Tasbih Love Raina

13 There is no Him

The clock was eight o'clock at night, but there was no sign Raina would be out of class, but Gibran was still faithfully waiting in the parking lot. Gibran put his hand in the pocket of the red jacket he was wearing, the weather tonight was very cold even though it was not raining.

"Assalamualaikum Mas" Raina kissed Gibran on the back of his hand as he reached the parking lot.

"Wa'alaikum greetings dear. Old too, class."

"Yes, but we're watching, right?"

"So Rai, yuk has left."

After pulling the car over at one of the malls in Jakarta, Gibran immediately went down and circled the car, then opened the door for Raina. Of course Raina was happy to be treated sweetly by Gibran, especially her husband stretched out his hand to Raina, while his left hand was kept behind his back while bowing his body. Gibran treated Raina as the king's daughter. Finally they walked as Raina wrestled on Gibran's arm.

"Mas, I'm hungry, we eat yuk first."

"Ready princess."

As they enjoy the food, Rai accidentally sees Gibran whose gaze is fixed on someone, Raina follows Gibran's eyes and finds that what is seen turns out to be Dinda, no, not just Dinda, but Dinda, but there's also Jihan there.

"Well you guys here too? Shopping too?" tanya Dinda opened the conversation.

"No, we want to watch" replied Raina.

"Can we join here?" ask Jihan.

"Please mbak."

As Jihan and Dinda pull up the chair to sit down, suddenly Gibran's phone rings. Then the man resigned to answer his phone and left after getting a nod from Raina.

"Oh, it looks like the watch I bought earlier, was left behind when we chose Ji's bracelet. Jihan, Raina, I went there first, hopefully there's still" Dinda said.

"Yes, sister" said Raina.

"Mbak's spending is a lot, yes" said Raina saw a lot of Jihan's luggage.

"Yes, because I'm going to settle in Indonesia, so I just bought a lot of clothes, yesterday Dinda rushed back here, until I left all my clothes there. Besides, I don't like wearing the same clothes more than twice" Jihan said, looking at Raina's performance from top to bottom.

"Oh so," Raina nodded and then went back to chewing her food.

"Your body is small, but you eat a lot of food too, Raina."

"Yes, you want pizza too?" bargain Raina while giving a box of pizza to Raina.

"I don't like food like that, it's high in calories." Jihan said indifferently.

"Yes if you don't want to" said Raina continue her food.

"I wonder Al, why would he want to make you his wife?  Snot like you don't deserve to be Al's wife. What more are you than me?  Or are you just Al's runaway because I left him? Just so you know Al loves me so much, but I used to be too stupid to think about our friendship. And I'm sure, Al still loves me and will come back to me after throwing you far away" Jihan said, staring at Raina.

Al loves me very much

Al loved me so much, from the length of the word Jihan that Raina caught, only those three words kept spinning in his mind. However, Raina tried not to show her expression in front of Jihan.

"Have you finished your speech?" raina asked back which astonished Jihan.

"Sniffraggling? Ma'am wants to talk about using bismillah so, just want to say people's children, not really filtered anyway. Or is it because you feel like you're losing young to me?" Raina smiled and continued her words. "Obviously Rai is more everything than Mbak, so that Mas Gibran married Raina, not Ma'am Jihan. I don't care how close you guys are, obviously don't expect Mbak to take Gibran's mas from me, because I'll never let him" Raina said firmly.

"You," Jihan said as she pointed her index finger at Raina.

"We'll see, Raina who will win? And, you can't deny the fact that you're just Raina's replacement" Jihan said. Raina wanted to continue this debate, but she stopped as Gibran walked towards her.

"Sorry for a long time, there was a client who called" said Gibran.

"No papa MAS MY DEAR HUSBAND, papa children, Rai has finished eating it. We're gonna watch, right?" raina said as she slipped into Gibran's hand.

"Dinda picked up her clock left behind in Al's jewelry store" Jihan replied.

"We first yes Ma'am, soon the film will be screened," said Raina.

"Come on."

"Ji, we go first yes, saying goodbye to Dinda too," said Gibran while Rai increasingly widened his smile on Jihan. Gibran and Raina leave Jihan alone.

"You call Dinda brother, she's not your sister-in-law? " ask Gibran.

"Yes, it's not good to call names. Brother Dinda is the same age as you," Raina said as Gibran nodded his head.

"Oh we're going down Yang, isn't the movie about to start?"

"Tomorrow Mas, I have no appetite to watch, now we go home I want to talk seriously with you." Gibran was amazed when his wife was very excited to watch, and suddenly now even take him home. Maybe Raina is tired Gibran thought.

