The Alter Ego's Struggle to Fix Life

Contrition

When Bagas arrived at the hospital, he found his weeping Grandma sobbing. He approached his grandmother and tried to ask.

“Nek, what happened? Why is Grandma here?” ask Bagas slowly.

Grandma Bagas who was asked like that actually got up and slapped Bagas' cheek quite hard. To the extent that the sura slap was so echoed because the hospital hallway was still quiet.

“You really don't care about Rena! Grandma will take Rena to stay at Grandma's house!” granny Bagas said with tears.

“A-what does Grandma mean? Why would Grandma take Rena to stay with Grandma?” ask Bagas who doesn't understand.

“You know, Rena just committed suicide! You said you were going to wait for Rena, right to Grandma?! Now where's the evidence? Even when Grandma had gotten here though, Grandma didn't see you at all!” wrath Grandma Bagas.

Grandma Bagas was so angry that her grandson did not wait for Rena. Bagas has promised Grandma Bagas to wait for Rena tonight. Because actually Granny Bagas has offered to take turns looking after Rena. But, Bagas did not want and forbade his Grandma on the grounds of the condition of his Grandmother who was already vulnerable. But, if it's even like this. Grandma Bagas will definitely keep looking after Rena and ignore the Bagas ban.

“R-Rena committed suicide?” said Bagas stammered with an empty look of disbelief.

“N-Nek, what about Rena's condition? What about my son, Nek?” tanya Bagas panicked when he was able to catch what his Grandmother meant.

Grandma Bagas looks so beaten. His crying even harder to see Bagas who asked like that.

“Where? Where were you after Grandma's house?” asked Grandma Bagas quietly after calming down a bit.

Bagas shifted his eyes. He knew now, his decision to ignore Rena was a very fatal decision. Again and again Bagas made the mistake of acting without thinking carefully.

“Jawab Bagas! Where are you?!” Grandma Bagas demanded Bagas by hitting the chest of Bagas' field.

The punch was not hard, but it was able to make Bagas' heart so hurt to see the only person he loved crying and looking helpless. Bagas clenched his hand enduring the pain in his heart.

‘Yes God, I made a mistake again. Actually, why do you bring such good women around me, but I always hurt them?’ Bagas closed his eyes tightly unable to see the grim face of his Grandmother.

“Rena's addiction is weak and the Doctor advises Rena to bedrest for a few weeks. When Rena wakes up, let Rena stay with Grandma. At least, Grandma was able to keep it,” said Granny Bagas coldly and left Bagas alone in the hospital aisle.

Sagala who saw how the glass of Grandma Bagas and Bagas did choose silence. He knew, not his family to interfere with the Adijaya family problem. Because in fact he is not a member of the Adijaya family.

Bagas walked slowly and looked at Rena from the glass window. Bagas felt an incredible tightness looking at Rena like that. Now the hose in Rena's body is increasing. Despite the dim condition of the room, Bagas could still see Rena's left wrist now adorned with bandages.

‘Why did you do that? What else do I not know about you?’ ask Bagas in your heart.

“Master, drink! You also need a break!” sagala said slowly and gave a cup of warm drink to Bagas who had sat down with empty eyes.

Sagala has never seen his master like this. Even when her parents died. Sagala did not see Bagas shedding his tears. Bagas just fell silent and continued to stare blankly at the tomb of his parents during the funeral.

Sagala is close to Bagas even at the age of five years old. Sagala was two years older than Bagas. But thanks to the intelligence Bagas has, Bagas was able to become Sagala's classmate when he was seven years old.

“Gala, what should I do to fix everything?” ask Bagas slowly.

Sagala who gets such questions chooses to sit next to Bagas with a cup of drinks that he still holds.

“Master, I don't know what you're considering doing something like this. But sir, as far as I know there is no late word in life. Especially when Mister decided to fix something,” Sagala stared at Bagas who looked down at the ceramic floor of the hospital.

“I don't know if I still have a chance.”

“Master, Miss Rena is a good girl. You know for yourself how Miss Rena is a teenager, used to pursue Master very cheerfully. Even when Master's response was so cold to Miss. It may be that Miss Rena is not what she used to be, but I'm sure Miss's heart won't lie Mr.”

“You know about Rena's disease too?” tanya Bagas was surprised.

Sagala. “Grandmother told me about it. Sorry I chose to shut up. It is because of the request from your Grandma that I also do not dare to violate her message,” I Sagala laden with regrets.

“Sorry Master I will go first,” say goodbye Sagala to Bagas.

Bagas looked at the clock that was coiling in his hand. Now that it's five in the morning, Sagala must have gone home to go to the office.

“Sagala!” call Bagas slowly when Sagala has gone far enough.

Sagala can still hear the call Bagas due to the quiet state of the hospital.

Sagala nodded with certainty and turned to leave Bagas alone in the hallway of the hospital.

A few hours before …

Rena slowly opened her eyes. Then, look around.

‘I'm in the hospital.’

Rena instantly got up and felt her head throb amazingly. Rena grinned her head tightly hoping that her pain would subside. But the pain is getting worse. Slowly all the memories that Rena had experienced when she was abused as a child until the incident of attempted abuse when Rena was sixteen years old flashed in her mind. His birth was so fucked up. Not to mention the memories of Rena being bullied and getting bad treatment from Mother Panti. Everything kept milling around in his brain like a broken cassette. Continuous and repetitive.

Until Rena heard the whisper to die.

‘Mati!’

‘Mati!’

‘You must die so as not to remember this again.’

Rena heard that voice clearly. Rena closed her eyes trying to endure the pain and all the memory that kept going. Until the moment Rena is not strong anymore, Rena opened her eyes right against a knife that is beside the fruits.

‘Mati!’

‘Take that knife!’

‘Mati!’

“Shut!” shout Rena.

Rena saw a woman in white clothes take the knife and offer it to Rena.

‘Come on, when this knife hits you you must feel the delights of heaven!’

‘No more pain, no more people will hurt you!’

“Shut! I won't do that!” rena refused.

But the woman turned into a little Rena figure who was crying.

‘I want to die!’

‘I want to meet Mom's Dad!’ small Renaissance cry.

“Ah! Nah! What the fuck!” rena shouted in disbelief at what he saw.

The whispers and the sounds of crying were more real and it was getting louder so that Rena could not stand it and chose to take the knife.

‘Betul, do! You will live happily after death!’

Rena closed her eyes and slowly scratched the knife on her wrist. As he felt the pain in his hand, it felt so calm.

‘True, like this really feels good. No more pain, no more that annoying memory, Rena's inner’ while closing her eyes slowly with blood rushing from her wrist.

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