Substitute Love (Married Candidate Sister-in-law)

Skeptically

Here they are both on a bench not far from the restaurant. Jill refuses when Ferdi offers to drive her, because she has already called Qian. That was the reason, which was actually him wanting to avoid Ferdi's husband.

"How are you, Jill? You haven't been home in a long time. It looks like you feel at home there," Ferdi said opening their conversation.

"I am waiting for the birth of my granddaughter. It makes time roll without feeling," said Jill with a simple smile that looks more motherly and warm.

"Where are you from?

"You ... already ... Back to how it used to be. So simple, beautiful, and graceful. Looks like I went through something big happened to you," Ferdi said. Mama jill smiled again.

"He said ... He doesn't have anything else. But she looks happy with her husband. It made me think. Happiness is simple, and ... Real close. I'm the only one who's been looking for something that hasn't been around all this time. Until it turns me into something I don't recognize anymore" said Mama Jill in full meaning. Ferdi was silent for a moment before he raised his voice again.

"Let's go back again. I promise I'll change, Jill," he said sincerely.

"Fm ... Looks like I can't anymore. I ... Want ... We're splitting. I used to be like an empty glass. Want to fill in any amount will still not be full. I buy branded bags, hang out with them, wear thick makeup to draw your attention back and cover up my loneliness. But my heart remains empty. I still feel like there's nothing empty to aim for, but ever since I've been here with my daughter-in-law, son and granddaughter. I began to feel my emptiness filled. Caring for my son and daughter-in-law, joking around together, or tidying up the house with all of them, it slowly made the hole in my empty glass begin to patch up. I seem to find my purpose and my reason for life." Mama Jill did not look at Ferdi, but a sincere smile continued to be etched on her face. "Maybe from the beginning I didn't want this marriage, I was just trying to find something to fill my heart after Reza left me. I ... Can't forget Reza, Fer. He was very nice and always spoiled me. Like Vero all this time to me," said Mama Jill this time with teary eyes. Ferdi could see happiness in those eyes now. The happiness he hadn't seen in Jill's face in a long time.

"Sorry Jill, I hurt you. I just need time to trust you again after you took everything from me to the young man. I put a lot of effort into my life after you took everything from me, "Mama Jill bowed with regret. Ferdi who saw the regret immediately grabbed Mama Jill's hand and looked at the beautiful face deeply. "Now, let's start over. I will give you what you need. For a few weeks you weren't home, making me sober. That every corner of the house is you, Jill. And how hard you have tried to do your best, until you get bored and choose to leave. I miss your joking laughter that is always heard in Jill's house, your unique cooking. Only you can do that for me." Persuade Ferdi again.

"sorry. I can't. I can't lie to myself anymore. I wasn't happy all this time. I ... Don't love you, Fer. Sorry ... I can't anymore," broke up Mama Jill heavily.

Ferdi took a deep breath. Maybe Jill really needs some time alone right now. He can't force her at this moment.

"good. But ... If you want to go back. You know the direction .. and the door is always open for you" said Ferdi. Makes Mama Jill lift her face and stare at the ferdi. A smile engraved on the face that is not young anymore, but still looks very charismatic, Mama Jill again pinned her smile.

"Thank you" said Mama Jill who was at the same time as Qian's arrival. Qian stopped his motor right in front of the two. He opened his full face helmet and greeted Ferdi with a respectful smile.

"Hi, Qian. How you doing?" greet Ferdi friendly.

"Okay, om. om, how? Healthy?" reply Qian kindly.

"Healthy" he answered kindly. "Oh, yeah. Oh, Mama Jill ya. Om go first" he said as he stepped away after glancing at Mama Jill with a smile. Mama Jill just stared at Ferdi's departure with a deep look. Qian just silently watched the two.

After a while they left from there. Along the way they just kept quiet with their own thoughts. Qian thought about his mother and wife. Mama Jill thinks about Ferdi and the continuation of her relationship which now even makes her confused by the decision she will take.

The night journey continues to lead them towards the same destination. Splitting the darkness of the night with the light of a vehicle. After a long time with her mind, Mama Jill began to realize that her daughter-in-law was carrying her vehicle like floating in the air.

Qian who was wearing a fullface helmet could barely hear anything from Mama Jill except her loud claps on her shoulders.

Qian looked back a little.

"SUGAR!" mama Jill cried out in a loud voice.

Qian smiled and slowly reduced his speed. Because too much entry with his subconscious makes Qian not realize if his speed has exceeded the average vehicle limit on public roads. Fortunately he has a racing spirit that makes him able to balance the crowded streets with the speed of his vehicle instinctively.

***

Not long they arrived and as usual Vero had opened the door before Qian got off the bike, because Vero had memorized the sound of the Qian motor.

She stared at the wonder why Qian and her mother could go home together this way.

"Cock together?" ask Vero curiously.

"Mama Jill was out of the courtship," continued Qian nosy who greeted Mama Jill with a pinch on Qian's arm that made Qian complain of pain. And he entered his room leaving Qian and Vero who still seem to have to solve their problems.

As if understanding with Vero's gaze that seemed to demand clarity.

"Tomorrow we buy something that is still lacking without having to make us feel indebted again. That thing will make us owe later. I don't want that. That bike, my dad bought it. If not, my mother would have taken it from me. I don't want my son to be either. Brother don't see how my mother kicked me out? That's how I was in her eyes. It is easy to become alien and forget. How could he care in an instant?" qian. Vero remained silent without consent. Qian saw Vero still seemed hard to accept. He finally moved from there while carrying his helmet

***

While sleeping Vero still looks upset. He turned his back to Qian without a sound. Qian who did not want to be bothered with Vero's attitude tried to forget Vero's attitude. He turned his body and tried to close his eyes.

***

On the other side. Maya was still silent in front of the baby clothes. While Alzam who peeps trying not to interfere. He only caught a glimpse of how his mother was grieving and went from behind the door of his mother's slightly open room.

Maya sighed deeply and put the baby's clothes back in a special box and placed them in her closet. As if he still believes that someday there will be a chance to wear it to his grandson later.