Tasbih Love Raina

25 Time passed

Wardiman's home is in mourning today for Gibran, a forty-day study. Raina's condition is still the same, he is more alone and silent. In fact, until now she has never set foot into the final resting place of her husband who is in TPU lime.

Raina picked up Gibran's shirt in the closet, then sniffed it and hugged it affectionately, as if it were Gibran's real form.

"You still can't put a tie on, Mom. Though I teach you every day just can't. But, no Papa Mas, I like the tide. Even after that you like to steal kisses from me," Rai smiled.

"I buy a lot of tie Mas, if you wear, definitely add handsome, there is a new clock also loh. When are you going home, Mom? Who wants to wear this tie and watch if you don't have any?" rai's face turned to be sad, "Mas, when you go home, huhuhuhu Mas, Rai is afraid of being alone, huhuhuhu......."

Marsya, who was at the door, looked at Rai. He walked towards Raina who was slumped in front of the closet while hugging her own knees. Marsya hugged Raina tightly.

Raina tries to release her embrace from Marsya, but Marsya still hugs Raina tightly, until finally Marsya strayed because Raina managed to push her firmly.

"For what else are you here? You're saying I'm crazy too, huh? If you came here just to pity me, you better get out of here, Shay. OUT!"

"Hold me first, Rai."

"Go from here!" Raina keeps pushing Marsya out of her room.

"I used to be Rai, I believe you," Raina still pushed Marsya, and stopped when her best friend said, "I believe that the mastermind of all this is Aunt Yani," marsya said then closed the door to Rai's room and locked it tightly.

"I believe in you Rai, and it will always be like that. I'm sorry if I didn't allow you to say Rai," Marsya took Raina in her bed.

"I know you're Rai dear, and know you very well. We've grown from childhood, I know you'll never lie, let alone for something this big."

"Now, it's just me and you Rai. Please tell me the details so I can help you. Because I'm sure, Yani is the mastermind behind all this."

Raina told Marsya everything without her covering. Including the betrayal of Diki, a friend who Rai has considered like his brother.

"Has right, Diki didn't want to come when I brought her here. I will definitely help you Rai. However, I will still pretend that things are going to be easy."

"Thank you for believing in me, but you don't have to get involved with any of this. I'm afraid Aunt Yani will also harm you."

"For that, I'll keep pretending. Don't worry Rai, I'll be fine."

"One thing I asked Rai, take good care of yourself. I can't keep you here for 24 hours, I hope that drop-in doesn't try to harm you anymore."

"I want to ask you one thing, same thing."

"What's Rai?"

"Do you think Mas Gibran is alive?"

Marsya smiled "I don't know for sure Rai, the paper just said that your husband caught fire with his car. But, what does your heart say Rai?" ask Marsya back.

"My heart says that Mas Gibran is still alive. And I'm also sure, Mas Gibran is still alive just that he's a long way from me now."

"The feeling of a wife will never go wrong Rai, seeing you, I'm sure that your husband is still alive."

Raina smiled then hugged Marsya.

Since that day Raina has never been moody again, despite having to undergo fake therapy repeatedly, she still does. Raina is not crazy, but as Marsya said she must follow the plot that Yani created. Let Yani think that Raina forgot Gibran and all the sad events, until that time comes, until things turn upside down for the better.

Six months have passed, Wulan who is none other than Gibran's brother now settled in Borneo with her husband and Milka. While Raina is currently with her mother and father-in-law has been living in the Netherlands, in addition to doing therapy and treatment for her mother-in-law, Raina also continued her delayed education.

"Ma, he said today Papa's coming. On the phone Rai said to Papa, if mama misses Indonesian food and really wants dodol same chocodot. Papa said in getting to the area first to bring dodol mama's order."

"Mama is indeed kangen Indonesian food, but if chocodot mama think you just want. Naughty yes, use the name of the mama all," her in-laws just keep researching it.

"For Ma, forgive Rai, promise that we're for two, okay?"

"Yes, yes."

"But, Mama should practice it often. Don't lose to Alex, even if he always falls but he always tries to do it."

"Yes Rai dear, Mama will be diligent in training. Yeah don't bandingin Mama with toddler next door also Rai." mama sulked.

"Mama is funny."

"You are, Rai."

Five years later

Five years is not a short time, nor is it easy to get Raina through to this stage.

Raina's paralyzed mother-in-law is now able to walk normally again. Rahmi, Raina's mother-in-law is very lucky to have Raina as her daughter-in-law, because Raina is able to move her legs again even now her legs are strong for jogging in the morning. Not only Marsya who messes with Raina completely, Rahmi also believes, but all this time he silenced for the safety of his family. Rahmi is forced to give up her favorite son, and she does not want her other family to suffer even more so she does not want to lose Raina, the daughter-in-law she already considers her own child.

Raina always tried to find Gibran, not sure if the body that had rested peacefully was her husband. Raina believes that Gibran is still alive even though everyone is against him, because only his hopes and beliefs are able to make him survive until now.

