THE FLO!

Bag. 18

Every day Azka followed me. Strange, I felt like I had a shadow. He always shows up when our building is different. Being in my class, being in my school, even taking computer skills that he really shouldn't be doing anymore because he's third grade. He always seduced me to be his friend. And of course I don't eat every seduction! I hate him even more! Is this Freya's ex-boyfriend? Is this what he did when Freya said that Freya still loved this jerk?

"Lho's? Where's your shadow?" asked Davin without greeting me who was awakening me from my daydream. Right now it's a computer excrement and I'm the first one to come to this place because I did avoid Azka.

I glared at Davin in annoyance. "Please, Sir. I managed to escape from him so please don't remind me again!" hisisku. Davin smiled.

"Aren't you supposed to be proud because a hero at school is chasing you?" it was his god that made me look at him even more. He raised his hand with a smile. "Okay, I'm sorry. But why don't you take this opportunity to find out about Azka? You can ask him about Freya."

I thought about it before and I did. But the problem is that when I talk about Freya, Azka must have switched the conversation, as if she didn't want to talk about Freya. Not only that, sometimes I saw him always staring at the roof from downstairs, like he was looking for someone on that roof. My attention was shifted when I heard the sound of a step that I knew so well. I immediately ran towards the table Davin hid my body under the table.

"Don't tell him I'm here" I asked Davin.

At first Davin was confused, especially when I forced myself into the undercarriage of the table. He even looked at me like I was crazy. But he understood when the door opened and someone I avoided appeared at the door.

"See Flo?" ask Azka. Davin shakes.

"No. Usually you're with him" Davin replied.

"He's gone first, sir. A classmate said he left. I thought he was here."

"Maybe he's home" Davin replied, shrugging both shoulders. "You want to go for an excrement?" it was her asking that made me glare at her. I mean, I'm supposed to be down here until the last exculpation hour when he's on excrement?

"No, Sir. If there is no Flo I do not want to come," Azka replied which made me sigh in relief. Azka says goodbye but Davin holds her back.

"You're serious about Flo?" ask Davin who made both my eyebrows go up.

"I mean, Father?" reply Azka.

"Look, Azka, don't force other people's feelings to like you. Do you think that chasing Flo every moment makes her melt? What if he's not comfortable with you?"

"Father jealous? According to the rumors, you two are so close that there is even a rumor that you are dating" asked Azka who almost made me hiccup. I looked at Davin but Davin didn't look at me. He looked at Azka expressionlessly.

"Have you finished with your accusation?" ask Davin coldly. I could neither hear the answer nor see Azka's expression. Which I even the sound of the door opening and Azka's footsteps moving away.

I don't know what to say or do. I even forgot that I was still under the table. This was all because Azka's question had disturbed my mind. Davin did not deny or approve the allegations.

"When are you down there?" asked Davin who woke me from my daydream. I lifted my head and looked at his face. God, why am I so in love with this man I don't recognize?

Davin rewinded his chair so I could get out. I crawled out from under the table and as I tried to stand up, I felt my legs tingling. I achieved whatever I could to balance my body. And I just realized that I was reaching for Davin's shoulder when I raised my head.

"I'm sorry, sir," I said unconsciously and immediately let go of my hand. But I was too quick to let go of my hand because my feet were still tingling it made my body squash. Davin pulled me over so I wouldn't fall and unfortunately, I sat on his lap.

For a moment, I felt my body freeze. My face and his face are so close. It was like when I was in Bali, when he kissed me. My memories returned as her soft lips kissed me. Going back to this moment, he was also just as free-flowing as me. Our attention was shifted when the door opened. Stella looked at us strangely. I reflexively got straight out of Davin's lap.

"I didn't bother anything, did I?" stella asked as she looked at us in turn. Instead of answering, Davin smiled.

I went back to my stool and I felt that Stella was looking at me with her eyes narrowed. Usually Stella always sat a little far from my stool and today she even sat next to me while occasionally glancing at me. When Davin gave me an explanation, I felt that Stella was glancing at me more and more. Finally, upset, when I finished my ex, I pulled out his arm before leaving the school gate.

"Okay, anybody want to talk about it?" ask me with annoyance. Stella looked at me while narrowing her eyes.

"Lo's dating Mr. Davin but you're giving Azka hope. What do you want, anyway?" stella asked fiercely. I frowned at me.

"Gue's not dating Mr. Davin!" hisisku. But Stella seemed to be in disbelief.

"What did I see then? Where are there people on the lap if they don't have a relationship?" reply with even more intense.

"So he helped me when I fell!"

"Cliche reason!" stella said as she rolled her eyes. "Lo doesn't like Azka? He's after you day and night but you're just as fond of affectionate as Mr. Davin."

I'm staring. "Lo really likes Azka?" my guess. He took his eyes off me and looked down at the ground.

"It has nothing to do with how I feel!"

"Obviously there. Tell me why you can like Azka or I'll keep him chasing me. Choose where?" my challenger and he looked at me as if he wanted to kill me.

"Lo is like Freya! He also said the same thing but at the end of the day he took Azka from me!"

I frowned at me. Bizarrely. This all makes me confused. What does all this have to do with my sister?

"He said he promised to match my match to Azka but instead he fell in love with Azka! I liked Azka first but she fell in love with Freya!"

In love? Waita minute! It's not in Freya's diary that Azka is in love with Freya.

"She herself said that only Freya girls were created for her! He accepted the student exchange program because Freya broke up with him! Lo's satisfied!?" Suddenly Stella sobbed. "He said he was my best friend. He said the three of us are not separate. But in the end Caesar hated me and Freya stabbed me in the back!"

