
"ta-but why? what's wrong?!" jessy's tone rose. she began to be shaken by Alfin's words.
alfin's mouth gripped can. he did not want to say anything more. *had enough*, his roar.*what have I done*? he should have held jessy laughing loudly and said this was just a joke. Unfortunately, this is not a joke, nor a dream in the heat of the day.
"*you must do it*!" a ferocious voice pierced the eustachian passageway in Alfin's ear. "*you must leave him tonight also*!".
" *quite*!!" Alfin wanted to shout as loudly as possible, covering the earlobe that just kept charging the promise.
"you're not wrong Jes. absolutely not! we're just stuck in the wrong circumstances.This relationship is also my biggest mistake." Alfin gulped bitterly.
"what do you mean?!" jessy asked me a few times.
Alfin was a bit upset.*please, don't make me repeat this stupid reality, jes*. Again Alfin gulped and tried to strengthen his heart. "this relationship is a mistake, jes. MY BIGGEST MISTAKE.I love you. However, the fact that my love will kill you. I am a sinner, Jes. a sinner without forgiveness".
Jessy was silent.her feelings were mixed between disbelief, anger, sadness that sparked suddenly in her soul.between believing and not believing; she felt like she was being toyed with. tried to restrain himself and did not interrupt Alfin's sentence that sounded drowned in the darkness.Something in his head began to feel pulsating.in his collected puzzle, pieces by pieces without power.
"you mean?" Jessy demands.
"that's such a funny joke, Fin," she repeated.
Alfin did not answer. at a glance, in the dimness, at the sight of Jessy's face paled. for some reason, a little taste in Alfin said that the news he carried was not too surprising jessy. does Jessy know? however, Alfin did not want to make sure to look Jessy in the eye, he could not even bear.in fact, he himself was busy refraining from falling.
"you mean you're gonna propose to me soon, right? please don't mess with me." Jessy stared straight at Alfin who remained trembling. The anxiety of the day was quite reasonable.*business in Alfin's house, and he did not know. Alfie is getting married! and, not with him*!.
Jessy shook her head. bitten by her lips until it hurt.*so, this is not a dream? Alfin betrayed him*? tears began to melt on Jessy's cheeks and fell on her lap.Now, she began to be able to feel the reason. Alfin who is no longer cheerful and enthusiastic when with her or when receiving a call. the look of a face that is not as sharp as usual, also his smile that seems bland and forced ..........
"you can't do it, Fin! you promised me!" slowly, his distrust fell. Jessy was hysterical.
alfin's tears began to grow. Immediately, at the divert his gaze to the starry-studded sky. "please, don't cry, Jessy" his heart begged. However, Jessy's body shocks that were caught at the end of Alfin's eyes answered earlier.
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Alfin lets Jessy blow away the disappointment, and her heart aches for quite some time. Alfin did not catch her, let alone hug her, he had to let Jessy face the chaos in her heart alone, since tonight. Jessy had to get used to it even though her current pain must have been overwhelming. After Jessy's crying subsided, then she spoke.