After praying, Raina waited for Gibran to finish his office duties. Until Gibran closed his laptop, Raina changed his position to sit and leaned his back on the headboard.

"I want to be honest with me, and I want to tell you everything I don't know about mas" Raina took a breath and exhaled slowly. "Did you really love Jihan?" raina asked seriously, but Gibran was silent.

"What is the silence of this Mas, justifying Rai's question just now?" raina asked until her eyes started to look glassy.

"Mas, replied Mas," said Rai as he pulled the collar of Gibran's shirt while shaking Gibran's body.

 Not the answer Raina got. However, only a look of guilt from Gibran received.

"I'm sorry."

Even though he was ready for the answer he would hear, it was still very painful. The tears still flowed, though Raina painstakingly held her back. The fact that Gibran loved Jihan made Raina's heart ache, her chest was so tight.

Raina did not expect that she loved Gibran so quickly, and so quickly her heart broke.

Gibran pulled Raina's head over his shoulder, then he held Raina's fingers. Gibran looked straight ahead, and his eyes began to look.

"Jihan is my first love. Mas and he were close, from we were kids. We are always together, from Kindergarten, Elementary School, to college we take the same majors and universities."

"Mas' affection for her turned into love, as we grew up. His heart was always on him. Whatever you will do for him at that time, to make him happy. But at that time, I was too cowardly to express my feelings to him. Mas was afraid, he would stay away from the mas, until the mas chose to hold it himself. Until the time we were in college, precisely the fourth semester, came a transfer student named Biyan. We met and began to be friends with him. Apparently, from the beginning of the meeting Jihan was already interested in Biyan. Slowly Jihan gets closer to her, almost every day Jihan recounts her admiration for Biyan with sparkling eyes. He was happy to see that he was happy and at the same time sick because it was not the mas that made him happy." Gibran smiled smirkingly.

"One day, out of jealousy and fear, you will lose it. That night I came to him to express my feelings to him. However, before that happened, Jihan told me that she and Biyan had officially become lovers. Again saw his happy with Biyan mas undo the intention to express love mas turned into congratulations. Until one day, I saw Biyan having an affair and beat her up and showed it to Jihan. But Jihan was immediately devastated by the man's apology.  Mas eventually declares his love for Jihan but she refuses. For him mas already like a brother himself, until he really away from the mas and overtake Biyan for S2 to Australia."

"Heard his request for the last time, before he left. He told her to try to have a relationship with a woman to make sure that her feelings for him were only to protect and love her as a little sister no more, because all this time mas not close to any woman other than Jihan and Dinda. I tried it many times, but it always fails and it's hard to forget about Jihan."

"Mas does love Jihan, but it was and will only be a memory."

"The woman I love, not Jihan anymore. Even that sense had now completely vanished for her. Because now mas-loving" Raina immediately looked up her head staring at Gibran's bead eyes.

"The woman that Mas loved, is now shedding tears even while hugging Mas. Just so you know Raina, Mas has never met you before. But, when Mas shook your papah's hand and made our sacred promise to God that even the angels witnessed, right then and there, the heart trembled and the heart of Mas beat very fast. Mas very grateful, because at that time also the heart of Mas has anchored to you let alone tat when you kissed the hand of the mas at that time, the warm feeling spread from the heart of the mas to the entire body. By Allah Raina, the woman whom Mas loves is only your own wife, only you are the perfecter of life and religion Mas." Raina dives into Gibran's eyes to see the truth and Raina finds no lie there.

Raina hugged Gibran's neck tightly and cried as she pleased. But this time it was not so much because of his wounded heart, but the gratitude of being so happy, that it was only the woman Gibran loved.

"Sorry Rai, I don't like to see you cry like this" Gibran said, wiping Raina's tears.

"Thank you, only honesty you want Rai to listen. Rai does not want the slightest thing mas cover," said Raina lirih but still Gibran can hear. Now Raina outlined their embrace.

"One more time, Rai wants this to be the first and last time I mention him when we're together. All is clear mas, Rai believes the same mas, Rai also love the same mas."

Gibran was very happy to hear Raina's confession just now. Tubs dipper together, if his love used to clap one hand. Now his hand floating in the air was on the sea with Raina. Gibran is very happy because now he is not only loved but also loved.

"Mas promises there will be neither him nor them among us. I'm not a good person, but I'm going to keep trying to be the best husband for you Raina."

"So will Rai mas, Rai will devote all of Rai's life to the mas and we will continue together to reach his Ridho."