel like you know Freya? You say as if you know him well."

"Ah, time? Your feelings aja times," I replied while turning my face away.

Stella laughs. "Yes. Maybe it's just my feeling. You probably know Freya when you never met her. Aye, right?"

I just smiled at him. Again more and more one person fell on this trick of my day. And the longer, the more painful my feelings became. The longer, the snowball I filled with lies grew bigger and it was just a matter of time until the snowball turned into a landslide that drowned me.

...***...

"Aren't you going to ask me about Phillip's relationship?" ask Brenda who broke my daydream. I chose to stare at the street beside me because right now I don't want to talk to him about anything.

"If you think it's a secret, why should I match? You have privacy and as good as possible I will not mess around," I replied reluctantly. I could hear Brenda sighing quietly beside me.

"If you ask, I will answer you, for sure" added Brenda who made me smile.

Rightly so? I thought when I heard what he said at Christmas yesterday. When he switched words and hung up the phone. I did not answer and continued to stare at the streets that were starting to get crowded with vehicles.

"Have you got your answer?" ask Brenda. I just shrugged both my shoulders.

"Stella Section, it's. Only the father of the fetus was conceived Freya. And somehow, I feel like I said I better stop here."

"You mean, you want to stop?"

"Eitherway. I feel like the longer I stay here, the more I can't take this place off when the time comes. Besides, I'm not satisfied first, find out what I mean. I'm too attached to one person in this place anyway..."

"Davin?" Brenda's tone sounded high. "God! It's the first time you've fallen in love with a guy to make you look like this!"

I turned my head and looked at Brenda. "You mean what made me look like this?" ask me confused.

Brenda thud. "Actually it's not because you're not eager to find answers or about this place... All this is because you're afraid you can't let go of Davin, right?" it was her asking that made me frown.

"You're looking for another reason because you don't want me to know about your feelings for Davin. Wh why? Because you're afraid I'll get angry? That must be impossible because I will definitely support a man you think is good" said Brenda who made me speechless. "But by the way he doesn't know about you. She knows you're eighteen."

I smiled thinly. "He knows me, Brenda. He already knew my disguise," cut me up which made Brenda look straight at me.

"What!?"

I laughed crisply. "Actually, from the beginning he knew me. He said he knew but he kept quiet because it was none of his business. And all you have to know is that he helped me in Bali yesterday."

Brenda was silent and I could see her mouth open. "We have to talk, and I think tonight you have to stay in the apartment because it's going to be a long conversation."

And I know that Brenda was serious about what she said.

...***...

I yawned wide as I entered my school gate. Of course I'm sleepy. Last night Brenda didn't let me sleep and I was forced to tell her everything from start to finish, about how Davin learned of my disguise. So I was forced to tell her first story in Bali. Brenda even gasped when I told her Davin kissed me. Even though Brenda wasn't teasing me, I knew that Brenda was trying to shake off her shock.

Since Brenda didn't want me to feel abandoned, she also told me about Phillip. She said Phillip was different from her ex-husband. Brenda was married once, when she was only eighteen years old and her ex-husband was ten years different from her. Nick is a rude man and often beats up Brenda. When I found out about his hobby, I acted immediately. I told Braxton and the police. Fortunately, the police arrived before Braxton killed Nick. After that, Brenda has a lover who is not much different from Nick. Although not beating Brenda like Nick did, but his ex-girlfriend likes cheating.

Since then Brenda feels all men are the same. So Brenda until now has no lover. Then came Phillip. Brenda said Phillip was different from all the men he knew. Phillip is the most gentleman he has ever known. I understand because I was looking for data on Phillip. He is indeed an amazing man. The proof is that he still maintains his status even though his late wife died ten years ago. But if he plays Brenda, I'll act.

"Long in the morning!" a heavy voice beside me. I turned my head around and realized that Davin was walking beside me.

"Now, new father up to now? Shouldn't the teacher have come forty-five minutes before the bell?" ask me while frowning me. God, why is he this handsome? I want to hug his sturdy arm. And when she smiled, I knew I could melt at any moment.

"I woke up late. You yourself why is this so hot? You're sleep deprived?" ask Davin. "Your eye bags are spooky. Girls shouldn't be good staying up late."

Unfortunately, I stayed up because I was talking about my father! Answer in my heart. "I'm just feeling sad, sir. I'm going to leave this school soon."

I could see that his face was shocked, even though he had instantly eliminated it. "Are you sure you found your answer? What about Azka and Caesar?" the question was a lot that confused me. It's just my feeling or indeed the tone is heard...

Like people panicking?

"My boss is on the phone. He said I should be back soon. Urgent said," my lie. I can't tell Davin the truth. I smiled at him while patting him on the shoulder. "Thank you, sir, for as long as I'm here you're helping me. I'll try to help you perfect your system."

I walked leaving him. I can't tell her that she's actually the reason I left this school. Even though she knows my disguise, but I can't have a relationship with her. Right now, he is a teacher and my status is his student. I lied to him from the beginning and he lied to me. I don't know who he is or who he is. I'd love to tell her that I liked her from the first moment I saw her but it couldn't have happened.

I did love him but I couldn't start a relationship based on lies like this. It's true Brenda said yesterday. If I were to be paired with Davin, I would definitely be united with him, no matter how.

...***...