Suddenly my eyes opened. Stella was the one Freya meant. The one who Freya doesn't want to hurt is Stella. And because he felt Freya had betrayed him, Stella stayed away from Freya and even bully Freya. My body jerked backwards.

"So that's why lo... bully Freya?" ask me when I already know the answer. Stella looked at me strangely.

"Gue didn't bully him! I'm just teaching him!"

My eyes are shining with anger. "What difference? Because lo, he's suffering! Because lo, he's pretending to be tough! Because lo, he chose suicide..."

Stella's face looked pale as I said the words suicide. He looked at me and I could see something in his eyes. Something cut his heart as I said those two words. He turned his body and left me. I looked at his back that was running away from me. I'm getting clueless about what really happened. Who exactly is the antagonist in Freya's life?

...***...

I closed my eyes but I didn't want to sleep. I changed my position, maybe dozens of times but I couldn't sleep. When I saw the clock, it was three in the morning. It's great! I didn't sleep all night! I can't even use my brain to work. And out of annoyance, I pulled up my blanket and got out of my sleep. I walked towards the kitchen, intending to make coffee because I knew I couldn't sleep, but I frowned at the sight of the lit kitchen light. Who's in the kitchen in the morning blind like this? Propagate?

I reached for Papa's golf club not far from where I was standing and tiptoed towards the kitchen. I was just about to hit the guy behind the fridge if I hadn't seen the owner of that face.

"Mama! Flo kira muting!" I said while lowering the golf club in my hand. My mother looked at me and the golf club I was holding alternately.

"You want to hit Mama with that?" ask my mother not to believe. I just grinned and turned my body around and put the stick back in its place and went back to the kitchen. I smiled as I watched my mother pour coffee into the cup and slide the cup in front of me.

"Are you awake, honey?" ask my mother gently. I didn't answer. I don't know if I haven't slept all night! "Your expression looks sad, you want to tell Mama?"

I shook my head weakly but my mother grabbed my hand and squeezed it gently.

"You've always been like this. Always swallow all your problems, don't show them to others and pretend that everything is okay" said my mother gently, raising my head. "Mama knows since Freya was born, you've stayed away from us. It was as if our affection would turn to Freya. In front of Mama, you look happy when Mama knows you like to cry alone. Mama gave you space to think but you're getting away from Mama."

I bowed my head and fell silent.

"The longer, Mama feels you're getting away from this family. You choose to go to school in America, go to college there and even work there. When Mama asks you to come home, to visit Mama, you always have a million reasons. Mama can only meet you if Mama visits you. And the longer it takes, Mama feels like you're pushing Mama away from you."

"I thought it was Mama's wish..."

"You're wrong, honey. How many times do you have to tell me you're Mama's daughter too?"

There was something that hurt my chest when Mama said that. All the feelings of my heartache while lying to Mama are getting painful. I bit my lower lip. Should I stop here? But I just found a little answer. I don't know who Freya's baby's father is. I looked at my mother and held her hand.

"When this is over, Mama will come with me to America? Not just Mama but Papa. I'll buy a house for us and the three of us will stay there. We're gonna leave this behind and start a new life. How's it?" bargained. Mama looked at.

"What about Papa's job?"

I smile. "It's time for Papa to retire. Papa can sell his business to others and start enjoying life. With all of Papa's paychecks, I'm sure we won't live short there. Moreover, my salary all this time I never touch. We'll start a new beginning there. How's it?"

Mother's speechless. It's like he's thinking.

"I can't take a 'no' answer'. If all this is done, I will not go back to Indonesia. It's too painful to come back here with all the memories of Freya." I got up from my seat. "Try Mama to negotiate to Papa first and then you give me the answer. I only have two months left. Mama thinks it's okay, huh?"

...***...

Stella's not in today. It hurts, that's the reason. Bizarrely. Last Friday he was fine. Then the next day, Stella again has not shown the trunk of her nose. I'm getting anxious. My feelings are not good. I should have left him that day. I feel like I saw Freya in my head. Why do I feel guilty? He made my brother suffer. Why do I feel like I want to forgive him?

I growled in annoyance and threw my bag onto the bed with the origin. Though it's UKS but I feel like I'm in my own home. I cursed at everything, including Brenda who hasn't come to pick me up yet. My attention was shifted when I heard the door open and saw the Rose enter while carrying a cup of tea.

"Flo? Why are you here? You sick?" ask her anxiously. I'm shaking.

"I'm waiting for my mom to pick me up, Mom," I replied. He looked relieved and sat on his lap.

"Would you like some tea?" haggard it and I shook my head. "You look in a frenzy. Is anyone bothering you?"

I'm staring. He seemed to be able to read my mind. "How do you feel if reality is not as good as what Mom had in mind?" I asked unconsciously.

The rose looked at me while tilting its head. "You mean?"

I nodded weakly and closed my eyes. "It's nothing, Mom." I got up from my seat and pinned my back bag. I opened the door of the UKS room but I turned my body when I heard the Rose say.

"Receive every reality that is in front of you. Even if it's not your wish, at least when you accept it, you'll feel a lot better."

The rose smiled so gently at me that it made me feel much calmer. I thanked him with a smile and left the room. I closed my eyes while holding the doorknob. Accept reality? I could never accept the truth. Starting from me who was only an adopted child, my beloved sister died even I began to realize how sad my life was. How am I supposed to accept all that?

My attention was shifted as my phone shook. Only Brenda sent me a message that she had reached my school gate. I took a long breath. It seems I have to learn to accept the situation. Alright. Starting from coming to the ringleader Stella.