At first Raina is devastated and so miserable, but Marsya's arrival makes her braver, Raina is determined she will not be a weak woman, she must become strong, for Gibran's sake.

If in the past, Raina was dropped out of the campus with disrespect, it was also for a mistake that he did not make at all. Now in five years, Raina has earned her Master's degree, and the honor she has earned at Leiden Universteit Netherlands thanks to her discoveries in science. Raina managed to find a new compound as a selective breast anticancer without having side effects against cervical cancer.

Today, Raina works in one of the largest pharmaceutical industries in Indonesia and continues to develop her findings.

"Assalaamu'alaikum, sorry to wait for long doctor Arvi, I was stuck in traffic just now" said a woman in a blue headscarf who had just arrived.

"Wa'alikum. It's okay Raina, I just arrived, too" the man confirmed the location of his glasses with a smile. "Oh, yes, please sit."

"Thank you doctor. Regarding the clinical trial we're about to conduct" Arvi interrupted Raina's words before the woman finished delivering them.

"I invited you here for Raina's dinner, not to continue our research."

"Alright doctor Arvi."

"What do you want Rai to order?"

"Just like the doctor," Raina answered Arvi, then the man Raina called the doctor immediately called the waiters and mentioned the message.

"I forgot something" Arvi said, making Raina's forehead shrivel.

"Tonight you were so beautiful Raina, so fascinated I forgot to say."

"Doctor Arvi could have, but thank you for the flattery."

"And one more Raina, don't call me doctor, you open my patients," Raina just smiled with a joke that she thought was Arvi.

"I'm your friend, so just call Arvi, okay?"

"alright. Arvi's sister," said Raina with a smile.

Arvi was very happy to get a smile that rarely rises from the woman in front of him at this time. Raina is so cold, so it is natural that Arvi is very happy to get a smile from Raina. Even though she once refused, but tonight Arvi will try again to melt Raina's frozen heart. Despite the risks he must be ready to feel the heartbreak again. Arvi will not be daunted, he will try again and again if he fails, he will continue to look for that fortune, he hopes this time the universe supports him.

After dinner, Raina immediately returns home, Raina even refuses Arvi to drive her home. Raina feels guilty for rejecting Arvi a second time, she does not want to hurt the man at all. Raina feels that the man is too good for her, and Raina can't take Arvi more than just friends, especially in Raina's heart, the name on the throne is still the same, and the name was so strong that it was engraved with it.

"Assalamu'alaikum Ma," said Raina, kissing Rahmi's back hand, her father-in-law sitting on the living room couch, opening her large groceries.

"Wa'alikum sallam, Rai mama bought a new robe for you, peach color, definitely more beautiful if you wear it," said Rahmi while lifting the robe and attach it to Rai's body.

"You're not feeling well, baby, what kind of shoots are you?"

"Rai is not papa Ma, only soy sauce."

"Don't lie to Mama Rai, are you in trouble?"

"Doctor Arvi proposes to Rai again Ma, but Rai cannot Ma. Rai still loves Mas Gibran and always will."

"Honey you deserve to be happy, accepting Arvi's proposal does not mean your love is lost for Gibran. You are young, your path is long. Open your heart dear, son Arvi is a good man, Mama is sure he can make you happy. Mama will also feel very happy, if you want to accept her proposal. Even though you're married to Arvi's son you're still Mama's daughter, Mama's favorite."

Pov Raina Desiana

Baby you deserve to be happy. Accepting the proposal of son Arvi does not mean that your love is lost for Gibran. You are young, your path is long. Open your heart baby, son Arvi is a good man, mama sure he can make you happy. Mama will also feel very happy if you want to accept her application. Even though you are married to Nak Arvi, you are still her daughter mama, my dear mother.

My mother's words kept spinning in my head, and it sounded more than a plea, I didn't know what to do?

I know, my mom said that, because she loves me so much. Although she is not my real mother, but I feel like her own daughter, even I feel she loves me more than sister Wulan, and I also position my mother-in-law is the same as my late mother, Mama, so it's hard for me to refuse his request. But on the other hand, I still love Gibran.

I took a photo of Gibran on the nightstand, I looked at the figure in this frame with a stick, my finger stretched out rubbing this frame with love. Maybe people will see me pity, or maybe think me crazy because almost every day this photo I always talk to. I don't care, because in this way, I feel like Gibran is with me, even though after that it makes me sick because I miss him even more.

Satisfied looking at the smiling face of Gibran, I finally put this photo on my face, then I hugged it tightly while closing my eyes.

Although the possibility of you still living is very small mas, but this hope and belief that makes me able to survive until this moment even though it is difficult. The hope that makes me miss you more and makes my heart ache in this waiting.

When will this be real? When will this wait end? When will you come back into my life?

Without you my life becomes lonely and meaningless. Please come back, I can no longer live this alone.

Mas, you heard me, right?

Do you, want me to fulfill the desire of the mother who gave birth to you in this world to receive others?

Rai please come back, I miss you. Rai doesn't want anyone else, I want you to. I love you.

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