Stella's attitude had completely changed by one hundred and eighty degrees. He no longer judges everyone. HE EVEN LAUGHED AT A JOKE THAT WAS NOT ACTUALLY FUNNY! I was a bit worried about him but he told me himself that he was laughing out of pity at my friend who said that crisp joke. Not only that, he had also turned out to be much friendlier than before. He greets everyone, even Daisy who he just greeted to shock. To my delight, Stella followed my advice by trying to apologize to Caesar. I accompanied him to meet Caesar. Cesar was shocked at first but he understood. She said she wanted to forgive Stella a long time ago but Stella didn't take the initiative first. I'm glad that Stella's finally reconciled with someone else.

"Lo why?" stella asked as we were at the gate. I was waiting for Brenda while Stella was waiting for her invitation.

I smiled and shook my head. I even patted her shoulder. "Freya must be proud and happy to see you and Caesar reconcile again" I said sincerely.

Stella was startled at first but she smiled when she heard my words. "Thank you" he said sincerely.

Stella's car stopped in front of us. She was saying goodbye to me and I nodded while waving at her. And just before he got in the car, he looked at me. His expression seemed doubtful.

"I don't know if I should tell this story or not. I don't know if you're going to spread this story to anyone else" Stella said. Honestly, I don't understand what he's saying. I looked at him while frowning.

"What do you mean, anyway? Try to speak more clearly," I ordered.

Stella plays her hand on the car door while looking at me. "Lo can keep a secret?"

"Have I ever shared your secret about Freya?" my many. She shook her head. "Do you think I can keep a secret?" ask me again and he nodded slowly. "Lo can hold my word. You can tell me anything without fearing I'll tell anyone else."

Stella looked at me, still with a doubtful look. But he opened his mouth and said one thing that jolted me.

"There's actually a reason Caesar stayed away from me or Freya. Caesar is gay. Freya told me because I was confused about who to tell. When Caesar realized we knew what the secret was, he just stayed away from us" Stella said, leaving my eyes wide open. "But you promise not to tell anyone, huh?"

I fell silent and nodded. "Lo tell someone else?" me and Stella shook their heads. "When you fought with Caesar, did you spread his secrets?" ask me again and Stella shakes her head back.

"Gue's not that bad. He's my best friend, Flo, after all" Stella replied. Her face looked shocked as my hands stretched out and gently caressed her head.

"good. It means you know you have to do good or bad. I'm proud of you" I said sincerely. She looked at me and suddenly a big smile adorned her pretty face. Before getting into his car, he waved at me and I replied.

After Stella's car, I'm sculpting. I was still confused by the info I just got. This means I'm only two suspects. Caesar couldn't possibly impregnate Freya because she was gay. Azka is also impossible because for the past year he did not return to Indonesia. It's just Collin or Davin. But Davin himself told me that he didn't impregnate Freya. But can I trust him? I closed my eyes and took my phone. I looked up Davin's name on the contact list and called him.

"Why, Flo?" greet Davin before I greet him first. I'm speechless. "Flo? You there?"

I'm throats. "I just want to ask you one thing, Father. Can I trust my father?" my many.

"You mean?"

"Can I trust you, Father? Same every word you say about Freya?" ask me inside. I was silent because he said nothing. All I could do with was the sound of his long sigh.

"It's not your fault why you can't trust me" Davin replied, puzzling me. "I'll give you a little hint about my identity. If you remember, you'll realize that I can't possibly have anything to do with Freya."

I frowned at me confused. What does he mean?

"Profotechs. Have you heard of it?" the question made my forehead wrinkle even more. What does this have to do with Davin? "So you really don't have a clue, huh? If you remember, you'll know who I am."

I couldn't ask further because Davin hung up. I'm sculpting. I've heard the name Davin said before. Profotech, short for Protection For Technology, is a security company. The company once interrogated my company for a hacking case that took place at an American defense institution. But what does the company have to do with Davin? There's no way Davin owns it because the age of the company is as old as Scott and as I remember the owner of the company is still alive and that person is fully American. I'm becoming more and more clueless. Who is Davin really?

...***...

"Why isn't your food eaten, honey?" ask my mom who made my daydreams go away. I was thinking about Davin so I didn't focus on my food. I lifted my head and looked at my mother with a smile.

"It's just a lack of appetite, Ma" I replied calmly. My mother was still looking at me but I smiled, trying to calm her anxiety.

"There's actually something Papa and Mama want to talk about" said Papa who made me turn my head and look at her. "Papa heard from Mama that you invited Papa and Mama to live with you in America."

"Why? Papa agrees?" I asked with half hope.

Papa's cleared his throat. "Actually Papa is still in doubt, however it feels less responsible if Papa leaves Papa's job in the middle of the road..."

"Then...?"

"Maybe Papa and Mama can only catch up in about two to three months. Papa won't take away Papa's chance to be with this one and only daughter of Papa's" replied my father, who widened my eyes.

"Serious papa? Papa and Mama will be staying with Flo in America?" my many. Mom and Dad nodded at the same time. Unknowingly, I immediately got up to my feet. "Mom and Dad don't worry. I'll take care of everything. Anyway Papa and Mama just need to sit sweet and all the immigration issues will be over."

The father who saw my happy face laughed. He seemed impressed with my enthusiasm. He shook his head. My attention was shifted when I heard the sound of my doorbell. Maybe it's just Brenda. She did tell me that she wanted to visit my house today. When my housekeeper wanted to open the door, I immediately held him down.

"Let me, Bi," I said to Auntie, my name for my maid. Aunt nodded and left me.

I walked to the front door with a very happy heart. I'll stay with my parents in America. I no longer need to live far away from my parents. I even smiled when I opened the door. But my smile was gone when I realized who was standing behind the door. His shocked face when he saw my face was the same as my current expression. We were both shocked.

"Flo? Why are you here?" asked Caesar who made my heart seem to stop.